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A/N: Writen in about an hour and edited in five secounds so don't expect anything fabulous.

And It's Getting Worst

Love doesn't ask and it doesn't conform!

At first I wanted to save him, just like any father would… I'd never really had a family before and the entire experience was a shock to my system… and he was so sullen… One look at him and it wasn't hard to see that he was in more trouble than any of the other kids. Plus the whole rescue thing has kind of been ingrained into me over the years… At first it really was just innocent… I wanted a family, they wanted a father… The principal wanted someone on her level… So I stayed… I should've ran in the other direction…

At fourteen though… I didn't have a clue and then at fifteen I noticed that there was something about the other that itched on my back teeth… but I still didn't get it…

Seth brought his first boyfriend through the door to his sixteenth birthday… They were a cute pair of idiots, holding hands and stealing kisses when they thought no one was watching… I should have been happy because Seth was finally smiling and I was… Only there was something else… cutting along my nerves… and now I've realized that I just didn't want to fucking get it! With good reason too…

At seventeen it hit, I turned up early to check in while Julie was away with Claire at a weekend spa… Seth was the only one home, Zoë was off at college and the others were staying with friends.

It was just after six and that idiot Ethan that Seth had taken to dating was coming out the front door, jacket over his shoulder, hair messed… Ever had your blood boil? No? Yeah neither had I until then…

Ethan smirked at me as he went passed and I let him go… I could always catch up to him later… The front door was unlocked and I didn't bother with knocking. I let myself in and found Seth pulling crumpled clothing on in the living room, his pants halfway up his legs as far as he'd gotten in the task… That blood boiling anger shot straight into mind-numbing shock… Because when faced with Seth's bare body the last thing I should be thinking about is sex.

"Shane!" He stuttered miserably, cheeks flaring as he quickly pulled his pants up and buttoned them, scrambling madly for his shirt.

"It's not…" I still can't believe he tried that one. Maybe if he hadn't been naked when I'd walked in… Maybe I would have believed that it wasn't what it looked like… Maybe then I could've still looked at him as just another naïve child.

"Did you at least use protection…?" The look on his face had been something between embarrassment and horror… or something else entirely that I still haven't worked out.

"Shane I'm not…" He was typical Seth, downcast look, with the obligatory slumped shoulders.

"I'll take this as a yes…" I had sighed, picking up an opened condom wrapper from of the floor.

"Shane please don't… your not…"

"Your right I'm not your father forget about it." If I could… I'd take back ever saying it! But I can't… I had just excused myself from being his surrogate father and all the duties that that entailed. I was a surrogate father and he was a naïve, achingly innocent child… These three facts kept me blissfully in the dark. Only I'm not actually his father… and he's no longer innocent… there will always be that age thing though… because in ten years time there will still be over a decade between us… only every year I find it harder and harder to care…