AN: Despite my hardest efforts, I still do not own Teen Titans or anything associated with them.

Chapter 18

Raven rested her tired and drained body. She thought she deserved it after giving birth. Emma was cleaned up and was now sleeping in a bassinet next to Ravens bed. Beast Boy had gone off to call of their friends to tell them that Raven had given birth, but now he was back.

He saw Raven fast asleep, as was Emma. He wasn't sure how Raven would feel about him holding Emma, but since she as asleep, he figured he could. He slowly and softly put his hands around her little body and then gently lifted her. She gave a slight moan, but once Beast Boy had her safely in her arms she immediately calmed down and snuggled right in. He couldn't believe he was holding a child that he had helped to create.

"Wow, I can't believe you're here and I'm actually holding you," said Beast Boy softly to the baby girl. "You're mother went through a lot to get you, you know. So you better take after her and not me."

He chuckled to himself and began to walk around the room, cradling his daughter close to him. She slept peacefully and seemed to get used to him faster than she had gotten used to Raven. He kissed the top of her soft head and took in her scent. She was the sweetest thing he had ever smelt and he smiled.

Then he remembered that this was probably the most he was ever going to get to be with her. He was going to leave in a few days and would probably never get to be with her like this again. He felt his heart wretch and he suddenly felt very depressed. He didn't want this. He didn't want to leave Raven or the baby.

"I'm probably never gonna get another chance to say this to you, so I better say it now," said Beast Boy to his daughter. "I know I barely know you, because you've only been around for like three hours, but… I love you, dude. Well, not dude, since you're a, you know, girl. Sorry about that. Look at me, I'm putting my foot in my mouth in front of my own daughter. I guess I can't be comfortable in front of any girl, not even my own blood."

He looked to Raven and saw her still fast asleep. She looked very tired and weak. And yet, she still looked beautiful. Beast Boy sighed and said, "Well, that's not true. There's only on girl… woman, who I feel totally comfortable with. Your mother. I love you and your mother with all of my heart and if it were up to me I would never leave you. And I know you can't understand me and you won't remember this day, but I don't think I'd feel right if I didn't tell you."

He kissed her again and then gently placed her back into her bassinet. She began to fuss again, but he stayed next to her until she fell asleep. Once she had passed out he decided to take a walk and clear his mind. He really hated what he had gotten himself into, but it was too late now.

Two days later Raven and baby Emma were ready to go home. The doctors were a little concerned with Emma's skin tone, even though Raven and Beast Boy told them that she was the perfect balance between their own skin tones. They found that nothing was wrong with her, to Ravens relief, and she was allowed to go home.

Beast Boy drove the new mother and daughter back to Ravens and helped her in. Raven was still a bit weak and allowed Beast Boy to carry Emma in in her carrier. Raven had never been so happy to be home.

"I am so relieved to be out of there," said Raven. "I hate hospitals."

"I'd like to meet a person who doesn't," said Beast Boy, closing the door behind him. "Where do you want her?"

"Put her on the table," said Raven.

Beast Boy put the carrier on the table and then backed away so Raven could take it from there. He had never seen her so gentle and loving to anything before. But here she was, softly unclasping the buckles on the carrier and lifting her little daughter into her arms. The baby grunted and kicked her little legs until she was secure against Ravens chest. Raven hushed her and slowly rocked back and forth.

"She's so cute, Rae," said Beast Boy, smiling.

"I know," said Raven proudly. "I'm so happy she's here."

"Yeah, me too," said Beast Boy. Raven gave him an odd look and he knew he had better say something quick. "Uh, what I mean is, I'm happy she's here because you've been waiting for her to come and she's finally here so you're finally happy."

Raven gave him a small smile and headed for the nursery. Beast Boy followed went in right behind her. He watched as Raven put the little girl down on the changing table and began to undo her little one piece.

"Wow, your first time changing her diaper," said Beast Boy. "Big event."

"Yes, but I'm sure I'm going to get sick of it soon enough," said Raven with a soft smile.

Once she was done she laid Emma down for the first time in her crib. She never woke for a moment, she just slept peacefully and serenely. Beast Boy and Raven left so that the babe could sleep.

"Well, I guess I should be going," said Beast Boy. "I've got a lot to do before I leave tomorrow."

"Are you ready to go?" asked Raven.

"Not really, but it's not like I have a choice," said Beast Boy.

"Am I going to see you again before you leave tomorrow?" asked Raven softy.

"I don't think so," said Beast Boy. "I've got way too much stuff to do."

"Oh," said Raven.

