OKAY Christopher AND Lorelai WILL BE BROKEN UP BY THE END OF THIS CHAPTER.
I just need them to stay together for a wee bit so I can get them to break up for good. Final Closure.
Its taken me this long to write a post partings fic, because I was in a state of shock. But I love Gilmore girls and have to accept what has happened, and figure a way to get those two back to freakin gether. So this is my most planned out fic since I have spent so much time contemplating what is going to happen. What SHOULD happen.
Chapter 1 – Final Closure
Lorelai woke up wishing she was hungover. Why would anyone wish that upon themselves? Well, not only would it help block out the ache in her heart, but it would give her a reason for last night. She just lay there, listing to Gigi. Christopher places his arm around her. Revulsion, regret, confusion but most of all heartbreak was rushing through her body.
'It's over, I mean, its really over' she thought sadly.
Part of her wants to get up and yell at Christopher for letting this happen, but seriously when she came over last night, did she expect him to say no?
Another part of her wants to curl up and cry.
And the other part of her doesn't know what to do.
She feels rotten. Christopher smiles with satisfaction.
"Lorelai, do not go and regret this, I love you"
Her stomach churns. She feels like yelling at him even more now. She does not get out of bed, but holds the sheet tighter around her, not wanting to feel Christopher at all.
"You honestly expect me NOT to regret this?"
In truth, he knew she would regret this, but he remained silent.
After a few moments he asked "So are you and Luke finished for good"
Lorelai felt her breath catch in her throat, "We are now" she whispered "For sure for sure"
"This is the first time we have both been single Lorelai, just think about it, us together finally after all these years"
"So this is your idea of good timing?"
"Lore, you came here to me, not the other way around. You want this as much as I do"
She had come to him she thought, but why, that was something she needed to think about. She had come to him.
Chris reminds her of how good they could be. He continues to persuade her. He starts to kiss her neck, but she pulls away sharply when he treies to go any further.
"Last night was a mistake, I know I came here, and I wanted to sleep with you, but not now don't push this"
"Stay with me Lorelai, for a while, we can go slow, but lets give us a proper chance, us on me and you?"
She looks at the man before her, her friend, Rory's dad. Still around after all these years.
Luke wakes up, thinking this was possible the worst nightmare he has ever had. He contemplates
getting up going over to Lorelai, pleading with her to take him back, marry him. He really does think about it. She should not have pushed him though, she knew he dealt bad under pressure. She knew if she pushed him what he would do. But god I love her, damn, he thought.
He knows he has missed her terribly over the last few days. He thought it was something small, he never just expected this. I love her, I have to go, I have to try he decides.
He was never one to give in so easily, but he needed to go to get her, he needed her. He just had to explain that he would work on this, that they were worth fighting for. He could not give up.
He grabbed his keys, he knew it was early and that Caesar would be coming in any minute to open the Diner. He hopped in his truck, thinking about Lorelai, suddenly he was overcome with insecurities, what if she means what she said, what if she won't take me back. He does a sharp u-turn. He hears loud lorry horn and his breath catches as he realises how he was nearly hit. His pride drives him back to the diner, he needed to give it more time. Just to sort out his thoughts on this.
Its been a week, Lorelai feels rotten, but slowly was starting to feel better. Christopher has been kind to her, his kisses before work in the morning are getting less awkward.
She smiles as she sees him pull up, they have been getting on quite well as friends. But to Lorelai
its becoming more and more obvious that that was the best way for them to stay. They barely talk
about anything other than the past, and even that was becoming exceedingly monotonous.
After Christopher comes in she casually mentions that she was thinking about heading back to work soon. Like tomorrow.
"Is it not a bit soon?"
"No I think it is the best think, just get back to normal"
"Well if your not going to be staying here, maybe you would like to come out with me"
"On a date, Lorelai asks?"
Somehow if she was seeing Christopher it would not seem so bad that she had technically cheated on him with Christopher, it was more like she was fully broken up with Luke, which I guess i am, she thought. I mean, I said now or never. He chose never, she thought sadly. She pushed sad thoughts of Luke to the back of her mind.
"Lorelai, eh Lore. You were kind of zoned out there for a bit?"
"Oh the date, well i don't know I"
"We could head to Smoky Joe's, I went there a couple of months ago with Gigi, it is practically the exact same"
Lorelai sighed and put on a semi fake smile, "Smoky Joe's it is"
Lorelai liked how things were starting to get back into a pattern, of course Luke was completely out of the pattern, so it was quite different than before.
"Lorelai?" Sookie casually mentions a few days later a work.
"I do not like the sound of that" Lorelai jokes about the cautious tone of her voice.
"Are you, I mean have you seen.."
Lorelai cuts her off before she says the name she was going to say "No ,Sook, I just, I want to forget it, move on on?"
"You can't forget ten years Lorelai" Sookie says knowledgeably
"It hurts, to talk about, I don't want to think about it, hon, just thinking about what could have been, and all the mistakes. I just want to.." She tried to find he words to explain, but the cracking sound of her voice and the pain which it emitted was enough to get her point across.
