Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts.
a/n: Well, I'm back!!! This'll be my second Kingdom Hearts story, and my third story overall. You may have read my (in my opinion) the smash hit story Every Night in my Dreams, but then again, you might not have. Anyways, it's good to be back, and I look forward to some feedback!!!! Happy Readings!!!
Before I even woke up fully, I could hear the sound of the crashing waves outside my windows. I listened to them before I did anything though. I had a feeling that I woke up too early again. Don't know why, but every night since I've been home, I can't fall asleep for the longest time. And, as soon as I do manage to drift off, it's like I wake up two seconds later. There isn't even a reason either. My eyes just seem to snap open. The weird part about it, is that I wake up at the same time. 3:33am. I even tried setting my alarm clock for 3:30, but I slept through it. Didn't even phase me. Now that I'm home, I'm just a normal, sleep deprived teenager.
Letting my eyes crack open slightly, I turned my head and glared over at my clock. No surprises there; 3:33am, as usual. What was wrong with me? I didn't even have any tragic events happen to me at this time during my mission either. Nothing that came to mind at leased.
Closing my eyes again, I leaned back into my pillow as much as I could, and tried desperately to nod off. Please let this time be different, please! Lying in silence started getting on my nerves, so I managed to swing my legs over the side of my bed, and onto the hardwood flooring of my bedroom. Even through my thick socks, I could tell that it was frozen. Shivering slightly in the morning air, my eyes finally snapped open. The sun hadn't even risen yet! God!
I ran my hands over my sleepy eyes, and through my bed hair, hoping that that would somehow wake me up more. Obviously it didn't work, because I let out a huge yawn a second later. Damn it. Guess I would have to try something else. Standing up, I padded over to my door, picking up a stray black sweater along the way. Throwing it over my head, and putting my arms through the sleeves half-heartedly. Trudging down the stairs, I saw that the kitchen was completely empty. What? Was I expecting Mom to be there or something? No, Mom wouldn't be back. I'm dead to her, and since no one can seem to find her, she's dead to me too.
I pulled open the cupboard above the sink, and pulled out a coffee mug, and the tin full of coffee. But, just as I was placing my items on the counter, I remembered that someone told me that tea had even more caffeine than coffee did. So, after relinquishing the coffee back to the cabinet, I pulled out, instead, a packet of Chrysanthemum tea. It used to be Mom's favorite.
When I had eaten a couple pieces of toast, I took my mug with me out to the balcony overlooking the water to watch the sunrise. It was beautiful...just like every other morning had been. All breathtaking in it's magnificence. I never got tired of looking at it. The colors began to change before my eyes, from soft pinks and oranges, to the harsher purples and reds, then back to pink. Only then to fade away slowly into nothing but blue sky once more.
I might have been getting a little too emotional, but somehow the colors and the atmospheres reminded me of somewhere. A glowing golden aura surrounding everything. Where had I seen that kind of place?
And then it came to me, Twighlight Town. How could I have forgotten? Hayner, Pence, and Olette were so wonderful. How could I? I never thought about it before, but I remember when Hayner asked me, after I asked him about it when I visited them again, "Roxas...? Roxas...that sounds familiar, but we don't know him. Is he your friend?"
I had felt such a horrible pang of sadness, that I thought that my heart was going to rip in two. It wasn't even my feelings. They were Roxas'. It must have been terrible for him to hear that. How sad must it be, that all your friends have forgotten you when you needed them the most? Especially when you can't even tell them that you're right there. I can't even imagine how much that tore him up inside.
Taking a sip of the last of the tea, I turned around, and made my way back into the house. Making my way back up to my room after I placed my dishes in the dish washer, I passed a mirror. And, looking closer, I saw that the shadows under my eyes had deepened. I looked worn, and tired beyond the normal. It was rather pitiful. Maybe I should ask Kairi or Riku about it, maybe they'd know what to do. But, something caught my eye as I starred longer. Something in the corner of my eye looked like it held a different emotion, and it looked like...sadness.
I was taken aback. I had never noticed that presence being there before. But, as I studied it, I began to realize, that that wasn't my emotion. It had to be Roxas'. My heart immediately wrenched, and twisted into knots.
"Is it lonely in there...all by yourself?" I asked to my reflection, starring at that bit of Roxas.
Of course nothing happened, but I thought I saw a flicker of hope appear. I smiled, despite the sadness resonating from deep within me, and went back up to my room. Glancing at the clock on my side table, I saw that it read 6:30am. Now what was I going to do? No one would be awake this early in the morning. And besides, even if they were awake, who was I to call them at 6:30 in the morning. This is hopeless.
