A/N: Welcome! This story is not your typical ShikaIno story, so, many of you might find it frustrating – what with the twisted plot and love confusion (not to mention lots of grammar mistakes!) Be prepared! There's a lot of ANGST and DRAMA in here! And when you start to feel weary or bored, just remember: have a little FAITH in me.
Inspiration for this story came when I was stuck in my boring Entrepreneurship class. A classmate walked in late. She is pregnant. Just like that an idea struck me and here's this story. Enjoy.
DISCLAIMER: NARUTO IS ALWAYS MASASHI KISHIMOTO'S.
I'M SORRY, SHIKAMARU
Chapter 1: One Night
"Ino?" Sakura waved in front of the blonde's face. The blue eyes were distant and dreamy. "Earth to, Ino!"
Suddenly, she was back to reality. Sakura had successfully got her head out of the clouds. Still, her eyes were wide, her breathing was harsh. She wanted to say something but the words were stuck in her throat.
"Ino, are you alright?" Sakura asked worriedly. She patted Ino's back in soothing movements. "You look so pale…"
"Sakura…" It was a whisper. Ino swallowed hard. It was difficult for her to produce words. "Tell me that it isn't true, please…"
Sakura lowered her gaze to her feet. As much as she wanted to deny the fact, but honestly she couldn't. "I'm sorry, Ino." Her voice was bitter. "But it's positive."
The words exploded in Ino's ears. She shut her eyes tight, gritting her teeth as the reality bit her skin. Her fingers were balled in firm grips, so tight they almost bleed. Her face was pale from shock.
Really, she didn't expect this to happen.
"Ino, are you okay?"
Seriously, this was not supposed to happen!
"Ino?" Sakura's concerned voice cornered her. Now that her best friend knew, Ino wasn't sure what to do.
She inhaled the bitter feeling that rose in the hollow pit of her stomach and showed her best smile. "Yeah. Don't worry. I'm fine, Sakura." She nodded reassuringly. "I will be fine."
Sakura's hand came to rest on her shoulder the moment she was going to stand. "Wait, Ino." Her voice turned serious. "Don't leave just yet. We have something to discuss."
"I know." Ino nodded weakly. "But can we talk about it later?"
"What are you going to do about it?"
"I don't know."
Sakura sighed heavily. Letting go of Ino's shoulder, she occupied the seat Ino left. She shook her head slowly. "I don't understand. How did it happen?"
Ino bit her bottom lip and shrugged. "It just…happened."
"Things didn't just happened, Ino."
"I know but –" Ino inhaled sharply. Tears were beginning to form at the corner of her eyes. "In this case, it just happened. I have no control."
"Did you know what you were doing the moment you were doing it?"
Ino turned to face Sakura. "I was drunk. Are you blaming me?"
"No, but…" Sakura chuckled humorlessly. "I guess he was drunk, too. If not, he could've used protection."
The blush quickly colored Ino's face. "We didn't intend to do it in the first place. Like I said before–"
"Yeah, yeah…" Sakura cut in, waving her hand. "It just happened, right?"
"See you later." Ino gave a quick, weary smile.
"Are you going to find him?"
"I don't know." Ino shrugged. "I need to clear my head first."
"Better tell him fast. Then together decide what to do."
Ino nodded but she knew that was the hardest task ever. Before she left the medical room, she turned to look at her best friend again. "Hey, are you really sure it's positive?"
Sighing, Sakura nodded. "Yeah." She confirmed. "It's a hundred percent positive."
Ino walked aimlessly around the village. She had no specific place to go. Should she start looking for him? The thought occurred in her mind but she shrugged it off quickly. She didn't have to do that. She was sure that sooner or later, she will meet him.
She looked up at the sky. It was blue, cloudless, no sign of rain. She huffed. Her breath was heavy and tense. Seriously, how was she supposed to solve the big problem?
How ironic, that a single event could change her life forever.
It was just an accident, a mistake, a one night stand.
They didn't have anything to begin with. They were just friends, who celebrated the Sakura festival together, hanging out with the others, went drinking afterwards. Maybe they drank too much that night because as they walked home together in such swaying motions, holding each other for support, talking and laughing all the way, they didn't realize that a simple line could affect the rest of the night.
"You wanna know something?" He had said to her, hiccupping from too much alcohol. "You're hot."
"Oh, really?" She giggled. Her head was light. She felt like she was flying. "I'm hot?"
"Yeah." He admitted easily. Maybe he didn't realize those words escaped his mouth. He drew her body closer to him as she was about to fall and they ended up stumbling on the floor. Thank goodness they had safely arrived at her apartment; otherwise they would end up lying on the street. She was on top, he was below. "But I guess you never knew that."
"That I thought of you that way."
"Guess what?" She looked at him with half-lidded eyes. "You're hot, too."
"Really?" He chuckled. "Are you serious?"
"Yeah…" She moved upward until their faces were impossibly close, lips barely met. "So hot it makes me want to kiss you right now…"
There, Ino concluded. It just happened.
The next day, they woke up with terrible hangovers and decided not to talk about that matter and just pretended that nothing happened between them. Nothing was going to change anyway. They were friends, close friends to be exact and was comfortable with the relationship and wanted it to be maintained.
