To start, this is my first Loveless fic. I have no idea how long this will turn out to be, but please be patient with me.

This chapter has been revised a bit.

Disclaimer: I don't own Loveless, but I sure as hell wish I did.


One without love, no more

Chapter 1


Why did that name sound so odd to him? He could tell that he would never be truly happy, that meant that he was destined to be without love as well...


That name crossed his mind.

Maybe with Soubi, he could be happy, he could return those feelings of love that Soubi so willingly displayed to him...

Ritsuka sat in class while Shinome-sensei read a passage from a book aloud. His head rested on his desk, he had a headache and on top of that, he felt terribly hot. Suddenly, a wave of dizziness came over him, he attempted to stand, only to fall to the floor.


Ritsuka's eyes fluttered open, the world was spinning he was still dizzy. There was someone next to him, a woman. "Ritsuka-kun, do you know where you are?" She asked.

He shook his head, which wasn't a good idea because of the current state he was in.

"This is the infirmary, you fainted in class and you were brought here. You have fever as well."

He hadn't fainted, that he knew.

"Is there anyone I can call to come and get you? Your mother-"

"No." he said immediately, then realized the surprised look on the nurse's face. "I-I mean, she's not home and I don't know her work number." He lied. "Well then, is there anyone else, another adult?"

An adult, he only knew one other than his parents and teachers. That tall blond with bottomless eyes...But would he pick up? He had promised that he'd always pick up, but he almost never did.

"Soubi..." He said the fighter's name without realizing it.

"Soubi?" The nurse questioned. "Y-yes Agatsuma Soubi he' brother's old friend, I'm sure he'd come and get me." Ritsuka wasn't sure, but he did hope.


Just another dab of cerulean...

"Ah, finished." Soubi said aloud to himself. He was in his and Kio's apartment, painting, as usual. Also as usual, his subject was a butterfly and a blue one at that.

He heard a ringing and picked up his cell phone off of the floor and looked at the screen.

Ritsuka? How odd, he never calls me during school...

"Moshi moshi."

"Is this Agatsuma Soubi?" A woman's voice asked.Thoughts quickly filled his mind...

Is Ritsuka hurt? Did someone from the Seven Moons attack him?...

As these thoughts progressed, they only got worse...

Perhaps he's...-no...

All of this went on in his head within the span of only a few seconds, then he finally spoke. "Yes." He replied, his voice calm as ever.

"I'm the nurse at Ritsuka's school, he fainted in class. He said that you might be able to pick him up."

"Of course, I'll be there as soon as I can." Soubi said hanging up.

He breathed a sigh of relief. At least none of his worries were true...he hoped.


Ritsuka hadn't even realized that he'd fallen asleep, he slowly opened his eyes and saw Soubi sitting in a chair by his bedside.

"Hey." Soubi greeted as he stood. Ritsuka merely looked at him. The flaxen-blond smiled, "Come, I'll take you home."

Despite his weak body and grogginess, Ritsuka stood, his legs a bit wobbly at first and followed Soubi out of the school.

As they walked, neither said a word. The air was filled with a sort of tension, so Soubi thought he'd attempt to brighten Ritsuka's spirits.

"So, you fainted?" He said, a smirk playing on his lips. "No! I didn't faint..." Ritsuka replied, looking away from the older man.

"Then what happened?" He questioned, grabbing Ritsuka's arm as he began to walk away. "I don't know. I was dizzy and then I..."

"Collapsed? I see..." Soubi said, looking down at the thin arm that he was holding. The sleeve was pushed up and he could see scars on his wrist, some faint, but some looked recent.

Come to think of it, he always wears long-sleeved shirts...

"Where did you get those scars on your wrist?" The man asked, his voice suddenly serious. Ritsuka's breath caught in his throat for a moment. He decided that it was best not to answer.

Soubi brought a hand to his pale face and turned it toward him. He noticed bandages on the boy's forehead, cheek and neck.

Before he could say another word, Ritsuka quickly pulled back, turned around and began to walk away at a fast pace.

I could run, but he'd just catch up with me...

"I love you Ritsuka. Why won't you answer me?"

"Why don't you ever answer my questions?" Ritsuka retorted. Soubi stood still for a moment, stunned and then began to follow Ritsuka home in silence.

I want to know what has, or is happening to you, Ritsuka, why won't you tell me?...

Where could he have gotten such marks, was someone hurting him?

Ritsuka walked as quickly as he could considering his state.

Soubi wouldn't understand. complicated, she's not sane and she wants her old Ritsuka back, but I can't bring him back. I wish I could though, that way I could disappear...


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