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A Recognised Loss
The Doctor and Rose instantly released each other and turned around to face Venetia.
'Do you want to or shall I?' Rose quietly asked the Doctor. He took a deep breath in, his face determined
'I will' he told her. Venetia watched him warily; he knelt down in front of her so he could talk to her at her level.
'Where are you going?' she asked sounding hurt. The Doctor paused
'You remember all those stories I told you? The ones of how I help people, how I travel and people call out to me?' he asked softly. She slowly nodded her eyes studying his
'Well someone asked me for help, and I have to help them' he began to explain to her.
'But you promised' she whispered, he looked at her confused for a moment
'You promised you'd always be here' she said as her eyes began to well and her lip began to wobble. He stroked her cheek
'And I always will be – in your heart' he gently told her. She shook her head at him
'It's not the same!' she cried as she stepped back away from his touch.
'Venetia – I'll be back, I promise' he tried to tell her as she glared at him
'You promised you'd stay here – how will I know if you'll keep this promise?' she asked sounding exactly like Rose. The Doctor sighed, he was frustrated, he just wanted her to understand and not argue the point.
'Venetia…' he began as he rubbed his face. She quickly changed from anger to fear
'Am I that terrible?' she asked in a small frightened voice. His eyes shot open in an instant,
'What do you mean?' he asked perplexed. Venetia's lip had stopped trembling due to the fact that she was now biting it down; tears began to run down her face
'Am I that terrible that after only just finding me you want to leave already?' she whispered sounding incredibly tortured. The Doctor was appalled; he almost didn't know what to say to that – he grasped her shoulders and looked her straight in the eye. His eyes were unwavering and brutally honest
'If I had a choice I would never leave you' he told her fiercely, she looked at him, her eyes wide and unsure
'But you are' she whispered. The Doctors' face fell – he didn't know why she couldn't understand. Venetia shook her head and ran out of the room crying, the Doctor stared dumbfounded after her. Rose walked up behind him and put a hand on his shoulder
'Let her adjust' she gently told him. He shook his head as he scratched his hair
'I just don't get it' he muttered. Rose was still standing over him and rested her head just over his shoulder so her cheek was pressed against his.
'This is all new to her' Rose reminded him softly. The Doctor sighed; he had never thought it would be so hard to be a Father. Rose took the Doctors' hands and gently tugged him to his feet; he stood looking down their hands interlocked.
'So do you hate me as well?' he half joked and half sighed. Rose squeezed his hands
'She doesn't hate you, she's just upset' she told him. He smiled sadly
That's not what I asked' he told her softly. She grinned up at him
'I could never hate you' she whispered. The Doctor smiled at his sweet, loyal Rose, he raised one hand to gently cup her cheek
'Oh Rose' he murmured 'What did I do to deserve you?' he asked as he stared down into her eyes – he could drown from the love he saw in them. She put her arms around his waist and he pulled her close just holding her savouring her touch. He loved how her head fitted under his chin, how she was just the right size for his arms to hold her tightly, how her leg slipped between his so easily and how she loved to be soothed by the sound of his twin hearts beating against her ear. They were a perfect fit – but he had to go, he had to leave her and each time he did his heart broke a little bit more.
Several hours later the Doctor gently knocked on Venetia's door, he had waited until the sound of muffled sobs had stopped.
'Come in' a quiet voice called out, the Doctor poked his head round the corner and smile softly at her
'Can we talk?' he asked gently. She wiped her eyes with the back of her hand and nodded
'Thanks' he said with a smile as he quietly closed the door behind him. He walked up to where she sat huddled on her bed, he sat on the edge of the bed and they watched each other for a moment.
'Sweet heart, I want you to know –' the Doctor began but Venetia cut him off by pressing one of her little fingers against his lips.
'Daddy' she began, her eyes wide and truthful – they also showed an amount of wisdom
'You'll come back won't you?' she asked worriedly.
'Of course' he promised her. Venetia nodded
'Okay then' she said with a smile
'Okay what?' the Doctor asked grinning
'I forgive you' she told him as she threw her arms around his neck. He caught her and held her close never wanting to let go of the little girl who had won his heart so easily. He picked her up and carried her into the living room; they sat down on the arm chair with Venetia in the Doctors' lap. Winnie the Pooh was in Venetia's lap as she held a Winnie the Pooh story book. The Doctor began to slowly read her the story, he paused as the words became real – his voice cracked
'Promise you'll never forget me because if I thought you would I'd never leave' Venetia's lip began to quiver as the familiar words of the story became a final plea from a heartbroken father. Venetia slowly twisted round so she was facing him; her brown eyes were wide and earnest
'I'll never forget you Daddy, I promise' she vowed to him before she threw her arms around his neck burying her face in his shoulder. The Doctor held her close overwhelmed by the amount of love he felt in his heart for this amazing little girl
'Thank you' he whispered to her and they just sat that way. The little girl clinging to the father she never thought she could have, a father clutching the daughter he thought was impossible to exist and the mother standing in the doorway softly crying at the love of her life who she thought she would never see again and the little girl who had filled their worlds.