They buried that one night memory so deeply at the back of their head, never wanted to dig it out. They lived their lives according to their usual routines, still hanging out together, still having good times.
But the cursed day had finally arrived. They have to face the thing they were running from all these times.
Without Ino realizing, her feet brought her to the place where he always been whenever he was free from work. From afar, she could see the smoke coming from him.
"Shikamaru." She approached him. Her face was serious. "I have something to tell you."
Luckily, he was alone. That made her revelation a little easier. "What is it?" He replied, taking a slow drag of the cigarette. His face looked bored as always, but he paid attention to her nonetheless.
Ino found her feet were rather interesting than his face. Gathering all her courage, she blurted out, "I'm sorry."
His brows arched high, the cigarette hung limply between his lips. "For what?"
Ino felt her heart began to ache, so painfully it was killing her. Shikamaru studied her expression in confusion. "What is it? Something bad? Tell me."
"I'm sorry…" She tried to hold her tears. "I'm so sorry…"
"Troublesome…" He muttered silently upon seeing the tears. He looked around for any signs of people. He didn't want to be seen with a crying girl. "Hey, don't cry." He used his thumb to brush the tears away. "Now care to tell me what the matter is?"
Ino bowed down, didn't dare to look at his face. With a small shaken voice, she told him the truth.
The cigarette fell from his mouth.
"Wh-what?" His eyes widened. "Are you sure?"
She nodded, sobbing quietly. "I was late, so I took a test. Sakura told me it's positive."
He was speechless for such a long time that she started to wonder about her decision to tell him about the news was right. Among all the guys she knew, though Shikamaru was lazy as hell, he actually was a very responsible person. She had seen that trait in him every time he conducted his team on missions.
But then again, maybe that responsibility responded only towards certain commitments.
She waited patiently for his answer but at last, the thing she wanted to hear was totally different from the thing he said.
"Are you sure the baby's mine?"
Her blood heated up instantly. She jerked her head up in anger. Seriously, she never thought of hearing him uttering those words, those painful words. Without telling her directly, he meant to tell her that she was that kind of girl. Her heart ached again.
"You bastard…" Ino hissed angrily, shoving a finger into his chest. "How dare you talking to me like that when you are the one who took my virginity that night! Of course the baby's yours! Who do you think I am? A slut?! I've never been with any guy but you!"
He sighed heavily, scratching the back of his neck. "Troublesome… I didn't expect this to happen…"
The way he responded to that matter looked like he didn't care at all. Ino felt her shoulders were heavy, burdened with another weigh of pain. After hearing that shocking news, she needed support, seriously, and most importantly from him. She couldn't go through this alone. After all, he was the father!
They were young, too young to carry that big responsibility.
But seeing him now…
Ino nodded weakly, finally understood what he was trying to say although he made no effort to mutter any more words. He just stood there, smoking a fresh stick of cigarette, eyes fixed on the clouds, wordless.
He didn't tell those comforting words she wanted to hear, that he will take that responsibility, that he will take care of her and their child, that they will go through this together…
He was just as rigid as ice.
Of course, she noted with sarcasm. The news must've shocked the hell out of him.
"Okay." It was a whisper. Ino wondered if he could hear her but she remained speaking that way. "Okay, I understand…" She closed her eyes, turned and began to walk away. "I'll do it right now."
Shikamaru seized her elbow fast. He spun her around and confronted her teary face. He looked grim, his expression was bitter.
"Don't." He shook his head. His gaze was on her stomach. "Don't ever think of doing it."
"So what am I supposed to do?!" Suddenly she screamed, unable to control her raging heart anymore. Her tears leaked out of her eyes like broken pipes. She looked at him angrily, daring him to say anything to fix the situation. "Let the baby live in my belly? Give birth after eight months? Just like that? I'm not married, what will people think of me?!"
"Troublesome…" He forced his genius to work out a plan, any plan to save her honor and his. Surely they couldn't hide her pregnancy for long! Soon Ino's growing belly will be impossible to cover.
His eyes were clouded with uncertainty. "Don't worry." He patted her shoulder lightly. "I'll take care of you."
That was not a promise of a lifetime. There will be no marriage for sure. For her, that just wasn't enough. But she knew he was not ready to end his bachelorhood just yet.
"You don't have to go on mission. I'll make up something to Godaime." He took a long last drag of the cigarette before crushing it on the ground with his foot. "I will support you."
Ino waited for a little bit more promising words but that was it. Shikamaru was only willing to go that far.
"Soon it will be hard to cover…" Ino put a hand on her still flat stomach. "When the time comes, what should we do?"
Shikamaru followed her gaze. "We'll think of something."
Ino looked at his troubled expression. "Maybe I should go on with the abortion. It will save us from more trouble."
"But, Shikamaru –"
"Don't worry, Ino. Relax. I'll take care of you. You can count on me."
Ino sighed heavily. How could she not worry?! She was the one with the growing belly!
"Hey…" She drew his attention to her. She looked at him with hurtful eyes. "Do you want this baby? Be honest."
Shikamaru was quiet once again. Ino could've guessed his answer.
…to be continued.
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