I'm extremely surprised that it would draw you in considering how poorly it was written in the beginning and for a while after that, so thanks for sticking through that stuff. I'm sorry that you weren't able to enjoy the last chapters, especially since for me they were exciting to write and at the heart of the conflict. I guess what I would say to you is that if you're feeling uncomfortable, for me that is a success, because the situation is supposed to be disturbing, and I wasn't confident whether or not I was capable of depicting or narrating the kind of confusion, danger, and entanglement in a cult mindset that I imagined for this part. I could have blown it and made it seem like everyone was overreacting. In that regard, I hope you don't mind if I take your review as positive. If I hit a truly bad cord with you, as in you cannot appreciate that it's disturbing at all, then I only hope that, for those who feel similarly to you but stick with the story till the end, Lily is redeemed and freed from this situation enough to give readers peace. However, knowing the exact sentiment of the last scene, as only the author can as of yet!, I can't promise complete redemption.
Yeah, I agree. lol Thanks for reviewing, Inuji!
I'm sorry to hear that you were having a problem at work, but I'm glad you were able to get yourself out of that situation. Though it wasn't a crisis, I had a bad boss once, so those arent empty words.
I wasn't expecting that Lily would parallel Christine very much, but I'm happy to hear that. I always just focused on how Leroux Erik and "Erik" corresponded, and when it came to Lily I just worried how she as herself would react to that. Even though I appreciate and respect Christine as a character (I'm not one of those people who thinks she's a bimbo), her personality has been hard for me to grasp as something clear and distinct, so I just picture a dreamy teenager, I guess, dreamy because she has a hole to fill.
Anyway, thank you for writing to me. I hope that you keep in touch with me, too. I already posted CH48 at my journal, so if you can't get your password on here, and don't want to make an account at Livejournal, we can email each other and I can copy-pasta. I'm already doing that for someone else.
Oh no, I was not thinking of you when I said no one was responding! You were reviewing every single time the last time I was here, really fast, and I looked forward to it. It's really been thoughtful of you to let me know how you're feeling as often as you have, and it's a relief to hear that you understand why I got frustrated. Begging unfortunately wouldn't change my decision. I never made it to be vindictive to my readers or anything - I truly had decided, years ago, not to post the whole thing on a public site. While I find it hard to believe that someone would want to steal the story, I didn't want to be a completely idiotic author and make it available for possible theft to people I can't even keep track of. Most authors who want to publish don't post online at all.
Anyway, Livejournal is cake, and once you're registered you don't even have to use the site besides to log in. And I do believe if you were there that you would write to me just as you have here. We'd also have a much easier platform in which to get to know each other, so there's always that. :) And I just told L'Archange that I can email you updates, too, so let me know how we can make this work!
Thank you for everything!
For further discussion, please send me a pm. I'm pretty sure I'm not supposed to use the post feature to have conversations to my readers, but I wanted a quick way to respond to all of you. ;) -J