A/n: Summary, This is a song fic for Morgan, when she realises she's fallen for Hunter, like an answer fic to Heal over, the song fic in Hunter's POV. It's set just after the kiss, before Cal's return.
The song is another one of my favourites, its Evanescence, October.
I can't run anymore, I fall before you, Here I am, I have nothing left,
Cal took everything from me, my heart, my ability to trust anyone again. I loved him, so so much, I let him into my life and he tried to end it. I knew from the startI was foolish, why would someone as beautiful as Cal ever attracted to someone as plain as me.
But then Hunter came along, at first I hated him, but was that Cal's poisoning influence on me... making his betrayal even more twisted and deeper than I originally thought.
Though I've tried to forget, You're all that I am, Take me home, I'm through fighting it,
Hunter helped me, he saved me... and something inside me wants to trust him, trust him more than I've ever trusted anyone before... including Cal, my first love. But will I be crushed again? I don't care there is something deeper than attraction between us, I felt it when we kissed, I think I'm falling for him, he said he'll show me, teach me... I want it so much, but even more I want him.
Broken, Lifeless, I give up, You're my only strength,
Hunter has helped me more than just saving my life, I would be broken without him, so much more in despair over Cal, when I'm with Hunter, he makes me forget all about Cal. Makes me think that we are the only two in the world.
Without you, I can't go on, Anymore, Ever again.
I want him, so much, I want to be with him, want to be loved by him, but is it too soon? No, I don't owe Cal anything, he tried to kill me!
My only hope, (All the times I've tried) My only peace, (To walk away from you)
I can't deny it anymore, I think I love him.
My only joy, My only strength, (I fall into your abounding grace)
With him I feel safe and makes me feel like I have the power to do anything, and above that, he makes me happy.
My only power, My only life, (And love is where I am) My only love.
My heart is mending, Cal is out of my life, dare he show his face again. Hunter is where my heart belongs. I still feel for Cal, even after what he did to me, but I can't help it, after months of thinking I loved him, it will be hard to overcome.
I can't run anymore, I give myself to you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
I hope Hunter knows I don't hate him, I have been rather hard on him
In all my bitterness, I ignored, All that's real and true, All I need is you,
Cal's lies linger over me, what's real? What's true? Firstly I was horrid to Hunter, I even threw a knife into his neck!Does he feel the same for me? Does he even like me at all? Or is he just doing his job, I hope not, I need him.
When night falls on me, I'll not close my eyes, I'm too alive, And you're too strong,
I lay awake at night, my conflicting thoughts circling my head, I loved Cal, I think I love Hunter, but who can I trust?
I can't lie anymore, I fall down before you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
I want to tell him, I want him to know I'm sorry for nearly killing him, for hating him, but I was influenced, I want to tell him that I need him, I love him.
My only hope, (All the times I've tried) My only peace, (To walk away from you) My only joy, My only strength, (I fall into your abounding grace) My only power, My only life, (And love is where I am) My only love, My only hope, (All the times I've tried)My only peace, (To walk away from you) My only joy, My only strength, (I fall into your abounding grace) My only power, My only life, (And love is where I am) My only love.