a/n: Why can't i just write one story at a time? Why can't Dick Wolf have EO do it already? Why are there so many John/Olivia stories? I Just don't know! This ones for all the fans that need the EOness!
June 13. 3:37am
"Can't sleep huh?" Her soft voice speaks.
"Not a wink. You?" I ask as I pour myself a cup of milk.
"Not even a little." She says with a sigh. I get a mental picture of Liv lying in her bed. I have to stop it right there. I am a married man for Christ sake! Why am I having these impure thoughts about my partner? And more importantly why can't I stop it?
"You were amazing with that little girl today Liv." I say, and I swear I can see her smile through the phone.
"I just wish we could do more, you know?"
"Everyday." I say and then take a bite into my chocolate chip cookie that Maureen has made.
"Her mother seems nice. I'm sure once they get reacquainted they will make a great little family."
I can hear her roll over in bed. My God! She is lying in bed talking to me. What is she wearing? God I would kill to know what she has on. What is she sleeps in the nude?
Jesus, I can't even go that route right now, my breathing turns heavy just from the near thought of Olivia naked. As much as I want to keep talking to her, I let her go because I need the cold shower more.
July 5 3:59am
"Did I see you making out with Logan tonight?" I ask her.
"How drunk were you?." She says giggling to herself, which only makes her laugh harder, and my heart sink a little because she didn't confirm or deny.
"Me? What about you? How many times did you fall down tonight?"
"Not as many as Munch." I hear her spit into the sink. She's brushing her teeth. I can't help but think that is the cutest thing. "Oh hey, Thank Kathy for driving our pathetic asses home would you?"
Munch, Fin, Casey, Liv and myself decided to have a drinking contest tonight at The NYPD 4th of July celebration. A competition between 5 competitive people, not a good idea, especially when alcohol is involved.
Kathy could have killed me when she came to the party. I was already hammered and hanging off of Liv's every last word. We were standing close, too close, and my hands were roaming where a married mans hands should not be. I wanted her tonight. I wanted to take her home and do things that I could only dream about. I think, but I can't be positive that she wanted to kiss me tonight, and if Kathy hadn't of shown up I wonder what would have happened.
"She was really mad wasn't she? I mean we were really annoying, especially since she was the sober one. She probably wanted to kill us."
"Nah." I lie. Oh yeah she wanted to kill, but not because we were drunk, because we were us, Olivia and Elliot doing what we do best. Flirting.
"Liar." I hear her laugh, "You're sleeping on the couch aren't you?"
She knows me too well. Knows Kathy to well.
"Yeah I got couch duty." I say with a laugh. "So did you?"
"Did I what?" She asks.
"Make out with Mike Logan? Come on Liv tell me the truth."
"Why do you care El?" She asks and I know she has one of her flirtatious grins on, the one she was sporting all night up until Kathy should up.
"Because you're my best friend, I should know these things. Plus I need to know if I'm going to be kicking his ass." I say laughing, but being 100 percent honest.
"You can't go around kicking everyone's ass who I make out with El."
"Why are there a lot Liv?" I ask and I hear her laugh. I know Liv, she is the make out bandit, kicking there asses would be a full time job.
"Let's not go there."
"You're my best friend." I say matter of factly.
"Good. Cause you're my best friend too El." She says through a yawn.
"Are you going to hang up on me now?" I ask, not yet ready to let her go.
"Not if you don't want me too."
"Not yet. I want to hear your voice."
"You're a strange guy Stabler."
"Mmmhmmm." I say as my eyes begin to fight to stay open.
"You going to fall asleep while talking to me?"
"Mmmhmmm. I want your voice to be the last one I hear before I pass out."
"Ok, but I think I'm going to fall asleep before you." She says and I hear her yawn again.
July 31 2:13am
"You get in ok?" I ask.
"Just walking through the door right now." I hear her muster some choice curse words. I can just see her struggling with her bags as she searches her purse for her keys, while her cell phone is pressed between her ear and her shoulder. I can hear the rummaging and then a deep breath, "Okay. Sorry about that. What's up?"
"Nothing. Just wanted to make sure you got home okay."
"Very funny. Did Fin wait for you to flick the lights?"
"No El, you are the only one who makes me do that."
"You get your guy."
"I missed working with you today." I say with pouty smile.
"Awe. Poor baby." She says sarcastically. She can be as sarcastic as she wants I know she hates it when we work separate cases.
"You missed me Liv, you can admit it."
