Description: I've been meaning to write this one for a while. The three loves of RJ's life. Originally: "Animal I Have Become"
Dedication:to Teddy, and Libby, and Bri, and Christina….to a lot of people.

Disclaimer I don't own Harry Potter or 3 Days Grace. Tear.

Animal I have become

"I can't escape this hell. So many times I've tried, but I'm still caged inside. Somebody get me through this nightmare. I can't control myself!" Remus sobbed, calling to the Heavens, hoping both that no one and everyone heard him from under the Whomping Willow.

Lily's arms slowly dropped, pulling the book out of her nose. She saw him. And the frozen tree. She called to him. He looked hurt. She dropped her book and ran to him, kneeling next to him.

"So what if you can see the darkest side of me? No one will ever change this animal I have become." Remus told her. He knew she was "James'" but he couldn't help it. He took her hands in his, looking into her young green eyes. "Help me believe it's not the real me. Somebody help me tame this animal." He shook her.
'This animal, this animal…' it echoed. Lily watched him sadly.

"I can't escape myself." Remus heard Sirius plead. He was a Black, he only did what was in his nature. Just like himself.
"I can't escape myself" Remus echoed his closest friend. He put a gentle hand on his shoulder.
"So many times I've lied…" Sirius started.
"So many times I've lied. But there's still rage inside. Somebody get me through this nightmare. I can't control myself." Remus admitted to him. He let go of Sirius and sat on the bed. "So what if you can see the darkest side of me? No one will ever change this animal I have become. Help me believe it's not the real me, somebody help me tame this animal I have become. Help me believe it's not the real me. Somebody help me tame this animal." Remus pleaded. Sirius smiled sadly. He went to Remus' side, wrapping his arms around him.

"Somebody help me through this nightmare. I can't control myself. Somebody wake me from this nightmare. I can't escape this hell." Remus clutched his head. The transformation was always more painful when he was upset. He hadn't had an easy night since…Sirius died.
"So what if I can see the darkest side of you?" Tonks said as she whipped his face.

"No one will ever change this animal I have become." He snapped at her. Tonks glared, there was the Black's aditude.
"I'll help you believe it's not the real you. Somebody's here help you tame this animal you have become. Help you believe it's not the real you." She swore. Her eyes showed her fear, and her determination. He loved that about her. He smiled slightly.
"Somebody to help me tame this animal…This animal I have become…." He asked. Tonks smiled, giving him her answer in a kiss.