Disclaimer- This is my last chapter. If you don't get that I don't own Twilight THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU! I DON'T OWN TWILIGHT. Get the picture? Good.
Okay so this is my last chapter. Then I will be starting A Thousand Miles (still not telling you what it means and the title isn't even the best part). This chapter is super long and filled with fluff. Hope you love it! I just decided to do the wedding like an hour ago. Once again I hope you love it.
Born To Love You
I was doing it.
I was marrying him.
I still couldn't believe it. I am totally insane. I now accept it. I am fit for a straight jacket. Hey maybe Alice could find me a cool one. Like one that's Prada and one in a cool color, like blue or purple.
Alice Rosalie, and Belinda had just finished doing my makeup and hair. It was simple. They curled my hair letting it fall in waves just under my shoulders. Then Alice had perched a glinting tiara on top of my head. My makeup was just eyeliner, no blush because of my permanent one, and some dull red lip stick. As I pulled on my dress I still admired it's beauty. It had taken me months to find my perfect dress. It was a satin gown with a beaded chiffon split front overlay. The sleeves were embroidered caps. It had a chapel train. It made me look absolutely gorgeous.
As I walked out of my closet door I admired the girls that were to be my brides maids. They had matching navy blue dresses on. The dresses were Georgette spaghetti strap with A-line empire waist line.
Alice had somehow gotten her hair to come down to her ears and it was now doing a gentle flip. She had dark red lip stick on and has holding the same bouquet as the others. A small tightly packed gathering of white roses with a long navy blue bow to hold it together. Mine was mostly the same except every so often there was a gathering of navy blue freesias.
Rosalie and Belinda had on the same dress and makeup but their hairwas different. Belinda had curled her hair much like mine. Her almost white hair somehow managed to fall in perfectly circular ringlets. Rosalie had her golden blond hair pulled in a tight bun only letting a strand fall on each side of her face.
As I looked at each of these ravishingly beautiful girls, each of whom made the most popular and breath taking movie stars look like common peasants, I noticed all of them were staring at me with open mouths.
"Oh Bella," was all Alice would get out. It looked as if, if she could be crying she would be. She and Belinda were sharing my maid of honor title. I couldn't pick between them so I had decided both them would be even better.
Rosalie gave a nod of approval I could tell she was smug because she had helped.
Belinda stared at me for a moment as if first realizing I was there and then she gave me huge Belinda beam, " I have had like eighty weddings and never ever have I looked that good."
I walked over to the mirror knowing they must be exaggerating, "What are you guys talking about I can't look-" but I broke of as I saw my reflection. I touched the surface of the mirror just to make sure it was really me. If beyond beautiful was possible then I was way past that.
Then I heard Emmet's booming voice shout from downstairs, "Bella time to get married unless you think you can do better and there is like an ninety nine point nine percent chance of that. Ow. Jasper I was only kidding!"
Rosalie walked down the stairs and as I reached them Alice and Belinda gracefully balanced their bouquets and my train.
As I walked down the stairs Danny, Emmet, and Jasper gapped at me, I swear if it had been raining their mouths would have been filled with water.
Then I got all of the reactions at the same time-
"Holy crap." (Emmet)
Jasper rolled his eyes and said, "If Edward makes it through the ceremony without tearing the thing off it will be a miracle."
Danny came over and gave me a hug, "You have never looked more beautiful. And believe me their have been times when you have been close." I gave him a quick kiss on the cheek and then Esme came into the room to try and usher us all out.
Esme looked shocked at me I gave a moan and stamped my stiletto heel, "Not this again. I know I look beautiful, thank you Esme. Now can I get married already? Oh and by the way Esme could you get Carlisle?"
Esme looked at me for another moment and then hurried out of the room. Everyone got into their places then Carlisle enter. Looking more dashing then ever in his black tux.
He gave me a kiss on the cheek and murmured in my ear, "Bella you are the image of stunning."
