This is all my boyfriends fault. He loves to play ToS and I love to sit next to him and comment on how cute the guys look.

I love Lloyd. Can you find out who I coupled him with?

Yaoi warning!

I own nothing!

I couldn't help it. He was so strong, so straightforward. No games. No strings to spin around his words. Just the clear truth.

But now…

I'm starting to lose faith in my own self. In my own feelings. How can I think this way about him?
at night, when all the lights die out, I see him. Leaning over me, telling me it was all a big joke and that it's okay to feel this way. Oh and how those nights are filled with him. Drawing tears from my eyes as I wake up the next morning.

I want you to tell me…

Tell me it was all a joke…

I love you so…

I need you so…

Oh come and let me in!

We walk together, fight together. Only now I realise how much we look alike. And it hurts so much more…

I feel like I'm lying to myself. And in reality I am. I am lying to the face in the mirror. That needing you the way I do…is not as wrong as it seems.

Oh if only I never found out. If only I never saw…

I want to be told…

That it was all a cruel joke.

I've never loved anyone this way…

I just don't know what to say…

Please tell me it's a lie!

You tried to talk to me last night. Like I knew you would. Trying to let me open up to you. And that just made it that more difficult.

Oh god can't you see. I love you to much now. More then someone like me should. That a title like this hurts so much…it is scary to know.

How could I not have seen? The bond we share, so simple to my eyes. And instead of smiling, rejoicing or planning tomorrow with a grin. I sulk at losing you when I gaining this man. Not the one from before.

I want to be with you. Just not in this way.

Please god one more time…

Tell me this was all a lie…

I want to love him without guilt.

Tell me that what I'm doing isn't a sin.

I just want to try…and get in.

I leaned in. You didn't understand.

Why were the tears streaming down? How could I be so sad? And I leaned my head on your shoulder. "Please…" I begged. And you tensed in unfamiliarity. What were you to do but embrace me. Not expecting the waves of sobs that drew from me. Patting my back.

And I would have kissed you then. Held you close all night. Not caring what you would say. Holding on with all my might. Not to lose my sanity. Oh how this sin is overrated. I just want you near. Fingers entwining…yet I fear.

What will happen tomorrow? When I find you laying next to me. Soaked in sin and tears. Because this is wrong. I know as much.

Why couldn't you keep it a secret! I would have been content not knowing. I would have been happy without this burden. I just want to love you like they can. Without this title you set on me. I don't think you see. This pain I'm in. the only thing I want to be…

Is your lover…

Instead of your son.

Fin!

One-shots are so much more fun to do!

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