'Where is he?' I turn onto the stairs walking past Dean, Lindsay, and another boy who I think is named Tahj. All night Jess has been so gloomy and anti-social, and now I can't find him anywhere. He said he wanted to go somewhere else but I am pretty sure he wouldn't just leave without me.
I step onto the upstairs carpet, and walk down the hallway searching for a sign of him at all. I reached out to the first door and pushed it open. I poked my head inside and saw him sitting in the arm chair next to the bed.
"There you are." Yes! Go Rory, Go Rory, You found him, you found him. Shake yo booty now! I really need to get off to college soon before my mother suddenly takes control over all of my thoughts.
"Hey." Okay so not exactly the warm welcome I was hoping for but, it still works...right?
"I've been looking all over for you."
"I just got tired of everything down there." Well what are you in the mood to do at all lately? Huh Mr. Grumpy puss? C'mon lets hear it diner-boy, why in the world are you shutting me out?
"Are we allowed to be up here? I mean, Kyle was kind of discouraging it." I asked.
"When you have a party, you get what you get." Great answer. God what is bothering you? I silently study him for a second trying to get any sort of clue as to what's wrong. So help me God, I am not leaving this room until I know what happened. Okay Mariano you want to prance around telling me what's wrong? Fine. Two can play this game.
"Yeah, I guess." I pause, lets try to be sweet and see where that gets us, eh? "Sad boy, what's wrong? You were looking forward to this party, what happened?" I reached up to give him an encouraging gesture. C'mon Jess just spill it...please. For once blow off the bad-boy reputation and say something.
"Nothing." Oh thanks, your extensive and earth-shattering response overwhelms me.
"Something did. Come on, tell me." Okay Rory, pull out the persuasive kissing..." You're not tired of me, are you?" Nice touch Rory, you definitely got it going on tonight. Oh no. no. no. no. Oh he kissed me! Ugh.. stay focused Rory one kiss cannot get you off track. Remember the goal: get Jess to open his lovely, oh so beautiful mouth. sorry! I mean his...mouth...to say something..."That's a pretty good answer." Flash the smile Rory! Definite points given to me tonight!
Okay short intervention. Short. I promise this will not include...making out...on the bed...huh? How did this happen? Okay need to stop...need to get...up, Oh! He did the thing with the tongue! Not fair he's cheating! Shouldn't he be dis-qualified or something?
Pull yourself together! Remember the goal!
Okay this being the opportune moment seeing as he has made his way to my neck for the moment...say something. "Jess, wait..." No don't its okay...we have all the time in the world to talk.
No Gilmore! "Jess," ...kiss..."hmmm wait" Reaching for the belt buckle...THE BELT BUCKLE! "Jess." I pushed him off of me. Good, standing up is good. Legs may be a little shaky, but we haven't fallen down yet have we?
"Jeez." Jeez. Jeez? You cannot possibly be mad. I'm the one who should be mad here bucko.
"Not here! Not now!"
"Fine!" Is he mad at me?
"What is wrong with you?"
"Nothing's wrong with me."
Are you completely oblivious to the situation here? We are heading in that direction in Kyle's bedroom!
"Someone could have walked through that door." Damnit Jess! Ugh, you're frustrating.
"And Santa Claus could've come down the chimney. Whatever."
Santa Claus? You are not seriously mentioning Santa Claus in a conversation pertaining to the fact that you just wanted to have sex with me? At Kyle's house?
"You did not think that it was going to happen like this, did you?"
I tell you for the sake of me not having a heart attack here and now you better be thinking one big, fat NO.
"I don't know what I think anymore."
Houston, we have a problem someone is hurting and someone cough me cough may have just pushed a limit.
"Jess..." I start heading towards him.
"Rory, stop, just stop! I did not invite you up here, you came upon your own!"
I've never seen him yell like that... in fact I've never seen him yell. Okay blurry vision due to tears blink rapidly and no sudden movements do to unfamiliar territory.
I keep my voice low, knowing it will crack if I talk normally, "I don't know what I did."
I start to head for the door, when I remember. I'm not going anywhere until I know what's going on. I back up slowly and sit on the corner of the bed. I keep my head down no need for him to see the tears. I hear him sigh and walk towards me...
"You didn't do anything." He sits down next to me and I lift my head a little to look at him.
"What happened?" I asked almost whispering.
New words for Jess Mariano.
"Tell me. Please, I want to know. I want to..I just want to help." I begged. But, only a little tinsy, tiny, itty, bitty bit. Rory Gilmore has her pride to, you know.
"I screwed everything up, and there are no options."
I wasn't about to pressure him so I stayed silent until he continued.
"I'm not graduating; I found out today...When I tried to buy us prom tickets."
I've either been hit over the head with a frying pan and kicked in the stomach or this is what being devastated feels like. It's either one or the other.
"I wanted to take you Rory. If you don't believe anything else, please believe that. I know it meant a lot for you to go to Stars Hollow High prom, and I am sorry for being such a jackass and not being able to tolerate total boredom for 8 hours a day."
