AN: Nope, no ownership yet… deal with it
She wasn't sure what was wrong with her. Was her grip slipping? Were her powers growing stronger? They should have been growing weaker, if anything. She believed that with the destruction of her father she would be freer to feel as much as she wanted. But, lately, even the smallest hint of emotion caused damage. Even when her father was around, she was able to at least let out a small smile once in a while, a chuckle, or an annoyed groan. But even those small things had horrible consequences now.
She walked into the common room and saw her friends going about their usual business. Robin was planted in front of his stereo, concentrating on the music it was emitting. Beast Boy was losing to Cyborg, once again, at videogames. And Starfire was humming to herself as she washed Silkie in the sink. She walked over to one of the large windows and prepared herself to meditate for a little while.
She crossed her legs and floated above the ground. She closed her eyes and began to recite her mantra. "Azarath… metrion… zinthos…" she said quietly to herself. Soon the sound of Robin's stereo and the videogame faded away and she was in her own little world of tranquility.
The tower began to flash and siren screamed. Raven's concentration was immediately broken, as was the window she was sitting in front of. And it wasn't simply cracked, it was completely shattered and she wasn't sure what was holding it up.
"Dude!" said Beast Boy at the sight of the broken window.
"Whoa," said Cyborg.
"Uh, Raven, you okay?" asked Robin.
"…Yes," she said, putting the hood of her cloak up. "Yes, I'm fine. I'm sorry."
"Please, where is the trouble?" asked Starfire as she walked over to the group with Silkie wrapped in a towel in her arms.
Robin went to the computer and got to work. "Looks like it's Plasmus," he said.
"Awe, dude, I'm so not in the mood to fight Plasmus," said Beast Boy, his shoulders slumping.
"I do not believe any of us are ever in 'the mood' to fight a bad guy," said Starfire.
"True," said Beast Boy.
"Well, let's go," said Robin. "Hopefully this won't take too long."
And with that the group headed out. Raven was thankful that they had forgotten about the window they would have to repair when they came home. That was the biggest thing she'd broken yet. And it was only because she was slightly startled by the sound of the Titans' alarm going off. She really needed to get a handle on this.
Plasmus let out a gurgle of a growl as he attacked a toxic waste disposal facility. He needed to build his strength, and the best way to do that was to juice up. He tore one of the walls of the building down and reached in. He pulled out a barrel with the words TOXIC on the side of it. He quickly ripped the cover off and downed it.
No sooner had he finished the barrel when a bird-a-rang came flying out of nowhere and knocked the barrel out of his hand. He looked surprised for a moment then turned to see the Teen Titans. He growled and with a monstrous cry shot two goopy arms at them. They all quickly dashed out of the way and went on with the attack.
Cyborg shot his sonic canon at the creature while Starfire rained starbolts upon it. But these were mere distractions. Beast Boy turned into T-rex and as soon as Cyborg and Starfire finished up their assault he rammed the sticky monster. He gurgled with surprise and went tumbling backwards. Robin was ready with carefully placed ropes that tripped him further until he finally fell to the ground with a sploosh!
"Raven now!" Robin shouted.
Raven closed her eyes, and when she reopened them they were completely back. "Azarath metrion zinthos!" she cried and a large black portal opened beneath Plasmus. He fell through it and Raven quickly flew in after him.
Plasmus was quite surprised to find himself suddenly in a large container. Raven had made sure to drop him off right in his usual sleeping tube. Once she was on the other side of the portal as well she concentrated and entered its mind. She quickly put it in an unconscious state and the goop faded away to reveal a pitiful looking man, fast asleep.
"Well… that was easy," said Raven, and she made her way back to her friends.
The four Titans looked at the mess that Plasmus had left. They couldn't believe they had taken down Plasmus so easily. They had basically figured out a perfect plan for all of the villains they fought on a daily business. They were glad for that, since it made their job so much easier.
Raven reappeared and said, "He's contained."
"Really?" asked Cyborg. "Man, that was easier than I thought."
"I am most glad that this fight was not troublesome," said Starfire.
"I think we all are," said Robin. "Nice work team."
"Can we go home now?" asked Raven.
"I would rather that we stay here and wait for the clean up crew," said Robin. "This stuff is toxic and I don't want anyone wandering over here and getting contaminated."
Raven sighed, miffed at the fact that she couldn't go home and meditate. Suddenly the empty barrel Plasmus had drank from exploded into the air. They were all quite shocked by this, including Raven. Because she was shocked, all of the windows in the building shattered. Again, she was startled by this and various objects began exploding. She quickly grabbed her head and fell to her knees.
"Get a hold of yourself, Raven," she said to herself, harshly. "Calm down. Don't feel anything, don't feel anything, don't… feel… anything!"
