READ this first!
Okay. This fic is very long. This is chapter one. This fic takes up 200 freaking pages of Microsoft Word in my computer. I'm not sure I'll continue...sigh ...its a lot of stuff to edit and go over and crap, ya know? Later this story's rating goes to Mature as the two get use to each other... . Alright, read away! Review if you wish, this is only chapter one. Wouldn't hurt to tell me if you even want me to continue. Theres no cliffhanger or anything but theres a LOT of drama later. ok NOW read away!
I don't own Naruto. Isn't it obvious? If I did I wouldnt be posting FANFICS.
"What.. is wrong with me.. why am I staring at him.." Sasuke stared across the yard at Naruto chasing a cat around in circles. Sasuke sat on his rock dully and averted his attention. "He's so stupid.. what's his problem.." He said to himself. Sasuke sighed and turned to stare again. Naruto had caught the cat, and was cuddling with it in the grass. Sasuke felt himself get a little warm as he observed, and he shook it off, turning around with his back to the rest of the yard.
"What.. the hell.. is wrong with me.." Naruto thought to himself, stroking the cat in his lap as he sat cross legged in the grass—staring at Sasuke's back. He smiled a little, then immediately erased it.
"HEY BASTARD! WE'RE SUPPOSE TO BE TRAINING GET OFF THAT STUPID ROCK!" he shouted. Sasuke turned and gave him such a cold look that he immediately looked away. Meanwhile, Sasuke didn't move.
"Why does he have to hate me so much.. if he didn't, maybe I could feel better about him." Sasuke thought to himself.
"Why does he hate me so much.." Naruto wondered.
"I.. don't really hate him.." He finished aloud to himself, letting the cat go. Naruto stood up and slowly approached Sasuke from behind.
"Sasuke? Hey what's wrong with you?" He asked, trying to sound more agreeable. Sasuke didn't answer him for awhile, but just as Naruto was about to walk away, he spoke up.
"I don't know why you care. I just...it's bothering me." Sasuke said quietly. Naruto wondered for a moment, but then knew, and moved his gaze to the side of Sasuke's neck and the base of his shoulder on the left side. The curse seal. Naruto watched Sasuke lean with his head in his hands and sit there silently.
"Is.. um.. is there something I can do?" he asked hesitantly.
"You'll get in my way if you're over here moping about that." He added. Sasuke only shook his head.
"There's nothing you can do Naruto." Sasuke said tersely. Naruto stood there for awhile, but then turned to the house.
"Okay fine." He started to walk away. He heard Sasuke move behind him.
"Hey." He called. Naruto turned his head.
"I'm getting worse. The pain, I mean. I just can't do a lot of training now, alright?" Sasuke said. Naruto turned all the way around and nodded.
"Oh.. alright. I get it." Naruto agreed awkwardly. Sasuke kept staring at him, his hands folded in front of him as he rested with his elbows on his knees. Naruto stood there uncomfortably until it was too much.
"What are you looking at!?" he retorted suddenly. Sasuke looked away.
"How have you been.." he asked quietly. Naruto's jaw nearly dropped.
"How have I been??" He repeated. Sasuke never asking him anything that normal. At least not without an insult following it.
"What kind of question….I.. I've been okay." Naruto answered, taking a few steps closer. Sasuke nodded.
"Um.. that's good." He answered uneasily. Naruto made a face.
"Are YOU okay? You're acting so weird." Naruto asked. Sasuke frowned.
"I told you what my problem was." Sasuke answered, getting slightly annoyed. Naruto frowned and crossed his arms, walking all the way over to the rock and standing next to it.
"You don't have to get an attitude." He said under his breath.
"I'm not getting an attitude, I just already told what was wrong, what else do you want??" Sasuke's voice raised. Naruto uncrossed his arms.
"What the hell is your problem?? Why can't you act normal for a change!? That stupid little curse mark makes you think you can act however you want—oh wait! You do that anyway!" Naruto shouted. Sasuke stood up and had Naruto by the collar within the next few seconds.
"I don't need this right now. So you can either shut up, or I'll do it for you. Baka." In the next moment, Naruto shoved, Sasuke shoved back, and they were in the grass fist fighting in the next second.
"TRY IT! Just try and shut me up you stupid Uchiha—inherited all your abilities! You're such a prick!" Naruto screamed, struggling with Sasuke for control of the fight. Sasuke suddenly hit him in the face without a problem.
