October 24, 2006
"I don't think this is working anymore."
It took one year and six months for me to say something I should have said a long time ago. It's amazing the amount of unnecessary pain the human spirit will put itself through – and for what? Because you still believe that you'll make it past the misery and in a few years everything will be perfect. But are the years of sorrow, pain, constant questioning and regret worth enduring just to chase something that may never materialize?
"I love you so much Harry."
You still believe in the truth of those words. The past is erased, if only for a moment, and then you feel yourself drowning again…