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Chapter 9: Days Bleeding into Nights
Phoebe sat on the couch, legs propped up, with a coffee mug paced firmly in her grasp. She remained, unmoved, only thinking. Every morning, it seemed, she would wake up before dawn, go downstairs, make her coffee, sit down, and just think. She couldn't sleep anymore.
It seemed that this all started when she had come back from the separate plane. She didn't know why but it all became worse when she summoned Coop, which had been about two months ago. She didn't understand. This was supposed to be the happiest time of her life. Her family would soon be starting. She would soon have the life she had always dreamed about. Why did it feel so wrong to her?
The morning after she summoned Coop, she told her sisters about him. And as she presumed, Piper gave her 40 minute long rant about personal gain. She seemed to warm up to the idea after she saw him again, and witnessed his love for Phoebe. Paige, however, seemed thrilled about it from the get go. She kept telling Phoebe that at least it wasn't a demon. Phoebe pretended that the comment meant nothing to her, but every time her sister said it, Phoebe felt her heart ache.
Phoebe knew that it was her time to be happy, and she was. But she couldn't shake the feeling the she was meant to be happy with the man who she had spent two almost blissful years with, the demon who Paige kept referring to, her one true love.
Maybe that was what was making her uneasy, that she was settling for Coop. Never in a million years did Phoebe think that she would settle. For a while she didn't even think that she could settle down. She was all about hot flings and one-night stands. All that changed when she met Cole. He tamed the inner wild-child in her, and she tamed the inner demon in him. They balanced each other out. And for once, she had found her other half.
But she had failed him. She didn't trust in their love enough to believe that he wasn't evil. Like Barbas had said during the tribunal, "It was Phoebe's cold rejection of Cole's love that made him go crazy". Phoebe couldn't even understand why she was agreeing with a demon at the moment, Barbas especially. But she knew the statement was true. Maybe if she had done something… anything… then she might not be in this predicament. But she let her fear of Cole's demonic nature dictate her choice. She had the choice of believing that their love could conquer all, but she chose to act out of her fear. And that was their demise.
That one word stuck in her mind. Choice. She had a choice now, at this moment. She could choose to do what her mind was telling her, which was to find out what she could have with Coop, and be happy. Or she could choose to follow her heart, which was to su-
"Phoebe?" Coop had walked into the living room and interrupted Phoebe's thoughts, "You're up early."
"Umm, yeah," Phoebe rose from the couch and realized that her coffee was completely cold, which was weird considering that there was over half a cup left. "I couldn't sleep."
"That's the fourth time this week, and its only Wednesday. Are you okay?" Coop asked, concerned.
Phoebe laughed it off, "Of course I'm okay. I've just been thinking about my column. I've been swamped with letters this week. I guess everyone can't be as lucky as me in their love life" Phoebe added cheerfully as she quickly kissed Coop on the cheek on her way to the kitchen, where she emptied her cold coffee down the drain.
Her last statement was far from the truth. In fact, there was a shortage of letters this week. And the majority of those that came in were fan letters, saying how much her advice had helped them. How could she help so many people and not be able to help herself, Phoebe thought sorely.
Coop looked on skeptically. He knew something was up, he could sense it. He chose not to speak on it, for Phoebe would probably just follow it up with more lies. Why was he not getting through to her? He was a Cupid. He thought for sure that he would have her heart by now. He knew that this would be a little harder than most love matches, and he knew that he was already falling for her, and falling hard. But he was sent to help her, and that's what he was going to do, even if it killed him.
"I'm going to work in a few, so is there anything you need me to do before I go?"
"No, I'm fine," Phoebe responded. She walked away from the kitchen counter and towards Coop with her arms slightly outstretched, to which he graciously walked into.
After a few moments Phoebe backed away awkwardly and muttered, "Have a good day, Coop."
Coop merely nodded, turned around, and vanished, leaving only the image of a heart behind which quickly faded away.