I collapsed onto the bed, relishing in the fact that I felt tired,
actually tired. I started thinking as my eyes began to get heavier and
heavier the more time went on; thinking about how my sleep pattern had
changed. Was it because of Roxas? I mean, was Roxas the one keeping me
awake? Had he been trying to make a point? What was he trying to tell
Trying to keep my eyes open just the slightest bit, I mumbled, "Roxas...?"
Then, I was out like a light. The funny thing was, was that I seemed to have woken up in a different place than that of where I had passed out. I opened my eyes further, and saw that I was back in the thing that I had been in when I had first woken up. But, the thing was, was that the room that this thing was in, didn't have just one. It had two. And, looking through the glass to the other side, I saw that in the other container was Roxas. All alone, sitting cross-legged on the white flooring, facing away from me and towards the inner wall. Looking around my container, I saw that the only way out was to bust through the glass.
Fine then. If that was how it was going to be, then fine. I stepped back and threw out my arm, waiting for the blinding white flash that would appear whenever my keyblade came out. But, it never came. There was no flash, and when I looked down at my hand, I saw that it was empty. That's not possible! What's happening? Glancing up at Roxas, I saw that he was still facing the other direction, but he wasn't just sitting there starring at the wall anymore. I looked closer, and saw that he had his head in his hands, and his shoulders were shaking uncontrollably.
He was crying. My Nobody...was crying. Sobbing to be more like it. But, couldn't he see me? I started banging my fists against the glass instead. That didn't work though. It was tougher than I thought. Couldn't he hear that? Now I was banging and shouting as loud as I possibly could. But, nothing was working.
"Roxas!!" I screamed, beating my fists again and again. "Roxas! Over here!"
It was hopeless. What was I doing? I would wake up right? So, what was the point? Would I wake up though?
I think I started to freak out a little when I thought of that. I started kicking, punching, screaming...crying. I had never done anything like that before. Acting like a child throwing a temper tantrum. What was with that? Finally, I wore myself down, and instead of trying to beat my prison into a pulp, I placed my head against the cool glass, and slid down. I lie there, wondering what was happening to myself, when I thought I heard someone yelling quietly, as if from behind glass.
When I felt my eyes start to close, I sighed, looking over at the other cage as my vision began to blur. He had seen me. He had noticed that I was in there. He had turned around to look at me. And I could just barely read what his lips were saying over and over again, "Sora. Sora. Sora. Sora..."
When I opened my eyes again, I saw that barely any time had passed as I slept. Even though it felt like I had been dreaming for hours, I had only fallen asleep for three minutes. That didn't feel like a dream though. No, it was too real to be a dream. Roxas was trying to tell me something, and I just don't know what it is. I need help.
Getting up off of my bed, I went down the stairs and into the kitchen. From there I sprinted off to the front door. Bursting through it I made my way down the pathway to the white sands surrounding the island. Going right, I continued running down the beach towards another house in the distance. Kairi's house. Dashing up her lawn, nearly tripping on her steps to get to her front door.
I took a moment to collect myself before I knocked on the door quietly. There was some slight commotion behind the door before it finally opened. But, when it finally swung back, I was glad to see my best friend standing before me, looking as though she had just rolled out of bed.
"Morning Kai!" I said cheerfully, placing my hand behind my neck and smiling slightly. She just grunted at me and moved away. I stepped in, closed the door, and followed the sound of her shuffling feet into the living room. She had collapsed back on to the couch, rubbing her eyes, and trying to wake up. Glancing at the clock she moaned slightly when she saw that it was only 7:15am.
"What do you want Sora?" she asked groggily.
I sat down next to her and said sheepishly, "Well, you know how I haven't been able to sleep for the past couple of days right?"
She nodded, and I continued, "Um, you see, I woke up at 3:33 again, and uh..."
She had woken up more, and was looking at me quizzically. I mumbled, "The thing is that I managed to fall asleep after I got up, and I had this really weird dream. And, I was wondering if you would be able to help me out with it? "
"What is it Sora?" she asked me concernedly, placing her hands over my own and leaning in closer. Fully awake now.
"I had this...this dream about Roxas...well, maybe it wasn't a dream...'cause it was so real. It's just that...it was so weird, and I don't know what to think of it." I rambled, getting even more disoriented as I thought about it.