I gave an anxious smile and then in a hurried but happy voice, "Thank you Carlisle. I know it is extremely last minute but I was wondering if you would consider giving me away. I mean it's not as if I have anyone else and you and Esme are closer to my parents then anyone else so I was just wondering." I said all this in about ten seconds.
Carlisle looked stunned but then a happy smile graced his face as he held out his arm, "I would be honored."
I took his arm. And we got in our places. Alice had planned the whole thing. Edward and I had waited until we graduated to get married but then we had invited the whole school, even the teachers and students we had never met.
We were getting married in the small clearing in the back yard and we would have the reception in tents in the front.
As the grand doors opened Alice and Jasper stepped out. Walking down with unrequited grace. When they were half way their Belinda and Danny walked down stepping on to the aisle. Then Rosalie and Emmet.
As the last of my family got to their places the piano player struck up Here comes the bride. The whole party of people got on their feet. As I stepped out the door. Right before I had whispered to Carlisle, "Just don't let me fall."
Carlisle had just chuckled and shot back, "Same to you my dear."
I could hear pleased ooh's and ahh's as I continue down the trail of white rose petals that would lead me to the alter. I didn't once look at any one else except for Edward. He was standing there in his tux wide eyed. He looked to hot for words. But I knew I looked better. I could see it from his face.
"Oh. My. God." I heard him whisper a whisper that was only audible to us vampires.
The straight I had been trying to keep was broken then. I broke into one of the biggest smiles that was humanly possible. I was actually doing this.
As I walked down the aisle I remembered the days leading up to the wedding day. It had been year since Edward had proposed and through those days I could have been happier.
But no matter how happy I was my mind had still doubted if Edward and I were really meant for each other. But that was before Connor's funeral.
Flashback (a year ago)
I didn't know why I was going. The only people that were going to be there were Belinda and Danny. But I was going. I dressed in a short black dress that exposed my pale legs and a black hat that had a dark veil that hid my eyes. I knew I looked heart breakingly beautiful.
No one knew where I was going. I made sure that none of the Cullen's would see me as I dashed out of the house. Though as I opened the front door Alice came up behind me and gave me a bone crunching hug. She must have seen what I was doing.
Belinda and Danny had him buried in an anonymous plot, where no one would ask questions. There would be no after party for his family. We were it. The three of us. I stood with my head to the sky as the preacher they had hired spoke about the man he had never known.
I still didn't know why I had come, it had just felt right. Belinda started to cry without making any tears. Danny looked like he had no idea how to comfort her. I pulled her into my arms and rocked her back and forth. I cried along with her, knowing that no matter how much I willed it to no moisture would appear on my cheeks.
I cried for the person Connor was. For the person he had become just before death. And I cried because at some point in those ten years I had really and truly loved and at the end I knew he thought I couldn't have cared less. That is why I cried.
As the preacher finished Danny gently took Belinda out of my grasp. I wondered why, but then another pair of steel arms surrounded me.
I buried my head into his shoulder. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me even closer. He rocked me back and forth and whispered in my ear as my small body was wracked with dry sobs. He hummed the lullaby that when I hummed I could never get right, in his voice it sounded perfect.
I knew it must have been hard for him to be here. To see me crying over a man that had once held me quite like this. But he was here anyway. God when did I do something so perfect to deserve someone like Edward (Edward thinks the same thought almost daily except about Bella)?
We stood like that for hours. Two couples, the women seeming to cry without end and their men holding them close and doing anything to comfort them.
Eventually we went our separate ways. Belinda and Danny heading off to my once Mazda and Edward and I held hands as we walked to his Volvo (cheesy yet adorable).
I knew he thought I still had feelings for Connor. I knew he was wrong. I moved closer to his side and put the hand that hand been holding mine over my shoulder.
Then I said in my sorrowful/seductive/truthful voice"You know just because I'm sad that Connor's dead doesn't mean I love you any less. Connor and I were together for ten years. We've been together for less then a year. He was my best friend. But I never agreed to marry Connor because I didn't have the feelings that are required for a nuptial agreement. But I do have those feelings for you."
