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CHAPTER THIRTEEN

Sunday afternoon Meredith was getting into the elevator to go up to the third floor. Derek slid in right as the doors were closing. He had tried staying away from her but couldn't help himself. He grinned and raised his hands defensively as she gave him a frustrated look.

"I tried. I did. I can't help it." He moved over a little closer. "Hi."

"I told you no McDreamy eyes until Tuesday." Meredith bravely tried to hide the smile forming at the corner of her lips and moved to the front of the elevator.

"I miss you. Tuesday is too far away."

"It's two days Derek. I think we'll make it."

"Okay." Derek moved to stand behind her until he was so close she could feel the hairs on the back of her neck tingling. He loved the smell of her hair.

"I'll see you Tuesday," she said as she walked out of the elevator without even a glance behind her.

Derek got the point. The ball was in his court and he was going to make sure he never lost her again.

Tuesday morning was finally here. It was a typical rainy Seattle day. Derek was looking out over his land with a smile on his face. Nothing could dampen his plans for this day. He went inside to get things ready for Meredith.

Meredith Grey was lying in bed staring at the ceiling. She felt horrible for being this happy when her friends were going through so much. And she was scared. Scared to give Derek her heart when he had already broken it. She sighed and rolled out of bed to get ready. Derek had told her to dress casually, but beyond that he wouldn't tell her anything. Typical Derek.

Mer answered the door to a drenched Derek with a bunch of soaking wet lavender blossoms in his hand.

"Hi."

"Hi." Derek leaned over and kissed her cheek. "You ready?"

"Yep. Are you going to tell me where we're going now?"

"Not on your life," Derek answered.

As they boarded the ferry Meredith's smile warmed Derek's heart. Derek had rented a cabin on Vashon Island for the two of them just for the day. As they stepped off the ferryboat the rain slowed to a very light drizzle. Derek had their entire day planned, from whale watching to a guided walk through the island to a romantic sunset dinner at their cabin before they left for Seattle.

Sunset. Dinner. A beautiful red dress that Derek had laid out for her on the bed. And him. Looking at his chiseled profile in the light of the setting sun, Meredith sighed with happiness. Lord how she had missed him. Missed their flirting and the easy chemistry.

"What are you thinking?" he asked.

"That I'm happy."

"And…" he looked at her knowing there was more.

"That this wasn't really a date!" Meredith started laughing, knowing that wasn't what he had wanted to hear.

Derek smiled his smile, their smile, at her.

"No, but I have to say this was better than dinner at Red Lobster, which was the alternative."

Meredith laughed, feeling lighter than she had in weeks. "I don't want to go back. I feel like we're in this bubble, this happy place that's going to shatter as soon as we go back."

Derek took her hands, turning serious, and turned her face towards his own.

"Meredith, look at me. I have been lost without you. Lost, and I didn't even know it. I wasn't alive until I met you. Over my years in New York, I lost my sense of self, I lost who I was. And you woke me up. You made me whole again. And I screwed up. I felt some sense of responsibility and attachment that forced me to make a horrible decision. I was wrong. I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for the months of agony that I put you through. I want to spend the rest of my days making that up to you. I can and will do whatever I can to prove that to you. But you have to let me. Please. Can you do that? I know it won't be easy and I know I don't deserve it. But can you try? For me?"

How was she supposed to resist that? That smile and those eyes? Simple, she couldn't.

"Yes." she whispered. Derek picked her up and carried her into the cabin.