Well, I was listening to the song "Goodbye My Lover". It put me in an angsty mood, I hadn't written in a while, and well- here it is. 

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
As I look down at you, I'm blinking fast to hold back the tears. After all the times we've come through for each other-

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
This is all my fault. I know you wouldn't want me to blame myself, but come on- I was standing right there!

'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
I've known since the first time I saw the pine-crested hill now so familiar- ours is rarely a happy fate. But why was it your fate, not mine?

Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
Over the years I tried so hard- and finally I was in control. Is that what held me back? Seeing you lose control, for once?

So I took what's mine by eternal right.

You were mine after all. Always, from the day I first glimpsed your hair- or was it your eyes, like mist?

Took your soul out into the night.
How many nights have we passed together? Never voicing our feelings, but the tension was there all the same. Your very presence is- was- electrifying.

It may be over but it won't stop there,
It doesn't matter you're gone now. I'm not moving on. Not ever. You're the only one for me.

I am here for you if you'd only care.
Wake up! Please! I can't do this! I can't lose you. Please! Say something!

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
My life was changed. If I had never met you- the very thought sends shudders down your spine.

You changed my life and all my goals.
Focused, organized, motivated, mature, you were everything I'm not. It sounds cheesy, but you really were my better have.

And love is blind and that I knew when,
I didn't notice that you were infinitely smarter than me, bossy and overbearing- all right, so maybe I did notice. But it didn't matter. It also didn't matter I was a child of the Big Three, technically your superior, but never really.

My heart was blinded by you.
I saw you- beautiful, tanned, the long curling hair- and it was over for me.

I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Once- just once- we kissed, and then we both dismissed it, silly teenage hormones. I never had a happier moment. I can't count the times I've held you- so many over the years-

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
Too many quests to count- sharing goals and aspirations and of course the same thirst for adventure.

I know you well, I know your smell.
Like the olive smell of old books. When I bury my head in your hair, the scent is still there, though fading fast. I can't think of anyone I know better.

I've been addicted to you.
Ever since the summer after sixth grade- I've longed for you, admiring your pictures and wishing you were with me.

Goodbye my lover.
That's what you were, though I never really told you. Seems like forever, yet it ended too quickly.

Goodbye my friend.
You were my best friend. There for me always and helping me even when I didn't know how much I needed it.

You have been the one.
There will never be another girl for me.

You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
So many dreams. I see you every time I close my eyes.

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
I've had to go on- a child of the Big Three can't break down in the midst of a war against the most powerful titan. But I can't sleep without you haunting me.

And as you move on, remember me,
I know where you are- you died a heroine's death. Elysium. Perhaps someday I'll join you.

Remember us and all we used to be
Don't ever forget. Don't forget the way we fought and made up, the way we worked together.

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've seen you at your best and worst- and you've seen me at mine.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.
How many times have I watched your beautiful grey eyes close, your chest rise and fall softly?

I'd be the father of your child.

I'd spend a lifetime with you.
You don't know how many times I dreamed of you and me, married with little gray eyed children running about.

I know your fears and you know mine.
Spiders. Not a one had better come near your grave- I'll smash it. How is it down there? I never could stand closed spaces.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
We were fine. We were friends. Forever. I never knew how short forever was.

And I love you, I swear that's true.
I never told you. But I love you. More than anything- more than skateboarding, more than the beach at Montauk, more even than Grover or even my Mom.

I cannot live without you.
How Am I supposed to go on? If you were here, you'd have a plan. But you're not. And I don't.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
I've memorized the way it felt- every time you were scared, the soft pressure of our hands together.

In mine when I'm asleep.
Now it comes to me in dreams, while your hand is wasting away below the ground.

And I will bear my soul in time;
I'll get through it somehow.

When I'm kneeling at your feet.
I kneel before your grave and cry. You've seen me cry before- I'm not ashamed. Only guilty and empty and broken.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.
There will never be another friend- another wise girl- for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

I don't know how to handle this- I've never been good with grief. There is a great void inside of me, greater than all the oceans that are my inheritance. I love you, Annabeth Chase.


Oh yeah, in case you didn't get that, Percy POV. :) Review! I could write a spinoff if you want. I'm workin on the long title one. This took me like 15 minutes though, so thought I'd just get it over with while I was in the mood.