hello there. yesh, i am back. yes, i know i deserve to be shot, but trust me theres SO much going on here. and i felt so bad just abandoning this story :(, but hey, im here now right? WITH A NEW CHAPPIE! and i know you guys heart me for it right? lol, well i worked really hard on this. Theres more, but im making it a new chapter. so here you go, DiVe forever:

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with lie and
Just forget the world?

Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol

Something was burning. I opened my eyes, and realised that it was just the sun falling across my face. God, what time was it anyway? The red figures on her clock blinked back at me. 12:03. I guess that explained the bright sunlight filtering in through the gap in the curtains. The events of last night came rushing back in my head. The dream. Going to the graveyard. Shattering the bottle of vodka against his gravestone. Walking to the pub. Almost getting run over. Getting completely trashed. Coming to Veronicas. Explaining to her again. Falling asleep. Waking up halfway through the night. Putting her in her bed. Falling to sleep with her. My head was left in a whirl. I looked down at Veronica. My arm was around her and her legs were tangled in mine. 'She's been through so much.' She looked so vulnerable. So innocent. Her eyelashes fluttered open, and she sensed that I was awake.

"Morning" she whispered, half awake. I smiled back at her.

"Thanks, you know, for last night. No one else would've done that for me"

"Don't say that, don't you dare say that, Dick"

She was now fully awake, and her eyes were full of something I couldn't quite recognise.

"There are loads of people in this world who care about you. Logan cares about you! He might not be here to show it, but you know he does," her voice quietened. "I'm always here for you, you know that right? Whenever you need to talk, I'm here. I'll always be here."

I nodded. Her face changed, and suddenly there was a hardness in her eyes, and there was calm anger in her voice.

"If you knew that, then do you mind explaining to me why you turned up at my door COMPLETELY TRASHED? And don't lie to me Dick, why did you turn to alcohol." Her voice became softer, it does that a lot, and her eyes did the same. "If you knew you could come to me why didn't you?" The hurt in her voice was evident. I knew that as soon as Logan came back I would kill him. She took so sensitively to everyone leaving her. Logan left her, just when she needed him to need her. He left her. Seeing her like this made me feel that I could never forgive him for that. The sudden movement from her shook me from my thoughts. She had turned her back to me.

"I know I shouldn't have gone there, but V, you have to understand. I tried so hard not to let it affect me, but I guess Beav made more of an impression on me when he died than when he was alive huh?" I gave a humourless laugh. She turned back to me and this time any hurt, anger, or anything else was gone from her eyes.

"Dick, Beav loved you. I know he did. What he did was unforgivable, but I know he loved you. If you ever want to talk to me, I meant what I said. I'm always here." With that she tried to get up, but I grabbed her hand and pulled her back down.

"Ready now?"

Her hand came up to my arm, and she looked me straight in the eye.

"Are you sure you want to do this now?"

"I'm sure" I replied. And then I proceeded to tell her everything. I told her about what had run through my mind when I saw the police surrounding the hotel. I told her about how much I just wanted to run away and hide when I saw his casket lying there. I told her how I was on autopilot when they asked me to say a few words. I told her about how much it hurt me to see people looking at me as if to say, 'you're bullshitting. Everything you say is a lie. You messed him up. What would you know about your brother. You barely knew him'.

By the end of it, Veronica was on the verge of tears, and she just hugged me tightly, and I hugged her back.

"There, I've gone and ruined your morning" I said jokingly. She just glared at me, but her face soon cracked into a smile.

"There was something else I wanted to talk to you about" I pulled the picture I'd found of us earlier. She looked at it, then back at me and it was written all over her face that she wanted to ask me where I'd got it from, but she didn't and looked back at the picture again.

"We looked so happy, Dick, so content. What happened to us? How did we change so much? Where did these people go?" She looked at me again. I remained silent for a while. She closed her eyes, as if she was reliving it all over again.

"I'm not that person anymore" she whispered, the sorrow evident in her voice.

"Neither are any of us. We all changed V, and look where we would be if we hadn't." I paused, and then for old times sake, I said in my joking voice "I mean, look at me, I dreamt of scoring all those girls, and now look at me, living the dream!" I grinned, but that soon fell as she gave me the look. Did I mention Veronica Mars is one SCARY pixie?

After we laughed for a bit, remembering the old days, she got up and pulled aside the curtains.

"OOW, light, it burns! It buuuurrrrnnnns!!!"

"Oh stop being such a baby Dick Casablancas!"

I felt something hit my face. I opened my eyes to rough towelling.

"Go take a shower, and make sure the smell of alcohol disappears" she said to me in that strange, commanding way that she has managed to master.

"Yes mommy!"

Next thing I knew I was being hit by a pillow. And I just couldn't resist throwing one back. And before we knew it, there was a full-fledged pillow fight going on. I finally got the imp pinned under me, and we both stated to stop our laughter. She closed her eyes and just lay there for a minute, and when they opened, they were wide with shock at the position we were in. If anyone had walked in at that point, well, lets just say it would've looked terribly wrong. She reached for the towel and shoved it at me. I got off of her and went outside. It was then I realised that I didn't know where the shower was. I turned around and hit my head on the door frame, and my hair got tangled in the hinges. I looked helplessly at her, and she, obviously amused at my look, burst out laughing and pointed me along.

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