Author's Note: After a couple of test chapters, I realized that my newest idea just wasn't working. Instead, I have decided to write a companion to DECADE. It will be in entirely in Edward's pov, something I have never attempted before. Wish me luck!
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight.
I laid in Bella's bed with her back towards me. I heard her heart rate change from a regular beat into a more jumpy one.
"Good morning, Bella," I whispered in her ear. She turned her body so it was now facing me. Her eyes remained shut closing the gates to her soul.
"I don't have to go to school today, it's summer," she groaned.
"I know but it's already 10, you don't want to sleep the whole day away do you?" I smiled and moved my nose back and forth on her neck. She shuddered involuntarily. Her chocolate brown eyes opened and she stared into mine. My dead heart jumped inside my rib cage. I could no longer hear her heart beat or feel her breath on my face. I had caused her to stop breathing again. "Breath Bella, before you faint." She let out a jagged breath and gave me relief.
"I think I forgot how," she said her voice broke at some of the words. I chuckled hardly being able to believe that I still had that effect on her after all this time. I suddenly remembered that she needed to have her human moment and then eat breakfast so she won't get hungry.
"Time for you to get ready," I said getting off the bed and on my feet. I held out my arm to help her up, knowing her, she'd fall if I wasn't careful. She placed warm hand in mine allowing me to pull her to her feet. I didn't let go until I was positive she was able to stand on her own. "Need a human moment?" I asked politely. She nodded and went to get her things before going into the bathroom. I smiled and watched as she closed the door behind her.
After hearing her turn on the water, I walked downstairs to make her breakfast. I enjoyed watching her eat. Actually, I enjoyed watching everything she does. She was an absolutely fascinating creature and I can never guess what is to come next.
I heard her footsteps and knew that she was coming. I set her plate on the table and went to the fridge to get some milk. I set the glass down and began to pour the milk into it when she walked in. As soon as she saw me, her face turned an unreadable expression.
"What?" I asked confused. I was sure I did everything right.
"Nothing," she mumbled and sat down picking up her fork and knife like she was prepared to eat a fantastic meal. I sighed. It can't be nothing. Whenever Bella says it was nothing, it was always something.
"Bella, I know it isn't nothing. Tell me. Please?" I pleaded knowing well she can't stand it when I plead.
"Why do you have to be good at everything? Cooking was the only thing that I could do that you couldn't," she stormed. I smiled understandingly. She had no idea how good she truly was.
"That isn't true. You are good at many things," I corrected. I placed the milk carton next to her plate just in case she needed seconds. She raised her eyebrow at me.
"Oh yeah? Like what? And don't say blush, that is involuntary," she questioned. She truly was very good at blushing and it delighted me every time she did it. But there are many things she is good at. I went over to stand behind her chair.
"Well, you are good at tempting me," I said flicking her hair back to her front shoulder and kissed her neck tenderly numerous times. I heard her heartbeat speed up and smiled that I was able to get the effect I was hoping for.
"Are you going to let me finish my breakfast or are you going to continue to give me a heart attack?" she muttered. I laughed and stopped. I sat myself across from her so I can see her eat.
She cut a tiny piece of her pancake and placed in her mouth. She seemed distracted throughout her meal. I felt frustrated that I couldn't read her thoughts. I waited impatiently for her to voice her thoughts.
"Edward, you know if I was a vampire, I wouldn't have to eat," I tensed at her words. I didn't want to discuss this subject any longer. How can I make her understand I can't take her life away from her and damn her to eternity in this living hell?
"I thought you understood why that can't be," I muttered just loud enough for her to hear me. I knew that she was going to cry and my heart lurched in pain like someone was stabbing me repeatedly with an invisible dagger.
"And I thought you loved me and that you wanted to be with me forever," she said her voice breaking. How could she doubt that fact about our relationship?
"I do but not if I have to kill you in the process," I said refusing to sway or show any sign of weakness. She has to understand my stand on this. Her tears were flowing freely down both of her cheeks now and I wanted desperately to wipe them away and make her smile again. An angel shouldn't cry, it wasn't right.
"You're not killing me. You're giving me a new life," she argued.
"I'm giving you a life condemned to darkness."
"Edward, if you don't want to change me then maybe you should just leave." I stared at her blankly.
She had just asked me to leave. I told myself many times that one day she would want to me to leave and I would do as she asked but I never expected to really happen so soon. Her words stung every inch of skin on my body.
"Maybe that would be the best thing to do. Goodbye Bella," I turned and ran faster than I have ever ran out the door. I couldn't stay and let her see my usual composed self crumble to dust beneath her feet. She was an angel and I was damn, I didn't deserve her and this was the end of us.
I went home and flung the door open. Esme looked surprised to see me home, she stood up from the couch to ask but I kept walking to the phone. I dialed the hospital's number and asked to talk to Dr. Cullen.
"Hello?" Carlisle voice rang on the other side of the line.
"Carlisle, we're leaving," I ordered.
"We must leave as soon as possible," I said forcing pushing myself to continue to speak.
"I'll be home in fifteen minutes." There was a click on the phone and I placed it back on the kitchen wall. I turned to see Esme looking at me timidly. I opened my mouth to speak but she stopped me by talking first.
"I'll go get the things ready." She turned and walked away. I was relieved she didn't want to question me yet. I needed to get away from here before I regret my decision and beg Bella to allow me to stay.
Everyone packed quietly knowing this wasn't a good time to ask questions. By morning, we were done and ready to leave. I allowed the others to get into the cars first.
I placed a single rose in my room to say goodbye and to tell her I will always love her no matter how far away I am. My heart will always be with her no matter where I go. I only hope she will see it and forgive me for walking into her life and taking away her pure innocence.
I will leave no traces of my existence to make sure she is returned to the life she deserves. I glanced back one last time at the house before taking off towards our next destination. There were so many memories that I shared with my angel here and I will forever keep it in my heart. Goodbye Bella.