Beautiful Dreamer

Part Seven

by planet p

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Disclaimer

I don't own 'the Pretender'.

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There was a boardroom meeting. He couldn't remember what it had been about. He didn't care, besides.

He figured it had had to have something to do with that Jarod, the labrat.

His care had worn out.

Parker stopped him at the door, accusation in her eyes.

He swept out without a single word. He didn't stop to note Parker's shock and anger.

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The television bored him. It was all so stupid, so very pointless. He smashed it. It didn't matter. He could get a new one.

The fridge turned his stomach. He decided on vodka instead.

He sat in the window and stared out at the world beyond, and felt so distant from it, so disconnected, that he thought that it may never matter again.

He took a swig to make him feel better. And another because he was cold.

The other third of the bottle was supposed to make him forget. It didn't.

He decided to be damned and drink the whole bleeding thing and be done with it.

He didn't get three-quarters of the way before the bottle slipped from his hands and smashed on the lino.

He stared at the shattered glass and laughed.

Then he thought of Annie and he cried.

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He thought of all the times she had screamed at him.

"Tamba! Get away from the road!"

"Bloody stay with me!"

"There! Go in front of me so I can see you!"

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And all the times she had screamed for him.

"Tam!"

"NOOOOOO!"

"Tammy?"

"No! NO!"

"NO! NOOOOO!"

"NOOOO! Please! Daddy! Don't make him go! DADDY!"

"TAMMY! TAMMY!"

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Somehow it all started to blur in his mind.

"I promise I'll come an' get you. An' I won't never let no one hurt you again."

"No! Don't hurt her! She never done no thing to you! I'm gonna kill you if you hurt her! Please! No! You're hurting her. Stop. Please stop…"

"That was my heart, the one so spellbound the first time we met. That was my heart, you broke in two. That was my heart, the one so easy for you to get. It was so new, this thrill I felt for you. That was my heart…"

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And he cried for a love lost and a love never realised.

The End.