Not much to say about it...sad and depressing. I finally come back to my drama stories....
If you hate Davis or Jun, go away!! I love Davis, he's one of my favorite characters! And I HATE Davis bashing, okay? Down with it!
Like usually, Digimon doesn't belong to me....And this part is from Jun's POV, but you will notice that, I think. Hope so*sweatdrops*

:-P Kaeera

Soulless Eyes

by Kaeera

I look into your eyes

These eyes which used to be so full of life

So happy

So hopeful

Now they are dead.

Eyes are the windows to your soul, they say.

They show the true feelings of a person, they say.

Not these eyes.

They are empty.


That's the right word. Behind these eyes isn't a soul, isn't a heart....there's just nothing...darkness!

I watch your eyes and I can't stop crying.

I know, I never showed that I care for you. I even didn't realise on myself. You've been a nerving little brother for me. I had never the idea of telling you that

I didn't know that I love you, that's it.

And now I don't have the chance to say it.

Because you can't hear me.

Maybe it would be better when you had died.
Then we all would have cried, but after a few months you get used to it and you start laughing again. It sounds hard, not?
But when I am here and watch are alive, you breath, but you don't speak.

You don't look at me.

Don't hear me.

How I wish that you yell at me...
That you call me 'Idiot' like you did it so often.

We used to fight a lot. Our family is hot-tempered. Fighting and quarrelling is every days life. It's normal.

I said that I can't stand you and you said that you can't stand me.

That's the usual behaviour between brothers and sisters. Okay, there are some Tai and Kari, for example.

Isn't it strange that you never notice how much something means to you....until you have lost it?
Isn't it always like that?

You notice how wonderful peace is – after there has been a war.

You see how nice the sun is the shining – after it has rained for days.

You realise that you love your brother....when you can't speak to him.

The time is passing by and there's no change.

Mum and Dad are so sad. They love you – they didn't show it very often, but they do.

In our family we don't show our feelings.

I wish we did sometimes – maybe then I wouldn't feel so guilty and helpless now.

I am your big sister, but didn't protect you. Never. Everybody of us went his own way.
We are both a little bit crazy and noisy. In fact, we have many things in common.
Very many things.

I know that Mum and Dad miss you.

I miss you, too. I never expected that I would miss you....

But I do.


When I come home from the hospital, I wish that you would be there, eating ice-cream or watching TV.
And we would argue about soccer or other stupid things.

But the flat is always empty when I enter it.

Our parents are at work or with you in the hospital. And the flat is silent.

I can't stand this silence.

This silence isn't shows the absence of something important – of you.

Your body is still here, but where is your soul?

I feel so sorry for the things you've gone through. They broke you.

You are still a kid, and kids can be very strong....but they can be broken very easily, and that happened to you.
You eyes have seen things which you shouldn't have seen – which nobody should see.

I have seen photos, and it was enough to give me nightmares.

They did terrible things to you. To an innocent child.

They destroyed these eyes. Maybe they will never laugh again.

You are there in the hospital room, and for me it is as if I would watching a big doll. A doll which looks similar to my brother Davis.

You are there, deep inside of this body.

Maybe you are a prisoner in the darkness, crying, and searching for a way out.

Or maybe you don't want to come back. I have no idea.

The pictures are hunting me, and I feel hate....hate for the people who have done such nasty things to my brother.

Hate for myself that I wasn't there to protect him like an older sister should do.

Hate for the world that it allows that such things happen.

If there's a god, how can he allow that an innocent life is destroyed?

I hate you all!

And I hate these soulless eyes.

Dead eyes.

Empty eyes.

I hate you, and I cry for you.

Do you know that I visit you every day?

No, you don't know...

I come here after school and spend the whole afternoon.

I can't do anything, but...I don't want to go home in the empty flat.

Mum and Dad aren't coming every day....I think they are a little bit afraid of you.
They are frightened that you will stay like that for all time.

Your friends visited you, too.

They cried, but you didn't notice it.

You notice nothing. You just sit there, apathetic, while the worlds is crying around you.

People have been killed before your eyes.

And that broke you.

You had to stay over a week in a small, dirty room with the dead bodies of the people who have been captured with you.
You have seen their eyes when they died.
And you nearly died on your own because of the hunger – and because the terrorists beat you. Hurt you.
They hurt you mentally and physically.

I wish we never went on this stupid holiday. then nothing of this all could have happened, and you would be still there, playing soccer, yelling, creaming and laughing.

You wouldn't lie in the hospital like a doll.

I think Mum and Dad feel guilty that they went on this holidays.
They think that it's their fault.

But that's wrong. It's the fault of the terrorists.

I wish them a terrible death. They earn it.


I can't cry. Not now.

There are no tears less.

I cry in the nights when I hear my mother crying in the bathroom.

It makes me mad to see their worried faces.

They worry about you, Davis.

Why can't you come back? We are here, we will help you.

I want to hug you and I want that you hug me back.

I wouldn't mind if you would sob into my t-shirt.

I just want to hear your voice again.

Let me help you, lil' brother.

Let me please help you to find a way out of your pain. There must be a way...and if not?

Things have become so....unimportant.

I don't care about school, about the weather....even about Matt.

I've ignored Matt....he's just not important right now. It was a stupid crush, but well, the Motomiya's are all crazy.
You are important.

Not only for me.

You can't stay like this. You can't! It will destroy me, my parents and your friends.

No, that's not right. I shouldn't be angry with you. It's not your fault. I am sure that you want your life come back to normal.

But it's very difficult to assemble something which is broken. And it will never look like it has been before.

I am not a good sister.

I did many things which I regret now, but you can't change the past.

But the thing I regret the most is that I never said you this single sentence....short, but very important...

I never told you that I love you...

And now it might be too late...

To be continued.......

Okay, that's the first part.. It's kinda depressing, I know*sobs*....just love to write such stories!
Please give me ideas for the next parts....and if you know a better title....THEN TELL ME! This title is so stupid, but I couldn't think of anything better...I am open for any suggestions! (you can mail me as well:

And, I tell it once again, I am German and learn English only in school, so I am sorry for my mistakes!

Thanks for reading, and I would be really happy if you review it!

:) Kaeera