Chapter 1 – Somewhere Only We Know


Meredith turned and looked at Derek.


She looked at Finn. He looked confused. And suddenly she remembered. He had plans. Plans she had ended that night. She didn't deserve him, and Derek - she wasn't going to be with Derek.

"I have to go," she said, picking up the hem of her dress as she looked away from both of them. "I have to go."

At the bottom of the stairs, she walked into the hospital's lobby and leaned against one of the columns, breathing deeply. She had to get out.

The next day

Meredith walked down the hall and into the kitchen. She stopped in surprise when she saw Alex sitting at the table.

"How's Izzie?" she asked, taking a seat across from him.

"She stayed up most of the night crying, but fell asleep around five. She's still sleeping," Alex said, glancing at her.

Meredith looked at the clock. It was 7 AM. "I'm supposed to be at the hospital at eight. Should I stay here with her?"

Alex shook his head. "I'll stay, in case she wakes up. You should go to the hospital."

"Yeah, I guess. Thanks Alex. Call me and let me know if she wakes up and needs anything," she said, rising from the table to go get dressed. She didn't want to see Derek at the hospital today, but knew Bailey would be in a bad mood because of Izzie. All I have to do is avoid him today, she thought. How hard can that be?

Harder than you might think, Grey, she thought, an hour later. Bailey had just told her she was with Derek today. All right, all right. All I have to do is be professional, bracing herself as she walked down the hall towards Derek.

"Dr. Shepherd?"


"I'm your intern today, so whenever you're ready."

"Meredith," he leaned in closer. "We can't just pretend last night never happened."

"Watch me," she tossed over her shoulder as she walked down to room 308, Derek's patient scheduled for surgery today.

"Meredith," he caught up easily, his hand reaching out to grab her shoulder. At this, Meredith turned around, her eyes spitting flames at him.

"Don't touch me," she said, her voice low and angry.

"Can we at least talk about this?" he pleaded.

"Fine, Derek, let's talk." She pulled him to the side of the hall and looked up and down to make sure it was deserted. It was. "So what do you want to talk about?"

"Last night was... About last night… What does it mean?

At this, Meredith's eyes grew even angrier. "I don't know Derek. What does it mean? Considering the fact that you're the one who's married, you tell me what it means. Because I am really trying to be happy, and last night… Now I can't. I can't be with Finn anymore, because I don't deserve him. And I'm not going to be with you. You ask me what last night meant, but you're the one who's married. So figure it out, and then you come tell me what you what last night meant."

With this, she spun around and stalked down the hall, her lab coat flying out behind her.

Derek looked after her and sighed. He moved to walk down the hall, but before he could, Addison came up behind him. She grabbed his arm.

"We need to talk."

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