Is there such a genre called "sop"? Because I seem to be writing a lot of them. Though…I've only written one story so far, and this is my second fic…
Standard Disclaimer: I do not own Fushigi Yuugi.
Anime: Fushigi Yuugi
Pairings: Tamahome x Miaka
Warnings: Angst, stupid writing
Summary: Hotohori reflects on Tamahome and Miaka's relationship, and on what he wanted.
Spoilers for Episode 22
I did it, Miaka, I finally let you go. I wanted to keep you all to myself, really, but it wouldn't be what you wanted, would it? You would never see me more than a loyal guardian, a companion, a comrade.
I love you, Miaka. I wanted you to love me too. I had always wanted someone to love me as not that of an Emperor, but just a person. That someone was you. I wanted you to see how much I treasured you, and tried to always keep you by my side, even though I knew the crushing truth that you loved him.
I wanted you to care for me the same way I did for you, even though, deep down, I knew it would never happen. It'll never be that way. I wanted you to see me as more than a comrade, a companion, or an Emperor.
I wanted to be loved by you, Miaka. I wanted to be a normal person, and not the important Emperor of Konan. I wanted to be with you. I wanted you, for once, Miaka, to call my name instead of Tamahome's.
I wanted you to be with me. I wanted you to love me. I wanted you to be happy.
But, I've finally come to the observation I've done many times. I also wanted you to be free.
I've done it, Miaka. I've finally let you go. Because it was also what I wanted.
Phew! I've finished! My second fic! I think it's as crappy as usual, of course. I really thought Hotohori deserved Miaka more than Tamahome. (Ducks rotten eggs from TamahomeMiaka fans.) I'm just speaking my opinion, though. I'm still kind of halfway through the series on Animax. Yeah, so please review. Flames and criticism are welcome. Thanks!