The next morning outside the Powell estate a family stood outside a blue 1950's police box. A woman in her late twenties had her blonde hair gently settled over her shoulders, her face pulled into a smile, her eyes blinking trying not to cry. Next to her stood a beautiful little girl with blonde ringlets bouncing around her face, tears stained her cheeks and she clutched tightly onto a Winnie the Pooh teddy. In front of them stood a tall thin man, his hands were clenched in reaction to what he had to do, his brown hair stood up into the air and his cloak flapped in the autumn wind.
The Doctor stepped forward and held out one hand to Roses' cheek, he stood so close to her that their noses were almost touching, he smiled gently at her
'I'll see you soon' he promised her. She nodded in return blinking back tears as she looked at the floor
'How long till you come back?' she squeaked
'Give me a date and I'll be there' he told her. She smiled at him
'I guess this is goodbye then' she whispered heartbroken
'It's never goodbye' he promised her as he stepped forward and pressed his lips to hers. She squeaked in reaction to his sudden embrace before leaning into his kiss whilst running her fingers through his hair. He tightened his hands around her waist deepening the kiss – it was quickly becoming very passionate as the Doctor moaned against her lips.
'Ewww!' Venetia exclaimed whilst grinning at her parents. They slowly parted, the Doctors' eyes were lazy and gleamed with satisfaction, they were both panting and Rose slowly licked her lips. They grinned at each other like a pair of love struck teenagers. When the Doctor finally managed to stop staring at Rose he turned to Venetia and knelt in front of her
'I'm gunna miss you kiddo' he told her, she smiled back.
'I'm gunna miss you too Daddy' she told him smiling sweetly. He cupped her cheek
'It's crazy how much I love you' he told her, his words apparent in his eyes, she grinned back.
'I know what you mean – but it's nothing compared to how much I love you' he couldn't reply to that – he could only hold her in his arms.
'I'll never forget you Daddy – I promise' she whispered
'Good' he replied softly. He let go of her
'Remember, I'll always be with you' he told her tapping where her heart was 'in there'
She nodded before pressing a kiss to his cheek; he kissed her forehead and stood up.
'Right, I'll see you soon' he promised as he turned to leave.
'I love you – both of you' he told them sincerely as he winked at Rose. He turned to open the Tardis door but was stopped
'Daddy!' a frantic voice called – he turned around
'Yeah?' he asked. She held out a package
'You forgot his' she said beaming at him, he took the package and reached into his pocket producing an envelope which he then handed to her. He hugged his daughter one last time before stepping inside the Tardis; he looked over his shoulder and blew a kiss before closing the doors. Rose and Venetia watched in wonder – the child squealing in delight as the blue box disappeared and she realised all the stories he had told her were true.
The Doctor lent against the control panel as he opened the envelope, three things fell out – they were all photos. The first one Venetia had taken of the Doctor and Rose sleeping, he smiled at it before turning it over – on the back it read:
Forever and always, Love Rose x x x
The Doctor beamed before looking at the second photo. It was the one of Venetia and the Doctor that Rose had taken; they both looked so happy and so excited. On the back in a child's hand writing it said one of Venetia's favourite Winnie the Pooh quotes
If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, keep me in your heart I'll stay there forever. I love you Daddy, love Vennie x x x
The Doctor didn't know it was possible to smile this much, he looked at the last photo it was one of the three of them that they had taken at the park, on the back it said
Better late than never
The Doctor slowly pinned the photos to the wall overwhelmed at the emotion that filled him – it was love.
Back in the flat Rose and Venetia sat on the sofa together and opened the envelope. A single scrap of paper fell out; this time he had used a familiar quote and a Jeremy Irons quote
Rose, when there are lines upon my face from a lifetime of smiles, when the time comes to embrace for one long last while, we can laugh about how time really flies, we won't say goodbye cos true love never dies. You'll always be beautiful in my eyes
Vennie, remember we all have our time machines. Some take us back, they're called memories and some take us forward, they're called dreams.
I'll be with you in your dreams and memories
Love the Doctor x x x
Rose and her daughter smiled before gazing at the photos, they lost themselves in the same love that he Doctor felt. No matter how much time of how many galaxies were between them nothing could split up this family – or so they thought.
I hope you enjoy reading this story! So do you have any last thoughts?
The sequal will be called A Recognised Gain and I will start posting this on Friday. Here is a summary for it:
The Doctor returns to earth to visit Rose and his daughter, Venetia, only to discover terrible news and to be faced with a life changing decison.
I hope you'll read it :-)