I can't say that I'm really good at writing down my feelings; but just for you I'll do my best. First, I want to say that I was really touched by your trust. I know you, and I know that you don't open up that easily. So it must have taken a lot of courage for you to tell me all of that, but I'm really happy that you did. I know you'll be embarrassed and you might shy away from me when you'll see me after reading this, but I don't want you to worry. I won't judge you and I won't force you to talk about anything you don't want to talk about. I won't even mention what you wrote in your letter. Do we have a deal?
I'm not quite sure where to start. There are so many things I wish I could say to make you feel better, but I know it's not really going to help. The pain you're going through is something we all went through it at some point in our lives, but perhaps only for different reasons. You've probably had one of the most tragic reasons, and that's why I respect you so much. After all you've been through, you still didn't give up on life. So many people, Bones, have killed themselves for so much less than that. But you didn't, and for that, I'm proud of you. I can't promise that the pain will go away. It probably won't ever disappear completely, but I know that eventually time will ease your pain. It's been a very long time, I know, and you're wondering why it still hurts that much. It's probably because you never had closure. You never found out what happened to your parents and that's why it still hurts. The day you'll finally get those answers is the day you'll finally be able to let go. That day is going to come, I guarantee it. I'm not sure why, but I have a feeling that we'll find out what happened to your parents soon. But until then, just hold on tight like you've done for the past fifteen years. Don't give up.
And we do see it, Bones. We do see that you did your best, that you always do your best. Anybody that isn't blind can see it. Maybe not at first but once we get to know you properly, we all see it. I don't know many people who could have succeeded at rebuilding themselves from scratch like you did. Then again, I don't know many people who had to go through what you went through. Just don't think you have to be strong and independent all the time. We never expected that from you and we never will. You have friends now, Bones, you have people. People who will be there for you and will help you carry the weight of your past so you don't have to carry it all by yourself. If you just let us, Temperance, we could do that.
Let me tell you a story. It's about something that happened to me about a year ago. I met this woman who was anything but ordinary. You should have seen her Bones. She was cold, insensitive, infuriating; she had to have the last word in every single conversation that we had and she'd always lose herself in scientific mumbo jumbo lectures. Let's just say I wasn't too fond of her. Still, as the months passed, we learned to accept one another and we became some sort of friends. Of course, we bickered a lot and she still pissed me off, but she just grew on me. Looking back today, I wonder how I lived my life without her.
That woman, Bones, it's you. Before I met you, I felt confident too. But from the first day we started working together (okay, maybe not the FIRST day), you made me reconsider everything that I knew. Before I met you, I only followed my gut feelings. Today, working with you, I'm forced to follow evidence and facts. You make me do stuff I wouldn't normally do: you made me threaten a gang member (we'll need to talk about this after), you made me walk out of a hospital while I was injured, and on top of that you made me remove evidence from a crime scene. Never, in a million years, did I think that I was going to do that, and for one woman at that.
The point I'm trying to make is that you came a long way in the past year. You're so far from the cold and insensitive woman you used to be, and I couldn't be prouder of you. Not only me, all of your friends too.
So if you ever need support and someone to listen, don't ever forget that you're not alone, not anymore. You have friends who love you, who care about you, and who will never let you down. And that's a promise.
It's pretty late and I should stop here. But tomorrow, as you'll be reading this, chances are that I'll already be on my way to your office. So I'll see you in just a couple of seconds, okay?
So, what did you think? Also just wanted to wish everybody a "happy" watching of Bones' season finale tomorrow. It's going to be great:-)