What is this? this is my first draft of entry 79. The Entry 79 in the diary is actually a complete rewrite of this. I thought that this one was too emotionaless and so I rewrote it. since than my freind has told me that he likes this version better. what can I say? I decided to post this here for people to look at and decide wich entry they like better. Both say almost the exact same thing, only the emotions are differant.
Keitaro-kun hasn't woken up yet, but at least I know what is wrong with him. It has been a week since my last entry, but this is the fist time that I have come out of meditation in that whole time. I don't even know how I am still alive. I can only assume that my efforts to keep my body fine while I was trying to figure out what was wrong with Keitaro-kun have kept it alive. I am glad. The girls have been keeping watch on me. Everyone is so nice. Mutsumi was with me when I woke up. She gave me something to eat, then left me alone so that I could jot this all down before I go back into meditation. She was so kind.
While a lot of time has passed in the real world it didn't seem as long while I was working with Keitaro-kun. I went over his soul as carefully as I could, looking for things that seemed wrong. I tried not to look at what the different aspects of his soul were, just checked to see if I had broke them. I found nothing wrong with him. I then tried to let my soul flow into his body, to see if I could try to figure out if my soul showed something that his didn't have. There were differences, but all of them had to him being a man. I was despairing at this point, when I remembered that we had shared a dream. I looked closely at our souls and found something that I had missed. Keitaro had some of his soul merged into my own. When I followed his soul it looked complete, I didn't notice that I had followed it into my soul and out again. The same thing had happened when I tried to compare our souls. Together we were both complete. That's why… When I am not in contact with him his soul is split. It can function, but not enough for him to wake up. I know what I must do. I must go into my own soul and find him. I must find a way to help the part of him in me rejoin the rest of him. It was my fault to start with. I was to careless when I was helping him. I feel guilty. Not just because of what I did, but partly because I like how it feels to know that Keitaro-kun has his soul joined with mine, even if for a brief time.
Live Keitaro-kun. I love you