Chapter 27 Talking And Leaving
The three were in the hospital for a week so far and Sam showed no signs of recovery. Dean sat at his bedside day and night unless he had to shower or go get something to eat. Poor guys been living on coffee. John and Alexis knew that they needed to talk about what had happened to her in the time the demon was possessing John and they took the time to do that while Dean was asleep at Sam's bedside.
"Hey Alex." She turned to her father and smiled when she saw the smile on his face. "I think that we need to talk about what happened." She nodded and moved to sit next to him. "I know that I cause you a whole lot of pain and I wanted to say that I'm sorry."
"You have nothing to be sorry for. You were possessed the whole time. You weren't the one hitting and yelling at me. That was all the demon and not you." John put his head down and took a deep breath. "What is it dad?"
"It kills me knowing how much pain you went through and makes me sick to know that pain was caused my these hands." He looked down at his hands and continued. "All I wanted to do was keep you safe and keep you away from pain and I caused it all. I wasn't strong enough to fight the demon when he took control and powerless to stop him when I knew what he was going to do. Seeing you black and blue, crying and begging me to stop. Seeing the blood that I caused you to lose. I'm just so sorry Alex." She got up and wrapped her arms around him. He returned the hug and cried on her shoulder. "I just wasn't strong enough and almost got you killed."
"But I'm alive aren't I? True that all that wasn't the highlight of my life, but nothing is going to make out past go away. We have to move on and work through what happened and when Sammy get's better, we can be a family again. Minus all the hitting." She smiled at him and he smiled back. "I love you more than anything dad and this whole time I thought you hated me. Turns out that it wasn't even you and that you did still love me."
"You really think we can work through this? That you can forgive me for all the horrible thing I said and done?"
"You're already forgiven dad." They hugged again and smiled more. "What do you say we focus on helping Sam get better and then we can all talk about this when he's up and awake?" John nodded and moved to Dean's side. He woke up and looked at his sister and father. "Morning."
"Any change?" He asked as he glanced down at Sam's sleeping form.
"Nothing yet, but we have hope." John anwered. Dean nodded and stretched.
"I'm going to get some coffee. You guys want any?" Alex nodded and John just shook his head. "Alright. Be back in a little bit." The two nodded and Dean left. John and Alex sat in silence as they watched Sam sleep. They hadn't heard anything on his condition since the last time they spoke to the doctor. All three were wondering what was taking them so long to update them on him and John even concidered tracking the doctor down.
"I'm gonna go see if I can find a doctor to tell us if there is any change." Alex nodded and John left. Alexis was left alone with her older brother, but could think of nothing to say to him. Not like he would hear her anyways. Five minutes later, Dean came back, coffee in hand.
"Went to go find a doctor." Dean handed her the coffee and sat down. "You really think he's going to be alright?"
"Sure I do. He's strong and there's no way he's going out without a fight." Alex nodded in agreement and continued to look at Sam. "How are you doing?"
"Well, you seem alright with dad being around. Just asking how you're handling it."
"Dad and I spoke before. He blames himself for not being strong enough to fight the demon, but I told him that it wasn't his fault." Dean looked up at her and shook his head. "What?"
"He has the right to blame himself. He was strong enough to fight that damn thing and he should have been able to do it and keep you safe." Alex just looked at him wide eyed. "Don't look at me like that. You're his daughter for crist sake. He should have faught that demon to the death in order to protect you."
"It wasn't his fault Dean! He did everything he could to stop it and take control, but nothing worked. The damn thing was to strong for him."
"To strong my ass!"
"What the hell is wrong with you!? I don't get why you're acting this way. You should be happy that it wasn't really dad."
"How can I be happy knowing what he did to you and knowing that he couldn't fight that demon to save his own child!"
"You're being an ass, you know that!? I thought out of everyone you'd be happy that we can be a family again, but now it seems like you're trying to tear the whole thing apart!" She stood up and stood right next to him. He also stood and the two were standing face to face.
"You think that I don't want us to be a family! It's the one thing I want more than anything. I just don't want him to tear it all apart again!"
"IT WASN'T HIS FAULT DEAN!"
"It doesn't matter whos fault it was. What matters is what he couldn't do even though he was killing you!!" Alex just stared at him and grabbed her bag. "What the hell are you doing!?"
"Leaving. You wanna be a dick and blame dad for something he had no control over. then fine. You do it, but you're going to be doing it on your own. I'm out of here!" She walked towards the door, but he grabbed her arm. "Let go Dean."
"No. I'm not letting you walk out of here." She turned around to face him. "You're staying."
"How the hell can you just walk out with him laying there like that?" He pointed over to Sam. She glanced over at him and shook her head.
"I'm not going to stand here and let you badmouth dad and blame him for something he didn't do. I've forgiven him. Why the hell can't you?"
"Cause he can turn around and hit you again!"
"What? Like you did?" Dean took a step back and let go of her arm. "Good-bye Dean." And she was gone. Dean was just standing there speechless till John came back.
"You alright?" Dean shook his head and looked at his father. "Where's Alex?"
"She left. We, uh got into a little argurment and she left."
"And you let her?"
"Didn't have a choice in the matter. I told her that I still didn't..." He was cut off by choking sounds coming from Sam. Both turned to him and saw that he was awake and struggling with the tube in his mouth. "Get a doctor!" John ran out of the room as Dean moved to his brother's side. "It's alright Sam. You need to calm down before something happens to you." Sam's eyes were on his brother. "Please just calm down and breath." Sam nodded and tried to slow his breathing. "Good. Dad went to go get your doctor. He should be here soon." Sam looked around the room and noticed that Alex was no where to be seen. "She left Sam." He turned back to Dean. "I'm sorry Sam. I know she should have stayed till we knew you were alright, but she just took off." Both turned to the door as John led the doctor in.
"How are you feeling Sam?" He nodded as the doctor checked him out. "Well, looks like you're going to be fine. No signs of anything life threatening. What do you say we remove that tube?" He nodded again and they removed it. After some coughing, Sam settled back down and looked back to Dean. "I'm gonna go see when he can be released. Call me if anything happens."
"We will." John shook his hand as the doctor left. "You feeling alright?"
"Why'd she leave?" He whispered to Dean. Dean just shrugged and sat down. "You don't know and yet you let her go? She just couldn't even wait to see if I was alright? She just walked out and gave no reason!"
"Calm down Sam. I'm sure she had her reasons and we'll find out what they are. Right now worry about getting better." Sam nodded and soon fell asleep. He was allowed to leave three days later and after spending a few days in a hotel room, talking through everything, the three decided to track Alexis down. That wasn't going to be as easy as they though. Girl can hide her tracks good. After two months of searching with nothing to show for it, they decided to rent out a small apartment and swore that they would pick up the search again. As soon as they had a lead that is. None of them ever forgot about her, John more than anything. He was thankful that they spoke before she left, but swore they would find her again. Dean was still angry at her for walking out, but knew she could handle herself. He wanted nothing more than to talk to her and work everything out, but they had to find her first. Sam was more pissed than any of them. His little sister couldn't even wait to make sure he would live before she left. Did she even think about him? He didn't know so he didn't even bother to answer his own question. He, just like Dean and John, would have to wait to clear everything up. Until then, they'd all have to move on with their live, with Alexis constinatly on all their minds.
A/N So that's it. Now you have to wait for the sequel to find out what happens. Hope you all enjoyed this story. I did enjoy writing it from time to time and now I'm a little sad it's done. I don't know when I'll start the sequel, but there will be one. Please review and thanks to all that have!! You all made me so happy!! THANKS AGAIN!!!