Phoebe sat down on the kitchen chair and placed her head on the table, "What the hell am I doing!" Phoebe exclaimed, a little louder than she should have.
"That's a good question. What are you doing?"
Phoebe looked up to see Piper standing in the doorway with Chris on her hip. Piper tilted her head to one side as if to say, 'Fess up'.
Phoebe glanced around for a quick excuse and out of the corner of her eye she saw the daily newspaper. She grabbed it, and opened to the Arts and Leisure page. "This crossword! It's really tough. I have no idea what I'm even doing!" Phoebe lied through her teeth.
Piper smiled, "Ha ha ha, nice try! You know, I can see your wisdom teeth. Now tell me what's really up."
"Nothing is wrong! What is with you people lately?"
"Phoebe! Get over it! You should know by now that you can't keep a secret long in this house. And plus, I always know when you're lying. You've been going around like a lost little puppy for weeks now! Paige and I have both noticed it, and I'm sure Coop has too. What's going on?"
Phoebe let out a reluctant sigh, "It's Coop. I'm starting to think that I made he wrong decision by summoning him here." She waited for the sympathetic response from Piper.
She didn't get it. Instead, she got a slap upside her head.
"Ouch! What was that for!" Phoebe held the back of her head.
"What the hell is wrong with you!" Piper spat out.
"No, Phoebe! This is your mess! You can't expect to summon the so-called 'love of your life', which may I remind you, has personal gain consequences. Then all-of-the-sudden change your mind and think, 'Oh wait, Coop isn't what I want anymore, maybe I was wrong.' There are other feelings to consider now, Phoebe!"
"I know that, Piper!"
"I'm not finished! What do you expect to do now, huh! Just send him back! Tell him that maybe he's not the right one for you after all! God Phoebe! You can be so selfish sometimes! So tell me exactly what it is you want!"
"I want.." Phoebe started off strongly, but her voice suddenly became lower, "I want to feel butterflies every time I look into his eyes. I want to go weak in the knees when he smiles at me. And I want to forget the world every time I'm with him. But I feel like a horrible person, because I feel none of these things. I know that I love him, but it's just not the same."
"It's not the same as what?" Piper asked, more calmly. Phoebe didn't respond, so Piper continued, "Never mind, I think I already know that answer. You know, you sound like I did when I was with Dan. It seemed that every moment I was with him, I was thinking about Leo."
"What am I going to do Piper?"
"Coop, he's a really great guy! And he really loves you. I say that you should see where this thing can take you. Trust yourself, and him. Other than that, I don't think there is anything else you can do. You've already taken one too many chances. And if you keep knocking on the devil's door, sooner or later someone is gonna answer."
"And we both know who that someone would probably be," Paige spoke, responding to Piper's comment, as she walked into the kitchen, "What's going on?"
Phoebe rested her head in her hands and began to speak to Paige, "I'm not sure if I made the right decision in summoning Coop. I kinda feel like I'm settling."
"And I'm afraid she's going to try some other spell to get what she wants," Piper added.
"Well, it's not like she's gonna raise the dead," Paige said while eating a bowl of cereal she had just made for herself, "I'd say go for it. Buy you know, I think it's always best to fight for what you want, not chant for it. It kinda takes away the whole personal gain mess."
Paige put he empty dishes in the sink and while on her way out of the kitchen she mumbled, "Good Luck!"
"Thanks," Phoebe said as she rolled her eyes, "She seems happier this morning." she commented to Piper.
"Uh huh," Piper raised her eyebrows, "Kyle stayed over."
"Ohh I see" Phoebe grinned, "At least she's happy. I guess two out of three sisters ain't bad, right?"
"Phoebe, you can be happy too. You just have to get rid of the notion that you're life will be the same as it was four years ago. We're not the same people we were back then. That was a whole different life. You want your relationship to go forward. At some point you have to let go of the past and start moving on. "
"I know that Piper. And I promise, I'll try"
Phoebe rose from her seat and the room around her was not as still as it was seconds before. Her head was spinning, and the vague image of Piper was slowly falling away from her and fading into blackness.
