TITLE : LOVE IS JUST A FOUR LETTER WORD

AUTHOR : Mizz Dark Angel

RATING : G (FOR NOW)

DISCLAIMER : ALL THE CHARACTERS OWN THEMSELVES

SONGS : WILL CREDIT EACH SONG AT THE END OF EACH CHAPTER NOT SURE YET OF WHICH SONGS I'M GONNA USE

DISTRIBUTION : ASK FIRST

CHARACTERS/PAIRINGS : ASHLEY MASSARO (MAIN CHARACTER), MENTIONS OF MATT HARDY & GREGORY HELMS

AUTHOR'S NOTE : READ AND REVIEW GUYS FEEDBACKS ALWAYS APPRECIATED, TELL ME WHAT I SHOULD CHANGE OR IF YOU WANNA SEE SOMETHING SPECIAL IN THE FIC, ANYTHING TO MAKE IT PERFECT HEHE

Chapter 1 : Lost without you

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out

I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you've gone I admit that I was wrong

I'm sitting in my lounge chair in the backyard of my house in New York, playing guitar and singing, trying to make the time go by quicker than it is but it's not really working well. I'm stuck home cuz of a stupid injury that put me out of action for a few months. It's pretty hard to stay home alone all the time but after a while I guess you get used to it like me, well it's still hard from time to time but yeah you get used to it and somehow become paranoid with everything when you are really feeling alone. Of course my friends are coming to visit me at home but it's not the same. It's pretty hard to not be on the road anymore, hang out with the guys, meet the fans and all.

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'm
lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind

Matt wasn't on the same show as me but we could manage to see each other from time to time but now it's very hard to see each other. He doesn't really have time to stop in New York very often with all the travelling and the shows and all. Since the day I got injured I think we got to hang out together two times and it's been already two months I'm out of action so yeah it's pretty hard to handle not to see my lover as much as I wish I could. But I can't really do a thing or change anything for that. I wish things would change the way I want, I wish he could be here next to me all the time and take care of me and well just be with me and do boyfriend-girlfriend stuff. But no it's not possible at the moment and it's driving me nuts.

Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no I'm not too proud to say

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'm
lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

Life is so unfair sometimes, you are happy everything seems perfect and then something just happen or come in the way and you lose what's the most important to you. I loved Matt and still do but it's really hard and hurting to not be with him. I hope I can trust him like he said, I hope he won't fall for anyone else with me not being on the same show and being off of the road, I really hope everything will still be the same. But I don't know I just get a bad feeling about all of this. He used to call me every morning and every night and after his matches but not anymore. He just calls once a day if even that. Something changed but I don't know what I wish he would tell me and talk to me about what's happening or rather what's not happening between us…I really wish I knew what's going on…

If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face
Oh

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'm
lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

© song credit : Lost Without You by Delta Goodrem