Chapter 9: Break
"What does this mean for us?" He whispered.
This question was the one she had feared the most. She knew it would have come up eventually, she just did not know if she was ready for it. Telling him that she needed to go away had not been hard, what she was about to tell him would be the hardest part of the night, or actually, the hardest thing she had ever had to do in her whole life.
"I think we need to take a break." She could see Seto's grip tighten on the balcony railing. She had not noticed when his hands had left hers, her heart had been too sore, her chest too tight. She knew this was the last thing Seto expected to happen tonight.
Seto could not believe what he was hearing. He could not believe he was losing her. He should have done something sooner. He should have tried to help her more. He should not have let her fall so far and he should not have let her drift so far away from him. When he looked at Serenity now, he could see a glimmer of hope, a promise of something more and this was something he had not seen in so long. When he looked at her he could see that she was not going to change her mind and that this was the only way she could find a way to heal. When he looked at her he could see that he was not what she needed right now. The only question running through his head now was: Would she ever need him again?
If she had to get away from him to get better, to heal and become the person she wanted to be, then that would mean that he would only make things worse. What would that mean a month from now, if they saw each other again, it would just bring them back to square one. Seeing him would be the same as reliving all those horrible memories. They had countless good memories, moments that he would never forget. Would those be enough though?
He thought back to the time before the second attack. It felt like so long ago. They were happy. They were in love. The way she had smiled and laughed, knowing he was the reason for her happiness. What were the chances of them getting that back and Serenity being able to heal? He knew he could only do one thing.
Seto pulled Serenity to him, crushing his lips against hers, wrapping his arms around her. He wanted to remember this moment, the smell of her hair, the softness of her skin, the way she moulded perfectly to his body and the way her lips felt against his. He wanted to remember this moment because this would be the last time he would hold her like this.
Seto pulled away from Serenity. Her cheeks were flushed and her eyes sparkled, she looked so very beautiful in that moment. It made it even harder to do what he was about to do.
"I don't think we need a break, I think we are over for good. You should leave." Seto walked away, every inch of his body wanted to turn around and take her in his arms and tell her he would take her anywhere she needed to go and that they had to be together. That they could work through this and that they would survive. He knew in his heart that it could not be this way though. He knew that she would not be able to heal if they were together. It just would not work because he would always be a reminder of what had happened to her and how badly it had damaged her. He would always be a reminder to her of how he could not save her...