STRONG
by shiningbright

Featuring the lyrics of My Immortal by Evanesence

Disclaimer: I don't own any Harry Potter characters. Just merely playing around with them. No harm done, JK.

A/N: Hey. I'll post chapter fifteen of Perfect Story tomorrow. For now you'll have to settle with another songfic. Enjoy.

oneshot

Narcissa Malfoy gazed into the mirror at her bruised face. A touch of cover-up here and there hid the swelling, but the pain was all too real. Lucius had hit her again and she wondered grimly whether or not she'd be able to take it anymore.

I'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

He had left again, for another meeting with the Dark Lord, as he made her call him. She'd begged him not to go, that someday he wouldn't come back. But he had just slapped her, saying that You Know Who was all he lived for. That and the sex he forced on her twice a week.

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

And so it had been like that, for weeks. He hitting her, hitting her four-year-old son. She hated him with all she was worth. Yet she still clung to the hope that things would go back to the way they used to be, before Lucius had hit her.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

She remembered old Lucius, the one she had fallen in love with and married, for better or for worse. He had loved her then, and had promised her love. Had promised her as many children as she could bear. Now he was incapable of making any children. Maybe that was why he was always so bitter.

He had always been laughing, a brighter, happier Lucius, who she'd often teased for his fun-loving self. Did the teasing hurt him? Was that why he was always so mean to her?

She'd promised him her life, herself, her love. She had kept up her part of the bargain and he had not.

You used to captivate me
by your resonating life
now I'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me

Don't let me be crazy, Narcissa thought frantically. Don't let me be insane for staying here with Lucius. I have no choice, after all. She recalled all her sleepless nights, the depression she'd been diagnosed with shortly after Draco was born. Draco… He was the only reason she woke up in the morning.

These wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

She knew in her heart and soul that there was no way- unless Lucius died of course, but she couldn't be too hopeful- she could get out of this relationship, no way at all. She would die Narcissa Malfoy.

A single tear slipped down her cheek, messing up the cover-up that hid a sickening violet bruise. That would be the last time she could pity herself. Fixing her makeup and wiping away the tear, she steadied herself. She had to be strong.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

shiningbright