Phoebe opened her eyes, and adjusted to the light that was streaming around her. She was standing again, and she wasn't at all dizzy. In fact, she felt perfect.
Her head was tilted downward and she could see white and red rose petals strewn across the floor, surrounding her feet, which were delicately placed in a pair of white Jimmy Choo heels with crystal embroidery. She then noticed the stain ivory gown she was wearing. It was absolutely beautiful. It hung from one strap, and it hugged her body perfectly. Her dark hair rested in subtle waves on her shoulders, and she could smell the slight fragrance of lavender.
She didn't understand why she was standing there, why she was in this amazing dress, and why someone was holding her hands in theirs.
Phoebe lifted her head and saw the person standing in front of her, everything became clear. For looking back at her were the pair of bluest eyes she had ever seen. They were cold as ice, yet could warm her heart with just one glance. She knew now why she was standing there.
"Coleridge Turner, do you take Phoebe Halliwell to be your lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold, for better, for worse, forsaking all others, from this day forward, until death do you part?"
"Beyond death. Always," Cole replied simply with a smile.
The priest continued, Phoebe assumed it was a priest. She hadn't taken her eyes off Cole long enough to look around the room, "And do you, Phoebe Halliwell, take Coleridge Turner to be your lawfully wedded husband, to have and to hold, for better, for worse, forsaking all other, from this day forward, until death do you part?"
"I do," Phoebe said through a grin. But Cole's smile had vanished.
"Ms. Halliwell?" The priest spoke with uncertainty.
"I said I do." Phoebe responded, a little confused by the situation.
"Ms. Halliwell?" The priest said again.
"Phoebe? Are you okay?" Cole asked her with a hopeless look in his once bright eyes.
"I'm fine!" Phoebe began to shout as she closed her own eyes, fearing that tears would soon begin to fall, "I WANT to marry you, Cole!"
The voice had changed. It was no longer the deep voice of the priest, but a high pitched voice of a lady standing beside her.
Phoebe looked around at her surroundings, and they had totally changed. She was now laying horizontally in a dark room, with her sisters at the foot of the bed she was laying in, and presumably a doctor standing at her left side, who once again spoke up, "Are you okay?"
"Phoebe?" said a small voice filled with concern.
Phoebe followed the voice and she saw him, not Cole, but Coop. Sitting by her side and holding her hand. He was looking at her with that same hopeless look that she had just seen in Cole's eyes.
"I.. I'm fine. I just have a little headache. What am I doing here?"
Piper was the one to respond, "You fell and hit your head. I called Paige and we both thought it was best to take you to the hospital."
"And it was a good thing they did. You suffered from a slight concussion, but there shouldn't be any long term damage. But just to be on the safe side, I think you should stay in overnight." The doctor suggested.
"Are you sure that's necessary, Doctor?" Phoebe asked.
"It's just precautionary. We want to make sure there aren't any side effects."
"Okay, I guess. Is that okay, Piper? Paige?" Phoebe needed to make sure her sisters would be okay is she was away. 'Lord knows what can happen in our household.' Phoebe thought.
"It's fine," Paige said, "Just give us a call if you need us."
Coop had let go of Phoebe's hand and stood up. He kissed Phoebe's forehead and whispered, "If you need me, I'll be here in a flash. Get some rest Phoebe. I'll see you tomorrow."
"Bye," Phoebe whispered back.
Both Paige and Piper hugged Phoebe before the three of them stepped outside of the room. The doctor, however, stayed.
"Is there anything you wanted, Doctor… I'm sorry I never caught your name?"
"Davis, Dr. Davis. And there was something I wanted to discuss with you. I took a blood sample of yours, to find a cause of your fall. And I guess this is a congratulations. You're pregnant Ms. Halliwell."
Dun Dun Dun…. So there it was .. And sorry, Not much Cole this chapter.. Just needed to get this one out of the way..
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