Disclaimer: I don't own PR.
(Another JaKim fic from moi! Noticing a pattern here? LOL)
(I'm puttin' them at age twenty-seven)
WARNING: I decided to alter a few things about the rangers- well, mainly Jason.
I Turn To You
(During the third week of June)
Gina Scott looked around the bus she was sitting on warily. She was leaving Angel Grove- the place that'd been her home for the last eight years- behind. Possibly forever. She was headed to Sacramento, but, she didn't plan to settle there. She felt she needed to make her life her own again. It was a very selfish decision... because she was leaving a husband and daughter behind. But, in truth, she'd always been sort of a self-centered person- according to others. She'd never seen it that way, of course. She wasn't doing this to hurt anyone...
'I've been putting myself in dead last for the last five years,' she thought, now staring out of the window. She'd stopped being genuinely happy two years ago. She'd even began wondering if she'd ever been genuinely happy since she'd become a wife and mother. She hadn't been. She'd just convinced herself it was what she really wanted. Because of him. But her maternal instincts were practically nonexistent. What good would she be to her child? Also, her feelings for her husband of five years were fading. So, she'd had to get out.
'She doesn't need someone who doesn't even really wanna be a mother. I'm actually doing her a favor,' she told herself for the umpteenth time. She'd been convincing herself that she wasn't just thinking that to make herself feel better about her choice. 'I'm doing the right thing. They'll both be happier and a lot better off without me. This is the right choice. I don't want that life. I'm not cut out for it. So, why stay around? I'd only end up making them miserable. So, maybe this decision isn't so selfish after all,'she thought, nodding slowly.
Jason would understand. He'd be pissed and hurt, at first. But, he'd come to understand. And their child probably wouldn't hate her forever. Gina took a deep breath. She was doing the right thing. She was. It was for the best. She leaned back and closed her eyes, choosing to ignore the small voice in her head that said: "Yeah. Best for you." She couldn't go back. She wouldn't go back. She'd keep going til she finally found whatever it was she was looking for. It wasn't in Angel Grove.
(The Scott Household)
"I want cookies, Daddy," Jade Leigh Scott said happily as she ran into the house a few hours later ahead of her father. He'd just picked her up from daycare after leaving the dojo he ran with Adam Park.
Jason locked the door, then, grinned at his three-year-old daughter. "Dinner first, baby girl," he said.
She pouted. "No fair," she said.
"Tell me about it," Jason joked. "Gina! We're home!" But he got no reply.
"Mommy! We're home!" Jade said, running towards the kitchen.
Jason looked into the den, then, the living room. No Gina. "Maybe she's in our room," he muttered, heading for the room he shared with his wife. But when he reached the room, he saw no one there. He looked over in Jade's room. No Gina. Okay, maybe the bathroom.
Jade came running towards him, then. "Where's Mommy?" she asked. Meaning she wasn't in the kitchen, either.
"Good question, munchkin," he said with a frown. Wasn't in the bathroom, either. Her car was under the carport. It was weird. "Let's see if she's in the backyard," he said, scooping his daughter up in his arms and heading for the kitchen.
"I want apple juice," Jade said.
"In a second, cupcake," he said as they entered the kitchen. But just as he was about to head to the back door, something caught Jade's eye.
"Lookit!" she said, pointing to towards the fridge.
Jason backtracked and saw a sheet of notebook paper pinned to the freezer door. He snatched it off and began to read silently.
I'm sorry, but, I can't do this anymore. I haven't really been me in a long time. The wife and mommy thing just isn't for me. I'm not doing this to hurt you or Jade. But I have to go out and find what I really want. I'm not coming back and please don't try to find me. Even if you do and succeed, it's not gonna matter because I'm not changing my mind. The life we shared isn't the life I want for myself. Again, I'm sorry.
Jason let the paper slip from his hand and onto the floor, thinking this had to be some kind of joke. He began feeling everything and nothing at once. He couldn't move. His wife had left him and their child. He now felt as if he could barely breathe. Oh, God.
Jade picked up on the sudden change in her father's mood and frowned. "Daddy, what's wrong?" she asked.
He blinked and looked at her as if he'd never seen her a day in his life.
"What's wrong? Are you sad now, Daddy?" she asked, touching his face.
Jason just looked at her. He could hear her, but, he couldn't really make out what she was saying at the moment. His mind was reeling. He'd just received the biggest shock of his life. The day had started off perfectly normal and ended... How had he missed the signs? Was Gina that great an actress?
And how would he explain this to Jade?
What'd ya think?