"You don't even know what you're talking about! You know nothing I went through! No one does! And I don't even know why I'm wasting my time on you, you clueless dropout! You ever wonder why the entire town hated you??" Sasuke retorted, pinning Naruto to the ground and forcing him still. Naruto froze, staring at him blankly. Sasuke stared, pausing, then realized what he'd said. He knew it was a little harsh, but he refused to apologize. Naruto hadn't moved, but he'd gone a few shades paler.
"Ouch…" he murmured, but said nothing else. Sasuke stood up off of Naruto and stared at him for a few moments.
"Why did I say that.. it was out of line.. I know better.." Sasuke's thoughts spouted apology in his mind, but he didn't say a word. Naruto got up silently and brushed himself off, staring at Sasuke for a few moments, then turned around to walk to the house.
"No wonder you're a loner.." he murmured as he left. Sasuke turned and sat back on the rock, again putting his face back in his hands.
Later that night, Kakashi was walking around the house. Naruto was in a window corner, staring endlessly out into the dark. Sasuke was still outside on the rock, his head in his hands, and Sakura was beside him, rubbing his shoulder and trying to talk him into coming in to get something to eat. Kakashi went back to Naruto and sat down nearby.
"Naruto turn around." He said after a few minutes of silence. Naruto looked hesitantly, revealing a black eye.
"You have to learn when not to push it Naruto." Kakashi said after a sigh. Naruto jumped up. "He started it! Why does everyone take his side?? Especially Sakura—you know what I don't have time for this, why don't you just take them and breed a bunch of little stupid Uchihas so they can have their own stupid race of STUPID little punk know-it-alls! Stupid Sasuke.. I hate how everyone thinks he's right—"
"—and everyone thinks I'm nothing! I'll show him and everyone else.. one day I'm going to snap, and just—Ahhh!! I can't stand him, I can't be around him.. This past week has been hell—"
"Naruto!" Kakashi exclaimed, interrupting.
"You have to stop this bickering with him. Neither of you understand the other at all. You're suppose to be learning from each other." Kakashi lectured. Naruto shook his head.
"I can't.. I can't learn from him.. he won't let me." Naruto said more calmly, sitting back down. Kakashi peered at him.
"Does that mean you're wanting to give it a try? You said he won't let you. Does that means you've tried?" Kakashi pointed out. Naruto said nothing for awhile, then looked up as there was a knock at the open door. Sasuke stood, leaning against the doorway with his hands in his pockets. He stared at the floor.
"Naruto. I have some things to say." He said. Naruto scowled.
"I don't want to talk to you!" He snapped, crossing his arms and facing the window. Kakashi stood up and walked out the door, past Sasuke.
"I'm closing this door, and you two are going to fight it out, talk it out, hug it out, whatever you have to do. You're not coming out until you resolve this." Kakashi forced. Sasuke scoffed. "You can eliminate 'hugging it out' right now."
"I think we agree for once." Naruto growled from the other side of the room. Kakashi sighed. "Whatever. Just talk." Kakashi closed the door and locked it. Sasuke sat down right against the door and crossed his arms, bitterly staring still at the floor.
"Now look…he wouldn't have done that if you hadn't come over here.. what do you want?" Naruto grumbled, keeping his back to Sasuke. Sasuke was silent for a long while, until Naruto began to get frustrated again, then he finally spoke.
"I shouldn't have said what I said." Naruto turned to look, an eyebrow raised.
"What?" He stared in disbelief at Sasuke.
"It's…it was out of line." Sasuke said, finally looking up, but only briefly. Naruto cleared his throat and stared.
"He's.. really.. doing this?...Wow. He's never…" Naruto turned all the way around and leaned forward, his elbows on his knees.
"Are you actually—"
"Yes, I'm sorry, alright? Get over it." Sasuke snapped, looking up to give him a "Look". "Well.. thanks." Naruto answered uncomfortably. They sat in the uncomfortable silence for around 5 minutes, Naruto occasionally staring at Sasuke, while Sasuke merely stared at the floor, occasionally rubbing his shoulder over the curse mark.
"Hey Sasuke?" Naruto began. Sasuke looked up, wondering what was coming. Naruto looked down and fiddled with his shirt hem.
"You.. you said when we were fighting.. that no one knows what you've been through." Naruto started. Sasuke's plain stare suddenly became a piercing focus, and Naruto felt he was being stared at straight into his thoughts.
"I…well…tell me." Naruto managed to get out. He watched Sasuke basically twitch in discomfort, and he stood up.
"Why should I.." he murmured, coming a few steps closer. Naruto looked away.
"So I can.. I don't know. Just so I can know. You know my story. Well enough to make me feel horrible about myself." Naruto muttered. Sasuke came all the way over and sat down.