It grew very quiet between the two. Beast Boy dreaded the fact that he had to leave now, but he had no choice. This was it.

"So, you're gonna send me updates, right?" asked Beast Boy.

"Of course," said Raven, nodding. "And you'll call every once in a while, right?"

"Of course," said Beast Boy.

The two came together and wrapped their arms around each other for one last time. Beast Boy savored every second of the hug and held Raven as close to him as he could.

"Thank you so much, Gar," said Raven as she embraced him. "For everything."

"Like I said, when Gar Logan makes a promise he keeps it no matter what," said Beast Boy.

"You've been beyond wonderful to me," said Raven. "I don't think I can ever repay you."

"Hey, I didn't do it to get anything back," said Beast Boy. "This is what friends are for."

Raven felt herself tearing up, but she dismissed it as being apart of her unbalanced hormones. "I'm going to miss you so much."

"I'm gonna miss you too, Rae," said Beast Boy, his voice cracking.

Slowly their hug released and the two quickly hid the fact that they were about to cry. They took a step back from each other and softly sighed.

"Well, I better go," said Beast Boy, almost unable to look at her.

"Okay," said Raven.

He then turned around and headed for the door. Raven watched as he hesitantly opened it and walked out. As the door closed behind him Raven felt very odd, but, again, she blamed it on her post pregnancy body. She sighed and went over to her couch to rest for a moment. She slowly sat down and closed her eyes, letting the silence soak into her.

Suddenly her door flew open, causing her to jump, and Beast Boy ran back in. "I can't do this," he said and went over to her. He got on his knees in front of her and took her hands. "Rae, I can't do this. I can't just leave after all of this."


"And I know that I'm supposed to walk out of here and leave you alone as if none of this every happened, but I just can't," he said. "I want to be with you and I want to be with Emma. And I don't care if I signed that damn contract thing saying I wouldn't do any of this. I love you and I don't want to leave. Please don't make me leave."

Raven was shocked at his outburst and couldn't think of what to say. She saw how upset Beast Boy was and that just made her just as upset. She felt herself wanting to cry again, and this time she just couldn't stop it.

"Gar, this wasn't supposed to happen," she said as tears stung her eyes. "I was supposed to have a baby with you, no strings attached."

"I know and I'm sorry," said Beast Boy.

"I wasn't supposed to fall in love with you," she wept.

"Rae, I…" started Beast Boy, then he realized what she had said. "Did you just say you love me?"

"Why can't you just leave?" she cried.

"No, wait a second," he said. "You said that you fell in love with me."

"I didn't mean to," she said, wiping the tears from her eyes. "It just happened. Why do you have to be so wonderful to me?"

"Because I love you," he said. "And you love me."

"I don't want to," she said, shaking her head.

"Yes you do," he said softly. "And it's okay."

"No, it's not," said Raven. "It can't be."

"Rae," he said, softly taking her face into his hands. "It is okay. It's more than okay. It's right. We love each other. Please don't make me leave."

Raven was shaking from her crying and she looked deeply into his eyes. She couldn't deny that she loved him anymore. "What about your job in Japan?"

"I'll take one of the other offers," said Beast Boy, taking her hands again.

"Are you sure?" she asked. "Would you really do that?"

"You know I would do anything for you," said Beast Boy. "And I never wanted to go to Japan anyway. Not to mention that they made the worst offer for me."

"Then why did you take that job?" asked Raven.

"I took it for you," said Beast Boy. "Because I knew you didn't want me to be around. So, I figured that Japan would be the farthest away I could get. I only did it for you."

Raven couldn't believe that he done all of that for her. He was beyond wonderful. She gently lifted her hands to Beast Boy's face and brought him close to her. "I love you," she whispered and placed her lips upon his. Beast Boy quickly wrapped his arms around her and kissed her back with all of the passion that existed in his being.

"I love you, too," he managed to say between their lips.

"Don't ever leave me," she said at last. She had been wanting to say those words to him all day.

"I won't," said Beast Boy, giving her a long, sweet kiss.

A cry filled the air and the two's lips broke. It was Emma, who had finally woken up. Raven was about to rise off of the couch, but Beast Boy stopped her.

"Can I get her?" he asked.

Raven thought for a moment and then smiled, saying, "Yes."

Beast Boy grinned excitedly and jumped up to go get his daughter. He went into the dark nursery and saw her crying, her little limbs slowly thrashing about. He hushed her and slowly took her into his hands. His touch calmed her down immediately and she went from crying to little moans.

"I've got you," he said, cradling her. "I promise."

The End