Lorelai found herself looking forward to her date with Christopher that weekend. Unfortunately she mentions this to Sookie, who was unaware it was a secret, so mentions it to Jackson, who mentions it to Joe, who tells his wife, who tells Miss Patty...
Lorelai rummages through her closet, every possible outfit reminding her of Luke, she struggles to keep in her tears, telling herself that she was better that this.
She grabs her keys to go into town to get something new to wear.
By 7.30 she was fully ready and waits patiently for Christopher.
The date went well. A lot of friendly banter and quite a few compliments to Lorelai. About her hair, Rory, her life, her new dress.
It was fun Lorelai thought. But she has fully decided by the time the desserts arrive that they are not working. She seems happy about this realisation.
He drives her home, she was trying to figure a way of telling him that she does not want to see him again. Somehow he ends up inside. He gives her a quick kiss, she doesn't seem to impressed. He tries to move faster, and she pulls away.
"Come on Lorelai, why did you invite me in"
"Because I think this is not working, this me and you" she replies gesturing between them.
"Come on Lore, the nice restaurant, you got a new dress, do not tell me this is not what you wanted"
"I got the new dress because every single thing I have has Luke memories, okay?" She was surprised at how much it hurt to just say his name.
"Christopher, just go home"
"So what, 24 years of friendship and all I get is one date, one measly chance to win you back"
"I would not exactly describe our relationship over the past 24years as friendship, some of those years I never even saw you once, your Daughter, only saw you once. And if I am not mistaken, the year Rory was twelve, we never even saw you at all."
She paused for a breath
"Friendship is seeing each other almost every day, being there for one another 24/7, whenever wherever. Friendship is spending time together and having fun together"
"Come on Lorelai, we've had fun" he grinned suggestively, "we had lots of fun"
"Yea, we had, but not since we were 16, okay? This between us over the past few years that you have decided to grace me with your presence. This was not fun", she said annoyed at the what he was suggesting.
"Tell me you did not have fun tonight?", he challenged
"Okay, we have had fun, but it never lasts", she said.
"This will last Lorelai, I promise" he said stepping closer.
"No it won't, Chris, we have a bond ,a special bond, her name is Rory"
"Rory did not make you come to my house that night"
"No, but because we had her, she's ours, we have a connection, I know that no matter what, you will always love me. That is why I came to you that night. I had just been rejected" She said the word with much distaste. "I was vulnerable, alone and I needed a friend." she said calmly
"And now?" he questioned, "What do you need now?"
"I need to move on" Christopher went to interrupt her, "Without you" she finished.
At the Diner
Luke was just closing up when he noticed Babbette and Miss Patty gossiping, but it was not usual gossip, it was more like somebody had died.
"And now she's over there with him in her house right now" Babbette continued
Luke could not care less about the damn town gossip, no matter how serious it seemed to be. That was until he heard Lorelai's name mentioned. He had missed her terribly over the past few weeks, and any piece of information was news to him. He sauntered over casually to that side of the diner. The two gossips were too busy in discussion to even notice.
"Well, as far as I have heard, she went over there the night Luke and her broke up"
"To Rory's fathers house?" Babbette questioned.
"Yea, Christopher. And supposedly they have been together ever since, he took her out to some old high school joint they used to go to tonight"
What the hell Luke thought. It felt like he had been stabbed, well technically he did not actually know what that felt like, but he could imagine. He sat down quickly trying to take this all in. Where the feck did they find out this information, he wondered.
She is over there right now having sex, in our bed, he said to himself. Damn. He made his way upstairs and lay on his bed, they bed she told him to buy, the bed she had shared with him so many times. He felt his eyes fill up with tears which he quickly brushed aside.
He decided what he was going to do, he grabbed a clean shirt, removed his cap, got his keys and wallet and left instructing Caesar to close up.
Back at Lorelai's
"But I love you Lorelai, we can not be over for good, come on."
"I don't love you Chris, I I love Luke. Haven't you ever wondered why I never told you I love you, it was because I don't. But I care about you so so much. But to be honest the only man I have loved is Luke, and the only man I ever will" She breathed as an after thought.
"Wait I thought you said that you were finished for sure for sure", he said echoing her words from earlier.
She replies simply that "once you give someone your heart, i mean your whole heart. You just can't get it all back again. Its a heart, not a liver Chris, it doesn't grow back ones a piece is missing." She said slightly irritated at his lack of understanding.
Chris tries to understand.
"Well you will always have a piece of mine then."
"Don't Chris, you can move on, find someone, you have Gigi, be happy."
She stands a little straighter and smiles, "I will be just fine"
"But how can you.."
She interrupts him "Because it's what I do, I will be just fine on my own, okay"
She smiles briefly. "At least we got our final closure, after all these years"
He nods sadly as he leaves without kissing or even a hug. They both are on the same page now at least. Its over.
Okay so Christopher and Lorelai are finished FOR EVER that is some good out of all this isn't it?
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