Disclaimer: I don't own Ouran, end of story.
With You: Hikaru's Promise
I can see what you're doing Kaoru. I know what you're trying and I don't like it. I hate the fact that you have made the decision on your own and you think your desperate solution is the only answer.
I can see what you are doing to yourself. I watch as it tears you apart and drags you down. As much as it hurts you to push me away, you do it anyways because you believe it is best for me. This is not what I want. I don't want you to cry when you don't think anyone is watching.
So why haven't I tried stopping you?
Probably because, as much as I dislike what you're trying to do, I believe it is the only way. I really don't think I have it in me to take a step out of our sanctuary without you practically throwing me out. I would rather stay where I feel comfortable, but as life goes on I realize that it isn't possible to ignore reality anymore. When I really think about it there isn't really a reason to. We have friends now who care about us. Even though most still can not tell us apart, they actually recognize us as individuals. All the same, no matter how I try, I can not step out there myself.
You know this as well. That's why as soon as the person we had searched for so long appeared; you shoved me towards her with all your might. Then you left yourself to deal with the pain of being alone.
I'll let you continue what you are doing for now. But I swear once I have learned how to stand on my own out there, the first thing I'm going to do is turn around and drag you out after me. I'll be damned before I leave you somewhere on your own, even if it is somewhere as familiar as our childhood haven.
Out there we are going to laugh and cry. We are going to learn and grow and make mistakes and whatever happens we are going to experience it together. That's the way it has always been and, God help me Kaoru, I wouldn't have it any other way.
So hang in there a little longer. I know you can do it because, despite being younger, you have always been stronger than me. I'm releasing your hand for a second now, only to grasp it firmer in a moment. I promise when I get you back nothing will ever make me let go.
Whatever you do, don't ever forget that I love you. I love you more than I should be allowed to, but I still do. No world, no reality, no place, no person is ever going to change that.
We are forever, Kaoru, I promise.
Meh... First time writing a story like this. I don't even know what it would be called. Hmm... I guess it's a monologue. Whatever, the real question is did you like it? Comment please!