Author's Note: I'm thinking this is the last chapter but I could be wrong…we'll see.
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Warnings: Slash (well duh, it's Remus/ Sirius) nothing too graphic, this is my OTP, so please don't hate on the pairings in reviews and what not. (I might have to come over there and kung fu yo ass!). Oh, and Remus turns into a bit of an idiot… cringes sorry...but I still think it's good.
Disclaimer: I do not, and probably never will own Sirius, Remus, or any other Marauder. Sadly. Very very extremely majorly sadly.
CHAPTER FIVE: DON'T CRY
Remus lay on his bed pondering the day's events. James had dragged him and Sirius down to the kitchens for a victory party with Peter (although it was very awkward between Sirius and himself). Since then Sirius had had plenty of opportunities to talk to Remus about the kiss and everything, but he hadn't. They couldn't keep doing this, this pretending nothing had happened.
But maybe it was nothing; maybe Remus was just letting his inner romantic run away with him. Everyone knew Sirius was a horny bastard who'd shag anything that moved. It was just his luck to fall for such a guy. It kind of hurt that Remus had become the next "project", just like all the rest of the girls (and probably boys too) that Sirius couldn't even remember the names of.
Unless…Sirius really did like him, but that was preposterous! Why would he like a bookish poof werewolf anyway?
All this thinking was just making him depressed, maybe it was better if he pretended nothing happened too, if that's how Sirius dealt with it, why couldn't he? He just couldn't bear to be another name on Sirius's hook-up list.
He sighed and rolled over. He was almost asleep when he heard the swish of fabric being pushed aside. He turned his head to see Sirius's eyes, his beautiful eyes, glittering in the darkness. He looked nervious almost, peering around the curtains of his four-poster. There was a pensive expression spreading across his face.
Remus sighed and sat up, motioning stonily to the edge of the bed. Sirius sat down slowly, casting a whispered silencing spell.
"Can I help you, Sirius?" Remus asked, annoyed. He tried to tell his quickening pulse that was how he felt too, but it just beat faster.
Sirius was silent.
"Look, either tell me why you woke me up at one in the morning or get out of my bed, Pads."
Sirius suddenly became animated, "Remus, why are you ignoring this? Why are you making this so difficult for me? How can you pretend nothing's happening?"
"What?" Remus asked resolutely. Sirius couldn't just come in here trying to talk about it after he'd been ignoring it for so long. He was going to stick with his plan of pretending it didn't happen…or not.
"You don't know what you do to me, do you?" Sirius's voice broke.
"Don't 'Sirius' me!" Sirius snapped.
"Fine, I won't. Black, you have to understand, I'm not good with relationships, in case you haven't noticed, I turn into a WEREWOLF once a month which makes it a little hard to have a lover of any kind!" Remus snapped back.
"That doesn't matter to me! In case you didn't notice, I became an animagus for you!" Sirius implored.
"Well I have no wish to be another one of your toys that you throw away the next week!" Remus exclaimed roughly.
Sirius gaped, "You think that's what this is about? That I just want to-? No! I-" he choked a little, "I love you! Have since fourth year," He finished quietly.
Remus sat in stunned silence.
It's that girl, isn't it?" Sirius groaned.
Remus buried his head in his hands, "There was never any girl."
"Wha-what?" Sirius asked incredulously, "You mean you lied to us? But why, but-"
Remus cut him off sharply, "I was embarrassed, it seemed like a good cover at the time, but I supposed there's not really any point in hiding it anymore, Pete already figured it out. The person that I love," He took a deep breath, "The person who I love is you Sirius."
Sirius just stared at him.
"The sighs, the daydreams, the," Remus blushed furiously, "cold showers that you thought were for some girl…They were all because of you," He voice cracked.
"But why didn't you tell me?" Sirius asked sounding confused and a little hurt.
"Well for one thing, I didn't know if you liked me, or if you even swung that way, and then there was the whole thing about you having a new girlfriend every week. I didn't want – I won't be – I was scared you'd –"
But his pathetic ramblings were silenced by Sirius's soft lips on his own.
"There was never anyone for me but you, now that I know you feel the same I'll never leave you," Sirius said fiercely, eyes sparkling with emotion as he stared into Remus's own, "I love you Remus."
He couldn't help it, silent tears trickled down his cheeks and he collapsed into Sirius's embrace.
"Aw, Moony, don't cry," Sirius said, gently.
Remus pulled back suddenly and fixed a stern gazed on the other boy, "Now just because I love you and all, does not mean I'll forgive you if you ever cheat on me! You promise that you'll stay true?"
"I'll never leave you, Remus, you romantic sod!" Sirius grinned and kissed him, sweet and long.
"What are you guys doing?" The boys looked up (for the second time) to see James looking slightly aghast, "Wha –"
"Oh, hello Jim!" Sirius grinned cheerfully as he announced, with an air of nonchalance, "I'd like you to meet my new boyfriend, Moony Lupin."
Remus shook his head at Sirius's casual style of announcing their new relationship. At least one of them could be so laid-back about everything.
"Oh," James said, looking dazed, "I would never have guessed that you two would fall for eachother."
Peter appeared from behind James, "What'd I tell you, Moon? Thick as a troll!" he winked.
Remus barely had time to acknowledge him before Sirius pulled him into another mind-blowing kiss.