Change One Thing: More Than Infatuation

More Than Infatuation


Based upon Star Trek: The Next Generation

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Now (Hours After Deanna's Death)

"You were?" Beverly breathed. "Will . . . I – uh . . . I'm sorry, I didn't know."

"I didn't know," he whispered. "I didn't know that she was . . ." he couldn't even finish the sentence. Pregnant, she had been pregnant with their baby.

Will could tell Beverly was shocked, but that didn't really matter right now. Nothing seemed to matter to him right at that moment. His baby was gone. The baby he didn't even know existed.

His baby. Deanna's baby. Their baby.

Will felt tears form in his eyes.

"Had I known," Beverly said.

"There was nothing you could have done, you said so yourself," he said quietly. It seemed that his entire life would be quiet from now on.

"Will, I . . . don't know what to say, but that I understand."

He shook his head. "I don't think you do."

"No, really. You loved her. This was more than . . . an infatuation. I understand what it is like to lose someone you loved."

He wanted to tell her that she knew nothing about it. She had never lost an Imzadi. She had never lost a child she didn't even know about.

But he didn't. She was grieving as well, and he just didn't have it in him to yell. Besides, it wasn't any fault of hers. . .

"Don't pretend like this is your fault, Will. It's not, you know. No one is blaming you for this."

"Maybe they should be. . . . What if I could have stopped this?"

"Then this wouldn't be happening and things would be different. No one can change the past."

"Just one thing, Deanna. That's all it would take."

"Just one thing," he whispered so quietly he didn't even know if he had said anything at all.

"What?" Beverly asked, hearing him.

Will got up and met her gaze. "That's all it would take. Just one thing." He walked out of her office. He glanced to the bio-bed on his way out, the one with the blanket up over the occupant's face.

Beverly's words stuck in his mind. "More than an infatuation," she had said. It was true. They were more than an infatuation, they were his entire life.

Deanna and their baby.

He continued walking, not knowing where he was going. But he walked out of Sickbay, leaving his entire life behind.

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