Hi!!!! This is just a short fic I just thought of when I was looking at songfics. I always wanted to do a songfic, and this is the perfect song for Alanna. Takes place somewhere in the first two books, reflecting on how much Alanna wants to tell everyone who she really is. Kind of sad.

Disclaimer: As much as I wish it, I don't own Reflection or Tamora Pierce books. (sniffs) It's…. so… sad…

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am

But you'll never know me

I wish I could tell them. I hate lying.

Every day, is as if I play apart
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool
My heart

I have to hide me because girls can't be warriors. I have to lie to the people I respect and like. I hate it.

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

When I look in the mirror, I don't really see Alanna. I see Alan of Trebond, younger son of Lord Alan of Trebond. I'm living a lie. And it's horrible.

I am now
In a world where I have to
Hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

I wish I could just tell them. I wouldn't become a warrior and I'd be exiled, at best. At worst, I'd have and ugly death on Traitor's Hill. That's why I can't tell. I wish I could. One day I will.

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

Even though I know I'm a girl, I still see a boy looking at me. My reflection's not me. I wish it was.

There's a heart that must
Be free to fly
That burns with a need
To know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?

But wishes don't come true. I have to live with it.

Why though? Why should everyone have to hide how they feel and who they really are? Jon can't say what he thinks most of the time, because someone's always watching. Why should people care if he says something peculiar? I don't understand.

I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?

When will I be able to tell?

There you are guys! My first songfic. YAY!!!!!! I love this song. Thanks so much to my beta and reviewer, talking 24/7, because she's awesome and she doesn't even read Tamora Pierce books, but she betaed anyway!!! YAY!!!

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