"I don't hate you." He said slowly after a few seconds. Naruto turned and looked for a while, then looked back down at the floor.
"I don't hate you either." He admitted. Sasuke blinked and stared at him for a few seconds. "Hold on." He stood up and went across the room to the fireplace, quickly starting a fire and going back to Naruto and sitting down.
"Alright I'll tell you I guess. Just.. just remember I don't really want to." Sasuke reminded. Naruto nodded.
"Ok, fine." Naruto watched Sasuke carefully as he began to talk. He read Sasuke's face, watched his eyes. Before long, he began to feel the pain through the words.
Sasuke paused after around 15 minutes of talking, and stared at Naruto. They had moved from Naruto's spot in the corner of the window, and were sitting side by side on a mat in front of the fire place. The room had gotten cold. Sasuke stared for a long while before Naruto noticed he was staring.
"Don't.. what are you doing?" Sasuke asked. Naruto shook his head. He'd been staring at the floor so hard that his eyes hurt.
"Your brother—how.. family! He's your own blood.. I never even had a family and a member of yours did THIS to you?" Naruto exclaimed suddenly, his hands clenching into tight fists in his lap. Sasuke looked away.
"It's not that big of a deal—"
"It is! How can you say that?? I.. I never understood why you were the way you are, and now I do!" Naruto exclaimed. Sasuke looked back at him almost in disbelief.
"Hey why do you care so much anyway??" He exclaimed sharply. They both paused and sat in silence, and Naruto uncomfortably fidgeted with his pant material. He turned his head completely so Sasuke couldn't see his face.
"I.. I.. I don't know." Naruto lied. He felt Sasuke come closer.
"Hey! Answer me. Why do you care? Why did I apologize to you? Why do we always fight?? Why are we here!" Sasuke vented all of a sudden, and Naruto turned around in abrupt shock to stare at Sasuke's mini-breakdown.
"Um…" Naruto started, but had no response.
"Well.. hey Sasuke?" he asked. Sasuke took a deep breath, then finally looked up.
"What, Naruto.." Naruto thought carefully.
"Um.." he grew a smirk.
"Do you even like Sakura the way she hopes at all?" he asked suddenly. Sasuke's eyes widened, but he didn't say anything at first. He rose an eyebrow and folded his hands in his lap as he stared in the fire.
"I don't. I know it's.. just.. disrupting our teamwork because it's all she thinks about. But.. I don't have time to think about her that way." Sasuke admitted. Naruto hung on to every word as Sasuke continued far past what he ever normally did.
"I…I can't even picture myself growing to like her that way.. there's too much on my mind. Too much of her is different from me. There's.. no way I could—" Sasuke paused when he realized Naruto's eyes had widened about twice their normal size.
"Wooow…you've never said anything like that to anyone!" he exclaimed excitedly. Sasuke rolled his eyes.
"Whatever." He replied tersely. Naruto began picking at a stray piece of material from the rug they sat on.
"Do you have interest in anyone? Who does Sasuke Uchiha think about at night?" Naruto said slowly, seemingly drifting off into thought as he spoke. He stared straight at the carpet. Sasuke didn't reply for a straight minute, and neither of them said a thing.
"You want to know who I think about." Sasuke said in cynical disbelief. He even scoffed after. "God.. what is my problem.." Sasuke murmured under his breath.
"Why's it your problem? Problem??"
"I said it's nothing." They sat awkwardly and stared into the flames.
"I'm going to sleep." Sasuke said within the next minute. He got up and grabbed a cushion from the window bench, then came back and put it at the edge of the rug closest to the fireplace. Before lying down, he took of his shirt. Naruto, beside him, froze in place and looked.
"What are you doing.." he asked uncomfortably. Sasuke gave him a rather evil glance.
"It's only going to get warmer because of that fire. Relax. And please shut up, I want to sleep." Sasuke murmured, preparing to lie down. Naruto spoke up again before he did.
"So.. what about after you kill your brother?" he watched Sasuke tense, and with Sasuke's shirt off he could see all the muscles contract.
"What will you do after your whole life goal is finished? Then will you have time to think about someone at night?" Naruto asked more quietly.
"Do you have some.. special person that none of us know about? Where do you live anyway?" Naruto questioned. Sasuke sat back up from being about to lay on his stomach. He looked at Naruto carefully.
"Why do you want to know? Why are you asking all of these questions? Stop." Sasuke said outright. Naruto ignored his request completely.
"Because I'm curious." He said, again looking away uncomfortably.
"Why do you keep looking away like that—" Sasuke reached out and put his hand on top of Naruto's head, turning him to face him again. Naruto swatted immediately.
