Aut.: Monica

R: K+

Spoilers: reflections after the last chapter of season six

Summary: she's angry but she'll wait forever.

A/N: This is not beta-ed. And it's a personal paranoia

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine

But could you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces

(Rest in pieces – Saliva)

Two persons. One soul. Undivided hearts of love. Secret emotions floating in the air. Frequency.

My love for you will never die and it can't be denied. It's obvious to the blind, the deaf…. Obvious to him. But you don't see it. I'm always around you like a bee attracted to honey, like a positive pole drown to a negative one. He notices it, but you don't get it. And despite of my movements, he feels safe since you hardly interact with me.

For the past six years, in my own and personal way, I've worshipped you. I've made you the object of my inner desires. Desires of a life together, passionate nights etc… But our relationship is cold as an ice cube taken from an Antarctica iceberg.

To the others, he's just a social inept but for you he's heaven on earth. He has made you wait for a long time but you still forgive him for his doubts. You would never doubt about my feelings. I would never hesitate if someday you'd ask me to dinner. But the truth is it will never happen.

Live your life this way forever. Be with him; convert yourself into a rock after years of monotonous love. And then, escape and come to me. I'll wait.