How to trust
When everyone goes
How to feel
When these scars run deep
How to live
When nobody knows
How to love
When you I can't keep
That I will never leave you
This touch; my skin on yours
Your life alongside mine
Without logic and all of your heart
Ai shiteru, Ritsuka
HOW TO TRUST, WHEN EVERYONE GOES
I can't think straight; he keeps saying those words to me 'love, love' over and over again. Does he mean it? I don't know. I'm twelve how am I supposed to understand that? Everyone left me in the past, Seimei, my mother even I abandoned me. Why should I trust Soubi now?
TRUST, THAT I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU
Finally I found my other half. Seimei was my fighter, my master. But you, you are my other part; you make me whole again. How could I ever walk away from that? I told you that even if Seimei ordered me to I would die before hurting you. I couldn't leave if I tried.
HOW TO FEEL, WHEN THESE SCARS RUN DEEP
I boarded myself off, away from the world. If I don't feel, then I can't get hurt. It makes sense to me. But you, you confuse me, you wormed your way in under my skin, someplace I forgot existed. It doesn't matter though I can't let you in, too much pain, to many scars.
FEEL THIS TOUCH; MY SKIN ON YOURS
You can feel it can't you? My skin touching yours gently, a reassuring hand on your back, a gentle pull on your hand, a finger on your face. It's physical, it's real. Tangible evidence, something neither of us can deny and pretend isn't there. I can heal you, I can make the pain leave but you have to let me in. Stop pushing my hand away.
HOW TO LIVE, WHEN NOBODY KNOWS
My life's not mine anymore. I'm not me anymore, I've changed. A world full of spells and battles and this place that ordered my brothers murder. Nobody knows save you, it's hard to get up and go about my life when there's so much more. Then there's you, Soubi. A mysterious stranger, no one knows who you are to me, I don't even think I do. No one knows what we could be, no one will ever know. How can I live when I only have one person in my entire life to confide in? How can I live when us together is so against the rules?
LIVE, YOUR LIFE ALONGSIDE MINE
You're all I need, Ritsuka. I should be all you need. You can tell me anything, I'll be by your side always, nothing can keep me from you. I can protect you; I can keep you safe from them. It doesn't matter about the outside world, about what they think about us together, as long as I have you. Our lives are intertwined, inseparable. Nothing can change that, ever. We will be this way forever; alongside each other.
HOW TO LOVE, WHEN YOU I CAN'T KEEP
You'll go eventually, just like they all do. You'll find Seimei and then you'll leave. How can I admit my love, and accept you into my heart when you're just going to break it? How can you expect me to open up to you, when I know your leaving? You'll never stay with me; poor little lost boy. A twenty-year-old man, what could you see in me, a twelve-year-old child?
LOVE, WITHOUT LOGIC AND ALL OF YOUR HEART
Silly Ritsuka, why would I go? When in you I have everything I'll ever want. Seimei's gone and even if he's not he could never give me what I found with you. You heart is precious to me, I could never break it, I will spend my life trying to get in and then I'll never leave. 'Poor little lost boy', your mine. With your ears and tail, it would bring anyone to their knees and I can't resist. There is no logic in love and you can only go at with your whole heart, nothing less.
AI SHITERU, RITSUKA
I love you to, Soubi. But I can't tell you that its to hard and to soon for me let someone in, someday you will know though.