Disclaimer: Twilight and all of its characters are not mine.
Authors Note: I wrote this before the backstory of Esme's husband came out so yes this is very OOC. Sorry about that. I choose to keep it up because some people did like it and I don't want them to wonder what happened to it. Thank you for reading.
There it was. Right in front of me and I can't take the last three steps to reach it. There was nothing left here for me. I had cried my tears hadn't I. Putting my hand up to my cheek I felt the tears slipping down. They were cold. Just like my heart. Clutching the flowers to my chest I took a deep breath. I could do this. She deserved this.
Walking to the headstone, I leaned down. Putting the flowers on top of the headstone I sat down on the grass. It was wet from the rain yesterday. Every time I thought of her, a shot of pain would go through me. Why did it have to hurt so much? First our child and then my wife. What had I done to deserve this? At least I could hope that she was in a better place.
She had been a state of depression. I should have tried harder, but I had been so caught up in my own pain that I didn't notice hers. What a mistake. The biggest mistake it turned out to be. All that was left was a headstone. There wasn't even a body for me to burry. Looking into the starry sky I looked at the millions of stars. I wonder how many there were. Would anyone ever know? I wonder if she was up there.
"Hi, love. I miss you. Why did you leave me here by myself?" More tears escaped my eyes. "Are you happy? If you are happy then its okay. I know how much you were hurting because I was hurting too. I just wish that I could have realized that you hurt so much more though. Maybe then you would still be here rather then heaven. That's were you are though. No matter what they say. No creature as great as yourself. No angel like you could be anywhere but heaven."
I took a deep breath. "You're with our child. She died so young; too young. I hope that you are together and happy. One day I'll join you. Then we can be the family that we never got to be here on Earth. We can be together." Glancing at the headstone I gently kissed my finger and then pressed them to the stone. I got up and brushed myself off. Taking the flowers off of the top of the stone I placed it at the bottom.
Then I put my hand in my pocket and pulled her ring out.
"I found this. It was at the top of the cliff. Never shall my love grace another' heart, nor my ring on her finger as long as my body breathes. You were the only one whom I can love, and spend my life with. I shall live on because you deserve it. I will live the life that neither you nor our child got to. Until I meet you both in heaven I shall live here on Earth, happy as I can be for you. Hoping that somehow we can meet sooner. The distance is great, but I know that it is not an impossible one."
Putting the ring on the base of the stone next to the flowers, I once again glanced at the stars. So beautiful. Turning around I walked away, not looking back. If I did I knew that I would not be able to go on. Forever in my heart. Not even death can do us part. Until we were reunited then I was going to live on. Not for me, but for her. Because she deserves it.