He was silent. For a while I though he hadn't heard me. But when we got to the car he twirled me around so my back was pressed up against the car.
He kissed my forehead and then each of my closed eyelids before brushing his lips against mine. Then he whispered, "Bella I know you loved Connor and that will always upset me, there's nothing you can do about. The thought of you and another man makes my blood boil." I sighed and he kissed me again, "But what I do know is that for reasons beyond my comprehension you agreed to marry me.
After an hour of kissing we got into the car. As Edward drove off the gravel drive I knew I was going to marry him. There wasn't a doubt in my mind
I stared into the eyes of my angel, knowing it was taking every ounce of self control he had not to run up to me and carry me into our bedroom. We had gone all the way many times but I knew that tonight was going to be especially good.
It was our wedding night for God's sake!
And then the honeymoon in the Bahamas. We had gotten our own private hut so that we could spend time in the blistering sun without raising any questions.
As we reached the alter the preacher asked, "Who gives this woman to this man?"
"Carlisle Cullen and Esme Cullen, father and mother of Edward Cullen," said Carlisle before kissing my cheek and sitting in his chair next to Esme. Who was already crying without tears.
I handed my bouquet to Alice as I turned to join hands with Edward, who was smiling like he would never stop.
"Dearly beloved, we are gathered here in the sight of God, and in the presence of this company, to unite Isabella Marie Swan and Edward Anthony Masen Cullen in holy matrimony.. ." as the preacher spoke I drifted off. Lost in Edward's eyes.
At least until it was time to read our vows. Which we had decided to write ourselves.
Edward went first, "Isabella when I first met you I didn't think that fate existed. I know now that I was wrong. It was fate that we met and fate was at work when I saw you again. I will love you always. You are my light at the end of the tunnel. You are my star when the night is black. You are the one and only thing I live for. You are the angel that will take me to heaven when the depths of Hell are imminent. I used to think that God would never forgive me for thethings I have done. But standing here today I know different. God made you. Somewhere along the line I must have done something right. I will love you always Isabella. Forever and ever"
If I could have I would have been bawling like a baby. How the hell was I going to top that? Stupid know it all vampire.
Everyone was looking at me expectantly I cleared my throat and said in my song like voice, "My life started when I met you Edward. I knew it then and I know it now. We have had our bad times but through all of it I knew that I loved you. There wasn't a doubt in my mind that someday we would be standing here at this alter. A wise woman once told me that if you love someone you already trust them because if you didn't you wouldn't have given them with your heart in the first place. Trust is love Edward and I trust you with my life which means that I love you more then life itself," I gave a happy sigh and pushed a stray hair behind my ear before continuing, "Many people . . .search there whole lives for the reason they were born. I found out why at age seventeen. Edward I was born to love you. And I always will."
Saying he looked happy was an understatement. He looked as if, if he held a light bulb in his hands it would light up, illuminating his joy. Again I lost myself in his eyes. If someone asked me what the minister was saying as he married us I would be totally clueless.
And then it came time for the I do's. The minister looked at Edward, "Do you, Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, standing in the presence of God and these witnesses, solemnly pledge your faith to Isabella . Do you promise to live with her according to God's ordinance in the holy estate of matrimony; do you promise to love her, comfort her, honor, and keep her, in sickness and in health, and forsaking all others, keep yourself only unto her, and through God's grace to promise to be to her a faithful and devoted husband as long as you both shall live?"
Edward looked into the minister eyes for a split second and then turned to me his eyes seeming to suck me in. Then he dawned his cocky, crooked smile and said in the surest words I had ever heard him speak, "I do."
Then the minister turned to me, "And Do you, Isabella Marie Swan, standing in the presence of God and these witnesses, solemnly pledge your faith to Edward? Do you promise to live with him according to God's ordinance in the holy estate of matrimony; do you promise to love him, comfort him, honor him, and keep him, in sickness and in health, and forsaking all others, keep yourself only unto him, and through God's grace to promise to be to him a faithful and devoted wife as long as you both shall live?"
