WARNING: Lots of grammar mistakes and spelling errors!
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto
Can you see it? Can you feel it? It´s.. so.. warm.. and.. soft. Beautiful...
It doesn´t hurt... No, it feels.. comfortable.
Who would have ever thought that blood could be so wonderful, warm and soft?
Look how my blood flows down from my wrists... Lovely, isn´t it?
I´m bleeding.. Indeed I´m bleeding. And I enjoy it. I´ve never felt anything like this before... Is this the feeling of joy?
The physical pain.. It´s nothing compared to emotional pain..But.. these cuts on my wrists... they make me forget the pain in my heart and wounds in my soul..
I´m starting to feel dizzy..And I love it.
I take my knife and put it on my wrist. Another cut. Oh, it feels so good.. More blood is coming..
Pain.. I don´t feel it anymore..
I sit here, In my dark room.. There is just me and silence.
Silence is my only friend... The only one I can truly trust..
Why? Why am I doing this?
The reason is.. Your hatred.
I can´t take it anymore.. You hate me, but I don´t know why.
Because I´m weak? Weaker than my younger sister?
Is that why you all made me suffer?
You always say I´m weak.. You say I´m useless, piece of shit.
But.. I´m not weak. I´m strong. I´m strong because I am able to do this..Yes.. Indeed I´m strong.
I lay down on my floor..
Again I take my knife... I watch it closely.. I see my blood on it..I bring it closer to my face..
Slowly I lick the blood from the blade .. It tastes.. Sweet..
I smile.. I can only imagine your faces when you find me here.. Dead.. And happy.
Oh yes, I´m happy.. Truly happy...
I´m happy because I know you can´t hurt me anymore..
If you would find me now, could you save me? No.. Nobody could..Not even you, Naruto-kun...
Nothing would change my mind...
This is my life.. And I will end it here, today...
Why? Why now and not earlier?
Because... There was time when I thought that I can be happy.. That someday someone would see through my fake smile and notice, how much I suffered.. But no..
Everyone believed I was happy...
I would have been a good actress, right?
That´s why I didn´t do this earlier.. Because I was stupid enough to hope.. Hope for a better life..
But know I know that it will never happen..
I wasn´t meant to be happy...
I don´t even know why I was born...
What was my purpose in this pathetic life?
Did I have a purpose?
No.. I don´t think so..
Why? Why it had to be like this?
Why it was always me who had to suffer?
Wait..Maybe I have a purpose? Maybe, I had to be the on who suffered..So that others could think that there is someone who suffers more than they.. So that they could find solace from that..
I open my eyes. Now I realize it. I really had a purpose.
I try to move, but I can´t. My body is so weak..
Horror fills my mind. What have I done?
No, NO! I don´t want this! I don´t want to die! Not anymore!
I try to get up, but I fail. I am so stupid. I should have realized this earlier. One tear rolls down my cheek.
Darkness is slowly surrounding me..And then, I feel nothing.
I´m gone. Forever.
AN: Stupid? Hell yeah. I know it sucked. Heh. But I enjoyed writing it. Ironic.. When Hinata finally realized she had a purpose in life, she couldn´t do anything. Well, life is cruel.