You'd never peg David as a quiet sleeper, would you? I mean, there's a reason I call him "The Walking Mouth." So, if he's always so loud awake, you'd think he'd talk in his sleep or mumble or moan or say something. But he doesn't. And I should know. After all, I've been in his bed for weeks now, and he still has yet to even breathe loudly enough for me to hear.
The first time we had sex, or made love as I wanted to put it, I thought he was going to moan. I could have sworn that Davey was going wail or howl loud enough to wake up everyone we know. I didn't tell him to be quiet, but I did think it at him. For a while I was afraid I said it aloud and that was why he never did. But I didn't and that's not. David's just a quiet sleeper, I guess.
I asked him about it yesterday. He just gave me his usual "Cowboy, are you insane?" look and left it at that. It made me wonder, though. He got this empty look in his eyes for a second before he asked me if I was feeling all right.
It's the emptiness that scares me. Like maybe something made Davey not want to talk, or afraid to talk. I don't know what it is, though, because his parents are nice people—good people. They're the kind of people who don't scare their kid into learning how to breathe silently.
I can't ask him again, because I know he doesn't want to tell me. Or maybe he doesn't know why. He'll just make some crack like, "Jack, I spend all the rest of my time talking. Can't I be quiet in my sleep?" He knows I'll leave it alone if he asks me, which is why I won't ask him in the first place.
Because I don't want to leave it alone. I want to find whoever did this to my Davey and beat the shit out of them. I want them to know what it's like to wake up every morning and be able to swear you're lying next to a corpse. His silence is unnatural. It's not healthy. No matter how good the sex is, he never moans. No matter how bad the nightmare, no mumbles or groans. He just lies there. Silent.
So, I want to know who broke him, and I want to make them pay. Because David shouldn't ever be quiet. He's too perfect to be broken.