"Don't touch me!"
"Fine." Sasuke laid down and faced away from him.
"Good night." He finalized.
"You didn't answer my question." Naruto said in the next second.
"You won't shut up until I answer you will you." Sasuke muttered bitterly. Naruto chewed briefly on his bottom lip, then scrambled over to Sasuke's other side and crouched right up by him, leaning down in his face.
"Nope! Spill, Uchiha." He demanded boldly. Sasuke shifted to his side and sat up partly, resting his head in his hand with his elbow on the floor so he was in Naruto's face at his same level.
"I think about you and Kakashi at night." Sasuke said simply. Naruto rose his eyebrows. "Really? Me and Kakashi? What? You know that's not what I meant."
"You don't know that."
"Nothing." They glared at each other for a moment, but Naruto didn't move. Sasuke was basically studying his face.
"You're always in my face. Like when we first ran into each other that day in class." Sasuke commented. Naruto rolled his eyes.
"Well no one's behind me to push me into you this time, so I can challenge you all I want from right in your personal space." Naruto argued. Sasuke made a strange face and glanced away, but only for a second.
"Mostly you." Sasuke said within the next minute.
"Wha?" Naruto questioned.
"At night. I think the most about you." Sasuke said more quietly. Naruto stared so hard that Sasuke felt a slight flush cross his face. Naruto felt his cheeks begin to burn.
"What the—I mean.. not that—I don't.. me too." Naruto finished, suddenly the room temperature rising considerably. He didn't move from his crouched position in Sasuke's face, but he felt wildly uncomfortable, almost to the point where he wanted to jump up and flee the room. But he didn't, and he couldn't anyway.
"What's that mean.." He asked in a near whisper. Sasuke sighed.
"Nothing. It means nothing.. just.. we argue way more than we should." Sasuke said. Naruto looked slightly disappointed.
"I know what you said earlier.. a few minutes ago. You said "What's my problem". So.. why? Do you have a problem?" Naruto questioned curiously.
"Stop prying." Sasuke reprimanded, closing his eyes. Naruto pouted for a minute, then started to get up and get a pillow to go to sleep himself, when suddenly Sasuke began talking again.
"I think about how I call you names as a term of endearment. I don't mean it. Sometimes." Sasuke admitted without warning. Naruto's eyes widened a bit, and he plopped down to sit cross-legged in front of Sasuke.
"Huh?...Endearment?" he questioned. Sasuke sat up also and sat cross-legged across from Naruto.
"Yeah.. and.. I think about how I always feel like I have to protect you from people who don't understand you." Sasuke admitted next, appearing freer after each confession. Naruto bit nervously at his bottom lip.
"And.. it's because I feel like I understand you the most. So I pick fights when I think you're wrong, only because of this…this annoying urge to protect you from yourself.." Sasuke admitted in frustration, glancing away and slamming his palm into the floor. Naruto felt his breathing rate pick up a few notches because of Sasuke's intensity.
"I guess you do understand me.. the most.. since.. you told me your story.." Naruto breathed. Sasuke glanced back at him.
"You sound like you're about to.. hyperventilate or something.." Sasuke pointed out, staring at him strangely. Naruto cleared his throat and calmed himself, breathing normally.
"You care about me. You actually.. get worried about me." Naruto finally realized. Sasuke stared at him almost guiltily, as if he wasn't wanting to be found out. But the look on Naruto's face wasn't at all what he expected. And Naruto's face wasn't as far away as it had been either. Naruto leaned closer to him.
"You.. you.. that's so weird.." Naruto murmured, close like he was inspecting him. Sasuke mimicked him and leaned.
"Whatever. You knew it.. right?" he asked. Naruto shook his head.
"You know I worry about you too, right?" Naruto admitted. He watched Sasuke's eyes soften. "I guess." Sasuke answered even more quietly. They steadily got closer, until they paused for a second, their noses a mere inch from the other.
"You know there's something weird going on right?" Sasuke said. Naruto didn't even nod, he only gazed.
"I understand you sooo much better."
"Maybe we should locked in a room overnight more often, eh?"
Their lips brushed, then softly pressed. Only for one second.
"Whoa, whoa what the hell!" Naruto shouted, backing all the way up and scrambling back to the wall. Sasuke merely jumped and scooted back a few yards.
"Oh my God."
"Shhh! Shut up Naruto!" Sasuke ordered, and they were both silent. Slowly they came back to their spots.
"You moved forward." Sasuke said after several seconds of pensive silence. They were sitting again, side by side, facing the fire.
