AN/ I know I should be writing at "Can you feel the love tonight" but I'm kind of stuck right now. But I'll think of something soon I promise!
So this is the last chapter to this story. Thank you everyone for the wonderful reviews!
Booth arrived at the Jeffersonian half an hour later. He walked up to the platform there Hodgins and Zach worked in quiet, which they didn't do that often.
"Hey guys," Booth tried to sound normal, but failed.
The two squints looked up at him.
Zack made a wave of his hand in the opposite direction. Booth interpreted it as she was in her office and turned to leave.
Hodgins voice stopped him. "It's like she died with Angela… do you think she'll ever get over this?"
Booth wanted to say yes, but he wasn't sure. He shrugged, not bothering to answer. He knew he should be a little polite. At least he could talk to the guy, but right now he didn't care what they'd think about him.
Booth found Brennan by her desk, staring blankly at the computer screen. He closed the door and took an empty chair and sat down in front of the desk.
Brennan looked up, into his eyes. "I want to be alone."
"Alright, I just wanted to tell you this," Booth started. "I'm sorry for you Temperance, I understand that you're in pain right now, but please don't push me away. I'm your friend and I want to help you… okay? Hey Bones, I'm uh… I'm here for you, we're partners!"
Brennan smiled a little. But her face went serious again. She looked at Booth and shook her head.
"I appreciate that, but I don't need your help. It's over…"
Booth looked at her, puzzled. "What's over?" he asked, not sure he wanted to hear the answer.
Brennan sighed. "This! Us! We can't be partners anymore."
Booth raised an eyebrow. "Why?"
"Because I don't want to, okay! I want to stay in the lab; I don't want to work with you anymore Booth."
"You're not thinking clearly right now… you…" Booth was cut off.
"Yes! I am, try to look at this rationally, we can't work together anymore, I don't want to see you again Booth, do you understand? Get out of here, now!"
Booth was shocked at her outburst, but didn't want to give up just jet. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't find anything rational about it. He tried to talk, but was once again cut off.
"Get out! Leave me alone and never come back, okay Booth?" Brennan yelled.
Booth got up on his feet. There was nothing more to say. He gave her one last look before he turned to leave. He closed the door behind him, leaning back against it trying to understand what just happened. Booth felt like he could cry, but he forced himself too handle this as a man. He had never felt this empty inside; his heart had never been broken into a million pieces. He had never loved any other woman the way he loved Bones, and she never wanted to see him again?
As he stood there, he noticed Hodgins and Zach stare at him, shocked. Booth was sure they'd heard everything.
Without ever looking back, Booth started to walk, leaving the Jeffersonian and Brennan behind. He hoped it wouldn't be for good, but right now, he wasn't sure of anything. If Bones didn't want to see him again, he'd respect her wishes. If she changed her mind, she'd contact him. If she didn't, he'd live the rest of his life unhappy. With a shattered soul and a broken heart…
A single tear rolled down her cheek as she watched him leave. She stood there watching until he disappeared out of sight. Then she silently walked back into her office and closed the door behind her.
Brennan had wanted to spare herself another heartache. But when Booth walked out through that door, the little piece of her heart that was still alive went with him, leaving Brennan all cold and empty inside.
She didn't regret pushing Booth away; she knew it was for the best. She could never allow herself to let anyone close, especially not Booth. And he had come way to close already.
Angela had been her best friend, she had trusted her completely. She'd thought she would never leave, but she did and in that moment Brennan promised herself she would never ever let herself feel anything for any living person again. She knew she could never survive another loss in her life.
It didn't matter that Booth was the one she thought of, the one she dreamed about at nights. She didn't care about the fact that she longed for him when he wasn't there, because she couldn't love anyone again.
Her heart desperately wanted him to come back and tell her everything would be alright. She didn't want anything more badly than to be in his comforting arms once again. But her head kept telling her that her broken heart shouldn't be trusted. Without Booth in her life was the safest thing for her. Without anyone that she loved, and without anyone that cared about her, she wasn't only completely alone, she was also sure no one could ever hurt her again. And that was all that mattered in the end.
Brennan looked at the empty chair there Booth had sat. "I'm so sorry Seeley," she whispered, blinking away tears. She'd never meant to hurt him. But she did what she had to do in order to stay alive. She was sure he would get over it, he'd get a new partner, maybe find someone to marry and have another child. Why would he miss her?
She'd just stay in the lab with her bones. Angela was gone and without her best friend, she didn't have a reason to go out. She would never have fun again anyway… Booth was gone to, in another way, and without him, she wouldn't have a reason to leave the lab at all…
Brennan left her office and stopped outside her door. She scanned the surroundings. This was her future. This was where she belonged, with the dead… because without her best friend and Booth there to remind her about the beautiful things in life, she felt more dead than alive…
If I had to live without you Without you there'd be no sun in my sky How do I live without you? OoOoOoOoO THE END AN/ Sad? Yeah I know. I just felt like doing a 'not so happy' ending for once.
What kinda life would that be?
Oh and I, I need you in my arms need you to hold
You're my world, my heart, my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything good in my life
There would be no love in my life
There'd be no world left for me
And I, baby I don't know what I would do
I'd be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby, you would take away everything real in my life
And tell me now
I want to know
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, How do I, Oh How do I live...
I hope you liked it anyway!
The song is called "How do I live" by LeAnn Rimes.
Listening to it kind of inspired me to write this story
Without you there'd be no sun in my sky
How do I live without you?
AN/ Sad? Yeah I know. I just felt like doing a 'not so happy' ending for once.