This is fixable. It is. Plans can be planned, adjustments can be adjusted, and things can be worked out. I simply smiled. This has got to be love when you know devastation can be fixed, plans planned, adjustments adjusted and things worked out. It has to be.
"I love you."
At first I wasn't completely sure who said it but when he shot me a confused look and replied I knew it had been me.
"I love you too. You are one strange individual Rory Gilmore and I love every bit of you."
Suddenly I went into a fit of giggles.
"You...(laughing) I believe...(tears forming in eyes) have turned...(lungs breaking apart) soft."
Jess just joined in laughing and we collapsed back onto the bed laughing hysterically.
"You mean he just said it? Just like that?" Lorelai asked me, amazed.
"Just like that." I stated proudly.
"This is crazy, it's insane! Call Taylor up because this has definitely surpassed when he put heart decorations in Luke's for Valentine's Day that one time hoping he could get away with it."
"Its not that insane…is it? I mean I didn't think…" I started to say.
"Its not." Mom cut me off. After a short pause she talked again. "So."
"So." I repeated, unsure of what to say.
"You're happy?" Mom asked me.
"I am." I answered her looking into her eyes.
"Well, good." She smiled sincerely at me and slung an arm over my shoulder. "So how do you think Luke will take the news about what he said?"
"Mom! You can't."
"Wrong you are beautiful angel." Lorelai stated with an evil grin.
"Hey Luke" I said walking up to the counter.
"Hey Rory" He said back
"My, oh my sweetie. Doesn't it just seem like every time we come here it gets better and better?" Mom asked me in fake southern accent. I decided to play along.
"Why, yes mother, it does get lovelier everyday." I replied trying my best to keep a straight face.
"You do know darling, that there is one secret that most people don't know about this diner?"
"I didn't know mother! What ever could it be?" I asked.
"There is a smell! A smell that draws people to the place!" Mom exclaimed.
"A smell?" I asked, already knowing what smell she was talking about.
"The smell of COFFEE!"
I looked over at Luke just in time to see him roll his eyes and grab two mugs. I focused back to the conversation with mom.
"Is that what draws us here mom?" I asked faking devastation.
"I am so sorry sweetie, but yes. Its not for flannel man's service, its not for diner boy number two…it's the COFFEE!"
I sat down on a stool at the counter. With mom following suit. Luke placed two mugs of coffee in front of us,
"No screaming, or no refills." Luke said walking from behind the counter with the coffee pot. I scanned the room before talking to Luke.
"Hey Luke? Is Jess upstairs?" I asked my eyes following him around the diner.
"Uh, yeah. Go on up if you like." I nodded and spun my stool around to make sure it was okay with my mom. She half smiled and nodded so I slid off the stool and made my way to the stairs.
I knocked on the door, and Jess swung it open.
"Hey," he said.
"Good morning." I smiled. I walked in and shut the door behind me as we made our way over to his side of the room.
"I just got a book from Hartford bookstore last week, guess what it is?" he asked me.
"Ladies, and gentleman! I think we have a poet on our hands," he said sarcastically. I pushed him a little bit and kissed him. I pulled back right when he was starting to react and asked,
"What book did you get Jess?"
"A copy of 'Please Kill Me', so you can have my original," he quickly answered and started to kiss me again. We backed up until he ran into his bed, where he sat down and pulled me onto him. After another minute or so, he laid back so I was straddling his waist while kissing him.
He pulled away quickly leaving me to react slowly. I didn't have a chance to open my eyes before he captured my lips once again. I dis-engaged my lips from his and rolled off so I was lying beside him.
"Thank you." I said to him, meeting his eyes.
"For the kiss or the book?" He asked smirking
"Both. But mainly for the book, I like your notes in those margins." I said seriously.
"So you mean you would rather have my book with writing in the margins than my lips being occupied with your face?"
"Jess!" I yelled, I could tell by my face heating up that I was blushing. He let out a little laugh and sat up. I sat up and looked at him,
"I should get downstairs. My mom is probably waiting for me to order so we can share." I said standing up.
"Okay…Will I see you later?" he asked.
"Actually I was thinking we could go see a movie or something. Then get some ice cream because I have been craving chocolate mint ice cream lately." I started walking to the door with him following.
"Sounds good…Your mom won't care?" he asked hesitantly.
"Ummm…no actually, she is going out with Alex tonight. He's been away on business and just got back this week. I think its sort of the break-up dinner."
"Okay, I'll be around about seven."
"Okay," I said. I'm not sure if I should ask but I'm going to anyway, "Jess? What…um…what are you planning on doing for …um…school?" I said, not meeting his eyes.
"I don't know yet." He said, his voice getting quieter. I looked up and met his eyes.
"Well, we'll figure it out. Anything you need to do, I'll help out." I smiled, and he looked to the floor.
"Yeah, hey listen, I'll see you later…okay?"
I shifted my feet, "Um…okay…seven? You said seven?"