"I--I know.. you moved too." Naruto replied shakily.
"I.. know.." He turned his head to look, and Sasuke had looked at him also.
"My heart is pounding.. It kind of hurts.." Naruto said, swallowing afterwards. Sasuke nodded.
"Mine too.." They didn't say another word then. Sasuke moved first, carefully moving toward Naruto again, watching for any apprehension. Naruto flinched just a bit, but laughed it off nervously.
"S-Sorry. Reflex…I mean you did punch me in the face…" He murmured. Sasuke shook it off and hesitantly placed his arm around Naruto's shoulders, and even more slowly touched his lips lightly to Naruto's.
He got little response until he slowly positioned himself closer and pressed a bit more firmly.
"This is disgusting Naruto.."
Naruto gathered up his nerve and moved his hand over, steadily coming to rest on Sasuke's leg before he gradually began to kiss back. He leaned into Sasuke, feeling the stability, amazed at the security. Sasuke didn't stop; he was a far better kisser than Naruto had ever imagined—and he had certainly imagined—even though it was a little awkward this first time. He began to feel Sasuke's tongue brushing along his lips, and he opened his mouth slightly, letting Sasuke's tongue caress his softly. They separated just as hesitantly as they had come together, and Sasuke felt Naruto shaking slightly.
"This is so wrong.." The blonde muttered, shaking his head at himself.
"Hey.. why?" Sasuke replied. Naruto looked up at him.
"Uh—because it's.. you??" he blushed and fidgeted in Sasuke's hold. Sasuke sighed and let go of him, and they both got a little unnerved.
"Well.. I don't think Kakashi expected we'd get along that well." Sasuke mused, resting his chin in his hand. Naruto finally got up and went to get a pillow, then placed it beside Sasuke's.
"O-okay.. let's…get some rest.. this whole week I've been feeling weird." Naruto said. Sasuke could tell by his voice that he was extremely anxious about the entire thing. They both laid down quietly, watching each other, Naruto with his head resting on his arms, and Sasuke the same way. They stared in silence for about 5 minutes.
"We have something to hide…" Sasuke said soon.
"I guess so.." Naruto agreed quietly.
"I haven't been able to look at you the past month or so." Sasuke admitted.
"It—made me feel weird." He finished. Naruto smiled slightly.
"Yeah? Me too." He confessed. Sasuke looked still thoughtful.
"Naruto.. this isn't too weird for you is it? I—I feel like I still want to touch you.." Sasuke said bluntly, but his cheeks turned a deep crimson color. Naruto shook his head.
"No.. Is it weird I've been wanting to touch you for the past 5 months?" Naruto replied, not even relaxed enough to look Sasuke in the eye. Sasuke was closer in the next second, and had them kissing again on the floor. This time Sasuke was more forceful, and they kissed a little bit feverishly for a few minutes.
"Damn it.. Sakura would kill me.. Worse than that.. she'd murder me in my sleep and wouldn't even bury me properly.." Naruto murmured, his and Sasuke's foreheads together while they caught their breath. Sasuke slowly laid back down and they faced each other still.
"It's weird. I'm not sure I like it." Sasuke noted.
"I know.." Naruto admitted.
The next morning was even more awkward than ever. Naruto stood up rubbing his side, sore from having slept on the floor. Sasuke was already up, and seemingly had been waiting for him before they attempted to get Kakashi's attention to let them out. They said nothing to each other and stood on opposite sides of the table in the center of the room.
"Don't pretend nothing happened at all." Naruto suddenly said.
"That's not what I'm doing."
"Don't give me that crap.."
They stood there heatedly, already in bad moods first thing in the morning. Sasuke then moved and came over to Naruto's side of the table, standing in front of him.
"What did you expect me to do? Something like this maybe.." He came closer his hands on either side of Naruto's face, and pressed into him, covering Naruto's mouth with his and thoroughly tasting him before pulling away and stepping back two steps.
"Good morning." Sasuke finished. Naruto stood there dazedly.
"Uh—good—good morning.." he murmured, looking extremely uncomfortable as he took a deep wavering breath, turning a strawberry red color in the face. Sasuke only smirked slightly and sat on the edge of the table as they heard Kakashi's footsteps approaching.
"Hey!! You two haven't killed each other yet have you?" Kakashi yelled through the door.
"Nope.. just been getting a little too familiar to be comfortable." Sasuke replied as Naruto smiled at him.
There you have it. Sorry if this chapter was so long! I couldn't interupt what was going on though, it flowed too well! Chapter 2; "Tease Me", will hopefully be coming soon! if you want it... R&R if you like! Until next time...