Through Her Eyes

My next story! Yah! I finished 'The eyes of a unwanted girl' not to long ago and had so much fun writing it, that I am thinking on a squeal, but this is not that! This is a new story! It is Lilly/Severus Affair story so deal with it!

((A/N: Disclaimer: I don't own any Harry Potter Characters because if I did we wouldn't be here right now, now would we? But I do own any new characters! As much as I would love to have this Series as my own, sadly I don't. I just live out my sad life through my fanfics. I can't be alone in that… ))

((A/N: So I would like to ask anyone who doesn't know that is a fan of 'The eyes of a unwanted girl' that I am writing a sequel called ' Discovery of one's self' an ask that if you want to, go read it. Well, I will say that it's another title that I have no clue where it came from. Well, on to the next chap of this wondrous story.))

((A/N: WARNING! Contains rape and violence and self mutilation, so if you don't want to read it, then don't!))

OK:

This is Parsaltongue

This is a thought

Songs in last chapter:

Smile Empty Soul- Self-inflicted

Aiden- Die Romantic

Marilyn Manson- Coma White

Aiden- The Last Sunrise

Smile Empty Soul- Therapy

Smile Empty Soul- Don't Need You

Queen- We Are The Champions

Chapter 9: Step-by-Step

((" I can't do it anymore." She answered.

" Do what?"

" Live." She said, turning towards the fire. " I just feel consumed by pain and fear. I can't do it anymore."

Kat stood up and walked to the mantle.

" Kat, you can't just leave. Think about what's gonna happen to me. I don't know what I'll do. First I lose Lilly. I don't think I could handle losing you." Severus said in a small voice.

Kat turned to see Severus in a way she had never seen him. He was truly in pain to see her like she was.

" Daddy." She whispered, stepping forward.

Very slowly, she inched into his arms, falling into his protective grip.

" I'm so sorry." She cried into his chest.

" Shhh, it's alright." Severus whispered, stroking her hair and didn't feel her flinch.

As they were standing, a song leaked out of Kat's room and slowly, they danced.

" I've paid my dues -
Time after time -
I've done my sentence
But committed no crime -
And bad mistakes
I've made a few
I've had my share of sand kicked in my face -
But I've come through

We are the champions - my friends
And we'll keep on fighting - till the end -
We are the champions -
We are the champions
No time for losers
'Cause we are the champions - of the world -

I've taken my bows
And my curtain calls -
You brought me fame and fortune and everything that goes with it -
I thank you all -

But it's been no bed of roses
No pleasure cruise -
I consider it a challenge before the whole human race -
And I ain't gonna lose -

We are the champions - my friends
And we'll keep on fighting - till the end -
We are the champions -
We are the champions
No time for losers
'Cause we are the champions - of the world –" ))

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((A/N: Ok this first part is going to be what happened to Valin, it's very not pertty.))

Severus stood in front of the bastard, wanting to strangle him. Here was the man that had been trying to kill him for the last 15 years and had raped his daughter. He should kill him.

No, that would be the Dementor's job. Oh yes. Better fate then dying ((A/N: Sorry Rylie)) for the scum; living with no soul.

The Minister of Magic, Cornelius Fudge, walked in.

" Severus, what is the meaning of this?" He asked, very irritated.

Severus smirked and led him to the tied up man.

" This is the meaning, minister." He said, pointing to Valin.

" I can't believe it. Drack Valin. So you finally caught him, eh Severus." Came a rough voice behind Severus.

" Yes Moody, but it gets worse." Severus said darkly, eyeing Kat's locked door. Faint bass beats could be heard.

" What do you mean?" Fudge asked.

" You both remember Katherine right?" Severus said.

" Yah, sweet little girl. Had so much energy that even Shacklebolt had trouble keeping up with her." Moody said, smiling at the memory.

" I remember her. She's the one who managed to take half my candy stock." Fudge said, grinning.

Severus was not smiling.

" Meet her rapist." He spat at Valin, venom lacing his words.

" What?" Fudge asked, alarm running through his eyes.

Moody only growled under his breath.

" She's only eleven." Fudge whispered. " A child. How could he? I can understand that he hated you, but take it out on you through your daughter? That's not right."