She felt a hand on her shoulder, and this made her jump. The remaining bits from the side of the building Plasmus had busted through blew apart, sending various debris at the Titans. They all ducked for cover, including Beast Boy, who had placed his hand on her.
"What is going on?" asked Starfire.
"Raven's freakin out, that's what's goin on!" said Cyborg above the crashing of the debris.
"Raven, you need to calm down!" Robin ordered.
He had no idea how much she wanted to. She decided to get out of there before she could do more damage. She quickly melted through the ground and then found herself on the common room floor. She breathed a sigh of relief and got to her feet. She looked up and saw the shattered window. What was going on with her?
The four remaining Titans waited for the clean up crew and then headed home as fast as they could. The broken window could be seen from a distance and they knew they had to take care of it as soon as possible.
"Should one of us go to her room to see if she is well?" asked Starfire.
"I think she's as freaked out as we are," said Cyborg. "We should just leave her alone for a while."
"Cyborg's right," said Robin. "She'll come talk to us when she feels like it. The worst thing we can do is intrude on her privacy while her powers are… unstable."
"I've never seen her wig out like that," said Beast Boy. "And what about the window? What the heck was that about?"
"I don't know," said Robin. "But, speaking of which, Cyborg, call the glass company up again."
"I'm on it," said Cyborg, going to the phone.
Nearly three hours passed before Raven finally came out of her room. She walked into the common room with her head hanging, her heart heavy. She looked up sadly and saw all of her friends were waiting for her.
"Hello," she said.
"Hi," they all responded.
"You feeling okay?" asked Robin.
"Yeah, you sorta scared us with that little episode," said Cyborg. "Anythin you need to talk about?"
"Actually, yes," said Raven, bowing her head again. "I'm… I'm leaving."
"What? Why?" asked Starfire.
"Because I can no longer control my powers," said Raven.
"We can get you help, Raven," said Robin. "You don't need to leave."
"That's why I'm leaving," said Raven. "To get help. There is no one on Earth who can help me. I must travel between dimensions and look for someone who specializes in my type of abilities. Trust me, I don't want to leave."
"Then do not!" said Starfire. "We shall get you the help. Please, Raven, do not go."
"I'm also leaving so I don't endanger your lives," she said plainly. "I can't in good conscience stay here and risk your lives because I don't want to leave the comfort of the tower. But, this isn't forever."
"How long will it be?" asked Beast Boy.
"I'm not sure," said Raven. "But, I will come back, that I'm sure of. I'm not quitting the Titans."
"Do you really think that leaving is necessary?" asked Robin. "I mean, how long have you been having problems with your powers?"
"A few months," said Raven. "I thought I could handle it, that I was just getting sloppy with my meditation. But I was wrong. For some reason, my powers are growing stronger and I am now unable to control them."
"And you haven't a clue as to why?" asked Cyborg.
"Yeah, you usually know everything," said Beast Boy.
"No, I don't know why," said Raven, feeling rather stupid. "But I'm determined to find out. I just need to know that you guys will be okay without me."
"Well, it won't be easy," said Robin. "But the crime rate has decreased lately and we are able to take down criminals easier nowadays. So, I think we'll be okay."
"Good," said Raven. "I'm leaving now." She turned walked out of the common room. Within two seconds she heard her four teammates following after her.
"You are leaving now?" asked Starfire.
"Like now now?" asked Beast Boy.
"Yes," said Raven simply as she walked to her room.
"Are you prepared?" asked Cyborg. "I mean, have you ever been outside of this dimension before?"
"I grew up in another dimension," said Raven. "And I'm plenty prepared. What do you think I was doing for the past three hours?"
She reached her door and slid it open. The four Titans were stunned to see that her room was completely bare.
"Uh, where's all of your stuff?" asked Robin.
"Here," said Raven, holding up a modest looking duffel bag.
"Dude, you've got to be a packing guru or something," Beast Boy chuckled.
"I used my magic, you twit," Raven sighed.
"Oh," said Beast Boy, feeling rather dumb.
"Oh, Raven, I shall miss you so much!" said Starfire, giving Raven a large hug. Raven bit her lip and commanded herself not to let any emotions show. She had caused enough damage for the day. "Please, you promise to return?"
"You're the only friends I have," said Raven, plainly. "Of course I'm coming back."
"Well, um, good luck," said Robin, extending his hand to her. He never was very good at expressing feelings either.
"Likewise," said Raven, shaking his hand.
"We're definitely gonna miss you," said Cyborg, putting his large robotic hand on her shoulder.
"I'll miss all of you too," said Raven.
Beast Boy lunged at her and hugged her. "Bye Raven," he said, squeezing her tightly. "I'll make sure to save a few good jokes just for you."
"No, really, you don't have to," said Raven, prying him off of her. He took a few steps back and Raven got one last good look at her team and friends. "Well… goodbye." And with that she flew up through the ceiling and was gone.