"Okay, I'll see you then." I leaned towards him and gave him a quick peck on the lips.
"Love you." He said.
"I love you too." I said. I turned around and went out the door. Once I shut the door, I let out the breath I was holding.
"Pretty in Pink"
"The Breakfast Club"
"Breakfast at Tiffany's"
"And finally, do we have 'What happened to bob?'" Lorelai asked looking up at Rory.
"New word now, please."
"Sorry, I got carried away."
"Crazy kids these days…always are repeating words…" She said with a smirk playing on her lips.
"Okay, so um, I'm really sorry, but I am craving coffee. From Luke's." Rory said hoping she wouldn't catch on to what she really wanted.
"Are you sure that's what you are craving angel face? Or is it maybe playing battle of tongues with James Dean?"
"Well mother, since you are so interested…I want to pick up Jess' copy of Please Kill Me, because he said I could have it." Rory said, telepathically cursing her for being so smart.
"Alright, maybe we could grab a couple burgers before we go so we won't eat all the red vines resulting in you throwing up continuously the next morning like last time."
"Gross!" Rory said scrunching up her nose.
"You're telling me! I was the one holding your hair back watching it all happen!" Lorelai said getting pleasure from Rory's facial expressions.
"Mom, please." Rory said almost begging.
"Well you were the one who wouldn't stop talking about it!" Rory defended herself.
"Fine. I'll stop talking about you barfing up red vines, if you sneak the coffee pot when Luke is in the kitchen making our burgers."
"Sure because Luke would never notice the coffee pot missing." Rory said rolling my eyes.
"Honey please, Luke will be too distracted by my dazzling beauty to notice." She said.
"Fine you got yourself a deal." She said.
When they reached Luke's Rory opened up the door for Lorelai, walking in behind her.
"Oh Lucas! Rory and I are in desperate need of some coffee!" Lorelai yelled.
Luke came from the storage room. He walked behind the counter and grabbed two mugs. Rory stayed standing while her mom took a seat at the counter.
"Hey Luke, can I go upstairs? I wanted to get this book Jess promised me." Rory said walking towards the stairs.
"Sure!" Luke yelled to her from the kitchen.
Before she went to the stairs, Rory went behind the counter, grabbed the coffee pot filled up Lorelai's cup and set it on the stool beside her. Rory smiled and went upstairs.
She knocked on the door twice, and when it didn't open, she just walked in.
"Jess?" She called when the door closed behind her. "Jess?" Rory called again. She looked to her left, to find Jess asleep on his bed with a book lying on his stomach. She smiled and walked over to him. She picked the book up and marked it with the lead pencil clipped to the cover. She climbed on the bed and straddled him just below his waist and kissed his ear. When she looked at his face, he was still sleeping. So Rory kissed him hard on the mouth and moved her hips a little bit, and very shortly after she felt him respond by putting his hands on her hips, and kissing her back. When she pulled away from his lips, Rory sat all the way up, putting more pressure below his waist. She was breathing heavy, and could hear Jess doing the same. Rory kept moving her hips and started to feel light headed with delight. She found her hands pulling up his shirt a little to reveal the waist of his jeans, and the elastic of his boxers. She lightly scraped her nails down to the edge of his boxers, and lifted them up. She slipped the tips of her fingers underneath the material.
"Rory." Jess protested, out of breath. "Rory," he said with a little more confidence this time. When she didn't stop Jess lost his self control and slipped his hands under her shirt, snaking his arms around her waist. Not wanting to stop, Rory started to put more pressure on Jess with her hips. Jess captured the moan wanting to escape, in his throat and swallowed it. "Rory, please." Jess begged not wanting Rory to stop, but needing her to before he went crazy.
Rory just leaned down and kissed Jess's neck, relieving the pressure of her hips. When she found Jess's mouth, she kissed him with everything she had and then abruptly pulled away, but just inches from his face. When Jess finally opened his eyes, he found Rory's blue ones staring at him.
"Your powers are truly underestimated." Jess said, regaining his composure. Rory smiled and kissed him lightly on the lips. She silently got up off of Jess and the bed, and walked over to his bookshelf. She bent down and grabbed the worn copy of Please Kill Me, stood up walked to the door and just before stepping out the door, looked over her shoulder and raised her eyebrows with a mischievous smirk formed on her mouth.
When the door softly closed, Jess exhaled a big breath and said, "And people think that I am the biggest trouble in this town."
"Oh good Rory, just in time," Lorelai said when she pushed the curtain back. "I was just about to explain to Luke, that there is no such thing as too many marshmallows."
"Oh good Rory, just in time," Luke said mocking Lorelai. "Get her out of here before I go crazy." Luke said pointing at Lorelai.
"What? Okay, fine. If that's how you want it Luke, I guess that you will never be able the buy the correct amount of marshmallows for a movie night." Lorelai stood up and slung her purse over her shoulder with Rory joining her at her side.
"That's okay, I think I'll live." Luke said sarcastically