" She's suffering from major depression. I don't know if she'll really recover." Severus said quietly.

Moody walked forward and kicked Valin's side.

" What do you want to do to him, Severus?" he asked.

" Give him to the Dementors." Severus said darkly.

" Right." Fudge said.

He gave the command to Moody and soon, Valin was tied up and was being taken out of Hogwarts.

Severus turned toward Kat's room and could hear the song.

" I'll lay me down tonight
Much further down
Swim in the calm tonight
This art does drown

(What follows) me as the whitest lace of light
(Will swallow whole) just begs to be imbrued?
(What follows) has lead me to this place
where I belong, with all erased
What follows

All insects sing tonight
The coldest sound
I'd send God's grace tonight
Could it be found?

(What follows) me as the whitest lace of light
(Will swallow whole) just begs to be imbrued?
(What follows) has lead me to this place
where I belong, with all erased

I'll lay me down tonight
Much further down
Watch stars go out tonight
On sinking ground

I'll lay me down, I'll lay me down

(What follows) me as the whitest lace of light
(Will swallow whole) just begs to be imbrued?
(What follows) has lead me to this place
where I belong, with all erased

what follows will swallow whole
what follows will swallow whole"

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It seemed once Kat was assured that Valin was in Azkaban and had been given the Dementor's Kiss, she seemed to start to recover.

Slowly, Draco could touch her and Severus could hold her like she was before the rape. Harry on the other hand, couldn't touch her,

Actually, more like he couldn't touch her because Ron and Hermione were keeping him from her. Which made Kat very angry.

The Gryffindors, except for the twins & Ginny, were complete snobs to the Slytherins, well more then normal. Even though many knew that Kat had been hurt, many still tried to hex her and ambush her in the corridors. But just because she was recovering doesn't mean that she still wasn't angry.

Dean Tomas learned that the hard way.

One afternoon, Kat was walking from Charms to Transfiguration when Dean Tomas and a couple other Gryffindors ambushed her.

It didn't last long. Soon, Kat had everyone fleeing, except Dean. She had him unconscious on the hallway and left him there, in plain sight of course, for all to see.

Well, lets say that the Slytherin Common Room was alive that night.

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Peace only lasts so long.

In late November, while walking back from watching Draco practice in the Quidditch Pitch, Kat heard a voice that sent more chills down her spine then Valin could ever do.

" Come, Come to me, Let me rip, Let me tear you, Let me kill you…"

Kat, frozen still on the third step, opened her mouth to scream, but only silence came out.

' What was that?' She thought as she slowly regained her step. She continued on to Severus's quarters, listening carefully for the voice again.

" Maybe I just imagined it." Kat said aloud, trying to calm herself down.

' Yah, that's it. It wasn't real. All I need is a good rest. I've been very jumpy lately.' Kat thought as she came upon Salazar's painting.

" Evening Uncle Sal." She said, grinning up at her ancestor.

" What have I said about that Katherine?" Salazar said, smirking down at his heir.

" Quite a lot actually." She answered with a grin.

She smirked up.

" Divide and Conquer."

Salazar smirked back as he swung open.

Kat waked in, only to be enveloped by a strong pair of arms.

She couldn't help it. She freaked.

" GET OFF ME!" She screamed at the unknown figure, which quickly let go.

At once she recognized the piercing brown eyes and un-human black hair

" Davey?" She asked the vampire.

" I believe so. Unless I'm not me." Davey answered.

" Yah, that's you. What are you doing here? Weren't you in Romania?" Kat asked, not seeing the black haired, icy blue-eyed woman behind her.

" I was, until I felt you were in pain. I do apologize for being late; winters in Romania are torture to get through, even for the immortal." Davey answered. " But what I want to know is how you got hurt."

" As do I." The woman asked, moving from the shadows.

Kat whipped around and her eyes widened.

" Vanessa?" She asked the elder leader.

She saw Vanessa's icy blue eyes swirl with red and felt the probing at her shields. She lowered and Vanessa dived into her mind.

Minutes later, Vanessa came out and quickly gathered Kat into her arms.

" Oh little one. I'm so sorry I wasn't here." She said, stroking her hair.

" It's alright Nessa." Kat whispered, drawling on her godmother's warmth and strength.

