Chapter Four.

Authors Note: I couldn't say it before, it would have ruined the story, but here it is – Warning: Character's Death.

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Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months, and I didn't hear anything from Brennan. I didn't even know if she was still alive. I respected her wish though, I never visited her, even though I wanted to take the next plane to Germany about a million of times. I desperately wanted to see her again, but at the same time I was afraid of what I would see…

Angela hasn't been the same since Bones left, she always seemed sad. I guess she's saying the same about me… no words can describe how much I miss her, my Bones…

Eleven months later all my fears came true. It was Angela who broke the news. She was the closest to a relative Brennan had and also the person who got to know about her best friends medical state before anyone else did.

Brennan hadn't been responding to her treatment and she'd quickly become worse. Bones was dead. I couldn't believe it; I didn't want to believe it. Even though I had doubted she'd come back to DC I never stopped hoping. Now all my dreams and prayers came crashing down on me. I'll never see her again, never hear her laugh, never see her smile at me; everything was over, this time for real. I told her I love her, I just wish I had told her earlier. Then at least we'd got a few years of happiness together. But now it's too late, I'll never get to know how it would feel to have her in my life, to be more than just partners.

She'd not told anyone about her disease until it was too late. I knew Bones preferred to keep things to herself, she had suffered in silence. But I'd known, I don't know why, but I could feel her pain long before she told me.

As I sat in my darkened living room, every thought that crossed my mind was about her. The memories of out last goodbye would haunt me forever, how could I possibly forget?

My eyes drifted to the letter on the table. I picked it up; it must have been the tenth time today that I read it. It's from Brennan, she must have written it when she knew the hope was gone… why didn't she call me? I should have been there with her; Angela should have been there… Bones shouldn't have had died alone, without the people who cared about her there with her. Oh if I only could have been there…

I started to read.

"Booth,

I'm sorry I never contacted you; I guess I didn't want you to see me like this. I want you to remember the way I was, all the good times we've had together. I want you to be happy… I know you said you love me, Booth knowing that is what kept me from breaking, thank you. I never said it back, but I know you knew, I love you too, now it's too late, I wish we could have had a chance to be together as a coupe…, can you believe I'm telling you this?

When you're reading this, I'm dead, you have to promise me to take care of Angela, she promised she'd look after you…

I hope you can forgive me for not telling you any of this earlier, I wanted to tell you about my disease a thousand of times, but I couldn't. I didn't want you to think that I was all fragile all of the sudden; I never wanted you to try to keep me from doing my job. But Booth… sorry, Seeley, I never meant to hurt you, to shut you out of my life.

Despite the circumstances, I want you to know that I don't regret going away, I thought it would make a difference, but the treatment failed. When we parted at the airport, I already had a feeling that it was the last time I saw you and Angela. I can't explain it, but I knew that when the plane took off, I'd never live to see Washington again, that's why I didn't want you to hope too much, you'd only be disappointed…

Leaving you there must have been one of the hardest things I've done in my life, it broke my heart to see you so sad, and Angela, I'll never forget how miserable she looked. Well, obviously I can't remember anything now, dead people can't, sorry… you believe, I don't…

Oh Seeley, I miss you so much right now, I'm thinking of you all the time…

You know I don't believe in heaven, but when I'm writing this I can't help but hope that your belief it right, that one day I'll see you again… in heaven…

I'll be waiting…

Love, Temperance"

I don't remember crying since I was a teen, but when I put Bones' letter back on the table; tears were silently running down my cheeks.

This was her final goodbye. I don't even want to imagine what she'd thought, what she'd felt when she'd written this, all alone, no one there who cared about her, no I can't stand the thought of that…

It's not much of a comfort, but at least I know she doesn't have to suffer anymore. Brennan's had so much pain in her life, the loss of her parents, her brother, no luck with her love life, she was not good with people at all, but that was what made her so cute, so special. She didn't deserve this, she should have had a chance to be happy for once, I know I would have done anything that I could to give her everything that she wanted, to make her as happy as she made me. Now things would never be the same again…

They say life goes on, but I don't know if I can, I don't even know if I want to go on without her…

I don't care about the fact that she wasn't a believer, I believe in god, and I believe in heaven, and I also believe that one day we'll be together again. I just have to wait… you know, some things in life are worth waiting for – even if it means waiting forever…

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THE END

Authors Note: I said it would be sad, hope I didn't disappoint you too much by killing Brennan, I had to for the purpose of the story… hope you liked it anyways!

Oh and thank you, everyone, for the reviews!

/Miss P