If I had known...

If I had known that she was going to look at me and make my heart stop beating like that when I teased her with the prospect of a Whipple, would I have done it?

If I had known that when I bought her coffee that she could kiss like that, would I have asked for that extra cup of coffee?

If I had known that when we kissed that night that she'd end up pregnant with my child, would I have kissed her?

If I had known that she was pregnant when I broke up with her, would I have ended it?

If I had known that she was going to collapse in my surgery that day, would I have scrubbed in?

If I had known that when she was crying and I joined her in bed that she was going to move in with me, would I have comforted her?

If I had known that she was going to keep her apartment from me after she moved in with me, would I have put myself on the line like that for her?

If I had known that she was going to give up her apartment, would I have said that I loved her?

If I had known that there was a bomb in the hospital that day, would I have gone to work, or would the two of us stayed home, so we could both stay safe?

If I had known that she was going to say those words, would I have really pretended like I was asleep?

If I had known that I was going to get shot and rock our relationship forever, would I have been so angry with her for falling asleep while we were making love?

If I had known that she was scared after I was shot, would I have told her I wouldn't bear a grudge if she walked away?

If I had known that she was going to push me to recover, would I have been so passive aggressive?

If I had known that she would be by my side through the deceit and the grand return of Preston Burke, would I have willingly put her at risk?

If I had known that our deceit would lead to her betrayal behind my back, would I have gone to the chief sooner?

If I had known that I was going to close the door in her face, and shut her out of my heart, would I have given her that key?

If I had known that we would have the rough times, and the tough times, and the times where we couldn't be together, would I have bought her the coffee?

The answer is simple, really.

There's no way in hell that I wouldn't have.