" Wait, where did Davey go? I swear that brother of yours…" Vanessa whispered.

" He's probably in my room, exploring my cd collection." Kat said, grinning as she walked in on Davey nearly buried in cd cases.

He got up and popped a cd in, turning the volume up.

" What one did you put in?" Kat asked, sitting on the bed, above his head.

" You'll see." He said simply.

" I don't like surprises with my radio, Davey." Kat whined.

" Just listen. You haven't listened to this one in a long while. It wasn't out with the others."

" What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
what would you do?
What if I fell to the floor
couldn't take all this anymore
what would you do? (do, do)

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do? (do, do)
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for
I'm not running from you (from you)

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come, break me down
Break me down
Break me down

What if I wanted to break...?
What if I...
What if I..."

Davey stood up and stared at Kat until a new song played. Kat knew that song all to well.

" Oh no Davey, no dancing for me." Kat said quickly.

" Too bad." Davey said, pulling her off the bed.

" It could be ten, but then again, I can't remember half an hour since a quarter to four.
Throw on your clothes, the second side of Surfer Rosa, and you leave me with my jaw on the floor.
Just when you think you're in control,
just when you think you've got a hold,
just when you get on a roll,
here it goes, here it goes, here it goes again.
Oh, here it goes again.
I should have known,
should have known,
should have known again,
but here it goes again.
Oh, here it goes again.
It starts out easy, something simple, something sleazy, something inching past the edge of the reserve.
Now through lines of the cheap Venetian blinds your car is pulling off of the curb.
Just when you think you're in control,
just when you think you've got a hold,
just when you get on a roll,
here it goes, here it goes, here it goes again.
Oh, here it goes again.
I should have known, should have known,
should have known again,
but here it goes again.
Oh, here it goes again.
I guess there's got to be a break in the monotony, but Jesus, when it rains how it pours.
Throw on your clothes, the second side of Surfer Rosa, and you leave me, yeah, you leave me.
Oh, here it goes, here it goes, here it goes again.
Oh here it goes again.
I should have known, should have known,
should have known again,
but here it goes again.
Oh, here it goes again."

Despite her efforts not too, Kat found herself dancing after Davey nearly spilled over, causing Kat to nearly choke with laughter.

" So you were born in an electrical storm, took a bite out the sun and saw your future in a machine built
for two. Now your rays make me kind of go crazy, shock and awe and amaze me, just a ticker tape parade and
me, but something was wrong till you tap danced on the air, in the night. Screaming at the top of your
lungs, you said, "Come on, come on. Do what you want. What could go wrong? Oh come on come on come on,
come on, do what you want. Oh come on come on. What could go wrong? Do do do do what you want." Come on.
Me, I was raised amid the trickle-down days. I woke up numb in the haze and saw my future machine built
for two, but the light gave me some kind of fright. How did wrong get so right and lead me stumbling
through the dark of night? Oh something was wrong, but you tap danced on the air, in the night, Screaming
at the top of your lungs you said, "Come on, come on. Do what you want. What could go wrong? Oh come on
come on come on, come on, do what you want. Oh come on come on. What could go wrong? Do do do do what you
want." Come on."

Kat plopped down onto the bed and stared at Vanessa.

" Now, I can understand Davey coming down here if I was hurt, but Nessa you don't come unless it's urgent. So what are you doing here?" Kat asked.

" You're going to be coming into your inheritance soon and I am afraid that I have not been able to slow the merge. In three days you will gain all the powers that you are to receive." Vanessa said solemnly.

" You have got to be kidding me!" Kat yelled, jumping up from the bed. " I thought I had more time." She said, plopping down on the floor.

" So did we." Vanessa said.

As Kat sat there, she grabbed the remote and turned the CD player up louder, blaring a muggle Scottish icon throughout her room.

