Good Enough

Nathaniel. I'm under your spell again.

I love you. I always have. But why did it hurt so when you died? I didn't love you that much. Why did I care you died? It was your bloody fault we got into that mess. So why do I feel fo guilty? Why do I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders?

Was I good enough for you? Was I good enough for you to love me? If I was, then why'd you sacrifice yourself for everyone else and not just me?

But then again, you gave me the Amulet for protection. And you didn't want me in the fight at all. Did you love me or didn't you? Why do I feel this way? Why can't you just leave me alone, let me be at peace?

I shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly. I can't breathe, but I feel good enough. Am I good enough for you? Do I satisfy your needs? It's been such a long time, but I feel good. I'm still waiting for the rain to fall, to pour sweet salvation on me. I've never felt anything this good enough. Am I good enough for you to love me too? I can change if you want me to.

I've completely lost myself and I don't care. I loved you, and I can't say no to you. You conquered me. I shouldn't have let you. Why did you have to torture me so sweetly? I can't hold on to anything this good enough. It's been such a long time coming but I feel good.

Take care of what you ask of me.

'Cause I can't say no.

A/n

Meant to be one of those short and sweet types. Inspired by Evanescence's Good Enough. Like it?