"You're something else El." She chuckles out.
"Admit it Liv." I say in low playful voice.
"Come on…" I tease further.
"Fine El. I missed with working with you today. You happy? I can't help it, Fin starts to smell after being in a small car for 8 hours." I hear her giggle. "And he doesn't like to play our stakeout games."
"I know. He's very serious when it comes to stakeouts. No fun at all…you know I've been thinking about another thing we can do while on our stakeouts." Oh. My. God…did I really just say that out loud!! I feel the heat rise in my face.
"Oh really? And what might that be?"
"Like you don't know." I say and wonder when the hell I have grown such massive balls.
"Elliot Stabler!" She says in a high pitched squeal that I have never heard Liv do before. It makes me laugh hysterically.
"I'll see you tomorrow Liv. Night." I say and hang up.
Aug 10th 4:20am
"You keep calling me this late Stabler and Kathy is going to think we are having an affair."
"Hello to you too Liv." I say with a sly smile. I don't tell her that Kathy already thinks we are having an affair. I also don't tell her how bad I wish we were. I'm sick I have a problem. Who wishes they were having an affair?
"We should have just stayed in the crib we have to be back to work in 3 hours."
"I know. I'm not even tired." I say hiding my yawn.
"Me either. You wanna grab breakfast and then go in? I mean we are obviously not going to sleep tonight."
A smile emerges and I can not hide it. "I would love to. The Diner, say 20 minutes?"
"40, I have to shower first."
"Fine. See ya then." I get giddy. A burst of energy runs through my body. I run upstairs for a quick shower.
When I get out of the shower Kathy is sitting on toilet seat looking up at me.
"You're going back to work?" She asks me.
"Ah, yeah." She stands up and places her arms around my body. I feel nothing. I have felt nothing for a long time. I pull her arms away and place a chaste kiss on her forehead, and walk out of the room. I can hear her sigh in disappointment. I feel like such an asshole, but I have no control over it, I can't stop thinking about Liv, wanting to touch her, to taste her, to…Oh god I have to stop right there. I can't believe it has gotten to the point where I don't even have the desire to sleep with my wife.
Aug 10 5am
She looks beautiful sitting there sipping her coffee. It's still dark outside but when I look at her it is all rays of sunlight. Oh my God! What is happening to me? Rays of sunlight! WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME OLIVIA BENSON?!
"5 years tomorrow." She says with a sly smile.
"5 years tomorrow what?" What the hell is she talking about?
"Us Elliot. It's our partner 5 year anniversary!" She gives me one of her pearly white smiles. The ones that make my insides flutter.
"Has it been that long already! Jeez, you would think Cragen would give us the day off!"
"Fat chance. You done?"
"Yeah lets get back to house."
We arrive to an almost empty station house. "You two look like hell. Hit the cribs and get some decent sleep." Cragen orders us.
Who are we to object. 2 cups of coffee but I'm still exhausted. We go upstairs to the crib and fall onto the two cots at the back, 'our cots'.
We are both starring at each other, she is looking deep into my eyes, I can feel her trying to read me. "What are you thinking about El?" She asks.
"You." I say with a shit eating grin on my face. She thinks I'm kidding, but I have never been so serious.
"Jackass. God what is the air condition on like negative 100?" Her body shivers and she curls up in the fetal position.
"You that cold?"
"I'm always cold. I love it." She says with a small smile, still shivering.
"It is pretty cold in here. How about you come lay here with me, I'll keep you warm." I am not smiling, I am not laughing, I want her to know that I am serious, because I am. I need to feel her, I need to hold her. I'm dying inside, this is killing me. I need to be closer to her.
"Elliot. I think that is inappropriate don't you?" She's thinking about it!
"We're best friends Liv. Best friends cuddle all the time. Come on get your cute butt over here." I say patting my hand on the mattress.
She's doing it! She got up! She's coming over! I pull down the covers and she lays down gracefully. Her body is next to mine, touching mine. I wrap my arms around her waist and pull her closer to my body. I can't see her face but I know she is smiling.
"This is so wrong on so many levels Elliot." She says softly.
I nudge my head on the crook of her neck, and with all the courage I have place my lips on her neck. It makes that sound, that sucking sound. I love that sound, and I know she loves that sound too, which is why I did it.
"Night Liv." I say giving her a squeeze.
"Actually it's Morning, El." She says as she turns her head and her lips meet mine for a brief but magical moment.