" I don't want to be second best
Don't want to stand in line
Don't want to fall behind
Don't want to get caught out
Don't want to do without
And the lesson I must learn
Is that I've got to wait my turn

Looks like I got to be hot and cold
I got to be taught and told
Got to be good as gold
But perfectly honest
I think it would be good for me
Coz it's a hindrance to my health
I'm a stranger to myself

Miniature disasters and minor catastrophes
Bring me to my knees
Well I must be my own master
Or a miniature disaster will be
It will be the death of me

I don't have to raise my voice
Don't have to be underhand
Just got to understand
That it's gonna be up and down
It's gonna be lost and found
And I can't take to the sky
Before I like it on the ground

And i need to be patient
And i need to be brave
Need to discover
How i need to behave
And I'll find out the answers
When i know what to ask
But i speak a different language
And everybody's speaking too fast

Miniature disasters and minor catastrophes
Bring me to my knees

Well I must be my own master
I've got to run a little faster
I need to know I'll last if a little
Miniature disaster hits me
It could be the death of me"

There was a pounding at the door and Severus barged in.

" Easy dad. I'm not doing it again. I'm trying to think over everything Nessa just told me." Kat said without looking up at the man.

" Nessa? When did you get here?" Severus said, moving over to the bed.

" About an hour ago." Vanessa responded.

Severus sat down on the bed.

" I think I need to hear a tale, don't I?" He said, looking from the small girl on the floor to the vampires on the bedspread.

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" You have got to be kidding me!" Severus said.

" I wish she was." Kat said in a low voice.

" If only, If only." Davey said, tossing a small rock around.

" Davey, Vanessa, I need to speak to you in private." Severus said, standing up.

He walked over to Kat, kissed her forehead and whispered something in her ear.

" 'k dad." She answered before the trio left the room.

As soon as the door closed, Kat had her Cd's playing again, loud enough to drown out her thoughts.

" Tonight we're standing in light of a frozen sun
Cursing the gods we have at home
Will you steal the fire from the sacred heart
And bleed the blood of holy
We've fallen in love with the serpent's song
And feel nothing

In the night side of eden
We're born again
Dead
Forever we are
Wherever we'll be
Forever we'll be crucified to a dream
The night side of eden

Deranged, we're tearing away the pains of desire
Learning the mathematics of people die hard
We deceive ourselves to start a war
Within the realm of senses
And the centered circle number four
Where we got nothing

In the night side of eden
We're born again
Dead
Forever we are
Wherever we'll be
Forever we'll be crucified to a dream
The night side of eden

In the night side of eden
We're born again
Dead
Forever we are
Wherever we'll be
Forever we'll be crucified to a dream
The night side of eden
Forever we are
Wherever we'll be
Forever we'll be crucified to a dream
The night side of eden"

Slowly the volume crept down, but it was still very loud. Maybe she didn't want this inheritance.

"Love, love, love, love, love, love.

Woo!

You were everything I wanted.

You were everything a girl could be.

Then you left me brokenhearted,

Now you don't mean a thing to me.

All I wanted was your

Love, love, love, love, love, love.

Hate is a strong word,

but i really, really, really don't like you.

Now that it's over

I don't even know what I liked about you.

Brought you around,

and you just brought me down.

Hate is a strong word,

but I really, really, really don't like you.

I really don't like you...

Thought that everything was perfect,

Isn't that how it's supposed to be?

Thought you thought that I was worth it,

Now I think a little differently.

All i wanted was your

Love, love, love, love, love, love.

Hate is a strong word,

but i really, really, really don't like you.

Now that it's over

I don't even know what I liked about you.

Brought you around,

and you just brought me down.

Hate is a strong word,

but I really, really, really don't like you.

Now that it's over,

you can't hurt me.

Now that it's over,

you can't bring me down.

(Oh, oh...)

All i wanted was your

Love, love, love, love, love, love.

Hate is a strong word,

but i really, really, really don't like you.

Now that it's over

I don't even know what I liked about you.

Brought you around,

and you just brought me down.

Hate is a strong word,

but I really, really, really don't like you.

I really don't like you...

I really don't like you...

I really don't like you..."

Never did she think about the blade hidden under her pillow, only of the icy black eyes that shown out off a memory that she couldn't place.

" Oh, I don't think I can take the pressure of being half vampire." She whispered as she paced the room.

" Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just don't let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again

Cause I fear I might break
and I fear I can't take it
Tonight I'll lie awake feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Now that I'm losing hope
And there's nothing else to show
For all of the days that we spent
Carried away from home

Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Without you

Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
You're better off without me"

((A/N: Ok I didn't kill Valin, but I did much, much worse. :EVIL SMIRK: ))