"Don't worry, I'm here for you..." she said, squeezing my hands as she looked into my eyes.
I thought for a moment before I continued, "Do you think that he's lonely? Roxas I mean."
She paused for a moment before saying, "I wouldn't know."
"I know it's difficult to think about, but...if you were him...would you be lonely?" I asked again, pressing her for an answer.
She nodded and said, "Yes...I would be."
"And, do you think that you would try everything possible to get someone to notice right? Even if they couldn't necessarily hear you?"
She nodded again, looking into my eyes concernedly and asking, "Do you think Roxas is trying to tell you something?"
"Yeah...and not in the best way either." I whispered, standing up and pacing in front of her as I thought. "Has Namine...done anything to get your attention?"
"No. Nothing that I've seen anyways. Why?" she asked, standing up as well.
I paced more before I said anything, "I don't know. I really don't."
"Well...maybe you should ask Roxas. Can you contact him?"
I thought for a moment, then said, "I might be able to. It might not work, but I'll try. Thanks Kai...you've been great."
Turning around to leave, I began to head back for the door, concentrating on trying to find a way to talk with him. Hopefully my plan would work. But, before I could get a few steps away, I heard her small voice behind me ask tentatively, "Do you want to have breakfast with me?"
Turning back around, I looked at her, clad in only pajamas and replied, "Thanks...but, I think I'll pass. See ya..."
Did I really just see Sora? Was I finally going mad in this place? Or, had I finally gotten Sora here? Working so hard to build up enough energy to summon him here took a lot. I didn't even notice him. I thought that the spell hadn't worked, so I sulked, and finally I felt myself let go. I started to cry, and those tears turned into floods of water dripping down my face, never stopping. And for the longest time I shuddered and sobbed all alone. That's when I thought I heard something behind me. But, I thought that it was only my imagination. Then I heard it again. A soft thumping sound. Wasn't I alone though? Wait! It must have worked. It just had a delayed reaction time!! The noise stopped, and when I turned around, I saw to my great surprise, Sora. Flat on the ground, looking worn out, feeble, and about ready to faint.
But he had to see me!
There was only one problem. The spell was taking it's payment for bringing him here and sapping me of my energy. I was only able to face him on my hands and knees, but it was still enough to bang and yell as loud as I possibly could.
"SORA!! SORA!!" I called out, beating my heavy fists on the glass.
That's when his head turned back up towards me, and he starred through half-lidded eyes. We gazed at each other until he finally passed out, and vanished. My eyes began to droop, and I could feel my arms and legs start to shake with the effort of keeping me up. I just smiled, and closed my eyes. I barely even felt my body fall to the ground, I was too happy to care. He had seen me! And maybe, he wasn't so dense that he wouldn't be able to understand what I was trying so hard to tell him.
When I opened my eyes again, I could tell that I hadn't slept for that
long. I can never tell what time it actually is, but I think I had only
slept for about an hour or so. Pushing myself up, my head began to spin
dizzyingly. I sat down quickly and placed my head against the cool
glass. I nearly fell asleep again, but then, I was jerked from my
reverie by a soft voice.
"Roxas...?" it asked tentatively.
What?! How?! Did he really figure out how to talk to me?
"Sora?" I asked excitedly.
"Roxas? Can you hear me?" he asked a little louder.
"Oh...heh. Stupid. Of course you wouldn't be able to hear me," and as an after thought I mumbled bitterly, "...You never could..."
He repeated my name for a while, but, once he figured out that I wasn't going to answer back, he did the opposite of what I thought that he would do. Instead of stopping his pointless callings for me, he instead started speaking to me despite the lost in translation part of it all.
"Even though you might not be able to hear me right now Roxas, I just wanted you to know that...I'm sorry."
I was taken aback. This was not the Sora that I've come to know. I thought that Sora was kind to everyone but those little forgotten people, not someone who cares for everyone. For some reason I could feel my heart in my chest begin to beat a little harder against my ribs.
"I never thought twice about the one person who kept me alive, and for that I wanted to thank you." he said softly.
These words were strumming every one of my heart strings. I even felt a couple tears well up in the corner of my eyes. I shut them, and I felt the little drops run down my cheeks, and then fall away, leaving a cold stinging upon my face.
"You're welcome...Sora..." I whispered, concentrating as hard as I possibly could on relaying this to him.
a/n: This has been a pleasure writing, and I know it has a rough beginning, but it can only go up from here right? SEE YOU IN THE NEXT CHAPPIE!!!!