I hesitated. Looking into the faces of my family. Edward drew in a breath, as if expecting me to hike up my dress and race away. But then I turned back to them I looked deep into his eyes and whispered the two most life changing words you can say to someone,
The Minister looked back to Edward, "Edward, have you a token of your love for Isabella?"
Emmet placed the ring in Edward's hand. Edward's eyes never left mine.
The Minister looked to me, "Isabella, do you receive this ring in pledge of the same on your part?"
I nodded my head and gave a self assured, "I do."
Edward slipped the ring on my finger. It was a glistening platinum band that had tiny golden topaz stones ebbed one right after another. It matched my engagement ring perfectly(sorry guys there's no picture for this one. I made it up). He kissed my finger sending electricity through my body as he lowered my arm.
Then the Ministers eyes locked with mine, "Isabella , have you a token of your love for Edward?"
Alice placed the ring in my palm. Copying Edward my eyes never left his.
The Minister looked at Edward, "Edward, do you receive this ring in pledge of the same on your part?"
Edward smiled down at me, "I do."
I raised his hand up and placed the gold band on his ring finger. Holy crap I was getting married.
The Minister smiled down happily at me and then looked out upon the crowd,"Ladies and Gentlemen, may I present to you: Mr. and Mrs. Cullen. Mr. Cullen you may now kiss your bride."
You didn't have to ask Edward twice. Before I could even manage to grab my flowers from Alice, Edward cupped my face in his and pulled me towards him. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he dipped me back. I heard applause in the background but what I couldn't get past was that I was Mrs. Cullen.
I WAS FREAKING MARRIED! I WAS FREAKING MRS. CULLEN!
As Edward and I broke apart I was hoisted into his arms, bridal style, well I guess now it's appropriate.
"Hey," I protested, "you are not supposed to do this until after the reception. Don't make me decapitate you with my flowers. White rose petals aren't really your style."
Edward chuckled as he held me and somehow managed to carry me to the front yard. He set us down at the table designated for the wedding party and close family. I was sitting on his lap when all the guests made their way to the front of the house.
Emmet, Rosalie, Belinda, and Danny followed Edward and I's example and were in each others lap. Alice had already dragged Jasper onto the dance floor.
We danced and partied the night away. Somewhere right before night the girls had me throw the bouquet. A whole school of girls was gathered. I had decide to fling it off the third story of the house considering there was more of a chance that vampire girls that were my sisters would not get to it on time. And the poor human females would have a chance.
As I flung the white roses off the balcony I knew who would catch them. Even in my vampire life I was never a good throw. They ended up right in one of sisters hands.
I saw Alice roll her eyes and snort, "Oh wow big surprise." before walking off. Rosalie let down her cool exterior and started to jump up and down.
As I ran down the stairs and back into my husbands lap I knew something was wrong. He wasn't there. Anxiety plagued my heart. Gone already? But then the familiar cold as ice arms surrounded me, "Time to dance," the voice whispered.
I groaned, "In other words time to die."
"Oh come on you can just dance on my feet like at prom," he snickered.
"Oh yes very dignified. Actually Edward I've picked up a few new moves. Courtesy of Belinda who used to teach dance to kids after she dropped out of high school. You lead and all take care of the rest." with that I hiked up my wedding dress and set out for the dance floor.
We twirled and dipped and out danced even Belinda and Danny, who danced better then anyone I knew. We were unstoppable. We danced until we were the only ones dancing. Everyone else had gone. We weren't even dancing to music. The band had gone home long ago. But still we danced.
We danced until I got so exhausted Edward picked me up and carried me to our bedroom. We both collapsed waiting a few moments to catch our breaths then with our rejuvenated strength we came together. Like two puzzle pieces fitting back together again.
I have come to a conclusion. Being with Edward if only for another day, even another hour is better then being without him for that extra hour or day.
Love is Trust.
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Now that is my story. Tune in soon to watch me screw it up in the next story. Remember it's called A Thousand Miles. Oh and click my profile thing for the dress links.
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