A/n: I'm back!! isn't this exciting? gosh, its been a while. how is everyone out there in the world of Twilight fandom?

so this is my new story, i hope you all like it. and don't worry, the chapters are going to get progressively longer, and much more interesting. feedback is mucho appreciated! -hint hint-

Oh, and with the second chapter i'm going to post pictures of the characters and stuff in my profile, so keep an eye out for that.

i think thats it. yep. okay. hope you like my new story! Oh!! by the way, I'm completely disregarding New Moon in the story, it never happened.

Disclaimer: i do not own Twilight or any of the bands mentioned in this story.

"Black is the kiss, the touch of the serpent son. It ain't the mark or the scar that makes you one…So give me all your poison (Fire at will)" –Thank you for the Venom, My Chemical Romance.

I woke up in the dead of night, but for some reason it was bright enough in my room for me to make out everything. I expected Edward to be in bed with me, his cold arms wrapped around me, but he wasn't. He wasn't even in my rocking chair. That was odd, very odd. I could have sworn he was there when I fell asleep. Wait, when did I fall asleep? I couldn't remember a thing from the night before.

I looked over at my clock and realized it was one in the morning on a Thursday. But wasn't yesterday Monday? Weird. I tried to go back to sleep, but it turned out to be a futile attempt. I felt more awake right now than I did during the day. After about a half hour, I decided to go downstairs and get something to eat or maybe drink. A drink was more likely, I was really thirsty for some reason. My throat felt dry and scratchy, like I had a cold and I had coughed too much.

I couldn't help but notice that on my way to the kitchen I was much more graceful than usual. I didn't even trip on the way down the stairs, which was a miracle in itself. I always stumbled or tripped. This was really weird.

I grabbed a cup from the nearest cabinet and filled it with some orange juice. As soon as the smell of the liquid hit my nose, I was disgusted. I felt like I was going to throw up. I had no idea why, but the thought of even attempting to consume the juice was appalling. Grimacing, I poured it out into the sink. The smell was still in my nose, though, but I tried to ignore it.

I finally noticed the note from Charlie on the fridge. It told me that he was on a week long fishing trip with some buddies, and he was only leaving the note because I was so unconscious it looked like I was dead. The date at the top was marked three days ago.

Three days, I mused. My mind was starting to put two and two together. Edward wasn't around, I had been unconscious for three days, and normal food was absolutely revolting to me. Not to mention the fact that I was inhumanly graceful and my eyesight was suddenly better than normal.

The next thing I knew, I was bounding up the stairs and running into the bathroom. The instant I looked in the mirror I noticed the blood red eyes and pale skin. I was momentarily frightened that my eyes could be such a color. I quickly recovered, though.

My face was thinner; my cheek bones more prominent, more sculpted. My skin was flawless and stone-like, just like Edward's. What the hell was going on here? I looked down and noticed I finally had some curves and I had to admit, I was kinda pretty.I looked back into the mirror and started poking at my cheek to make sure I was actually looking at myself; it only confirmed that I was a vampire. Oh, crap. I stared at my reflection in horror.

I am a vampire. How could this be? I didn't remember being bitten, I didn't remember the transformation. I suddenly realized how Alice must have felt when she discovered what she was.

A part of me was happy, I was finally like Edward, and we could be together now. We didn't have to be careful, I wasn't breakable anymore. But he wasn't here. I was alone. I was alone and I was a vampire. I never thought those two words would be put together until now.

Another other part of me wasn't angry with what I was, just a little disappointed. I didn't know why either. I couldn't put my finger on it. This was what I wanted, to become a vampire like Edward, to finally spend eternity with him. Maybe it was because he wasn't there, because he wasn't by my side. That had to be it, I decided.

I was trying to remember what had happened, but I couldn't. The last thing that came to mind was leaving school Monday afternoon. My mind was a black hole from there on. It was like there was nothing, not even little fragments. I was kind of happy I didn't remember the pain, but it would have been nice to remember something. I struggled until dawn to remember how I became a vampire. Nothing came.

Did Edward do this to me? I was 99.9 percent sure that it was his fault I was the way I was now. He bit me, and abandoned me. That bastard. When I really thought about it, I was pissed. No, I was beyond pissed, I was livid. How could someone that loved me, leave me the way he did? He promised me he wouldn't leave, and now he broke that promise.

Well, at least now I had all the time in the world to hunt him down and get an explanation. I wouldn't stop until I found him, either.