Hey everybody. This is just a songfic that I thought up randomly one day and thought it would be good. The song is Lithium by Evanescence. If you haven't heard it yet, check it out. It's awesome. It turns out Lithium is a silvery white element, and I have no idea why this song is called Lithium, seeing as it has nothing to do with the element. But it's a great song anyway. And it tells Bella's story. All except for the line, "Just didn't drink enough to say you love me." Edward doesn't drink. Anyway, this takes place one year after Edward leaves. Bella didn't jump off of the cliff, and Edward didn't come back. Enjoy.

Disclaimer: I don't own Lithium, Evanescence, or Twilight.

Lithium

Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside.

Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without…

Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow.

Oh, but God, I wanna let it go.

I stared at the wall in the bathroom of Emily and Sam's house. A tear rolled down my cheek, and I had to remind myself that it was their engagement party, and I was supposed to be happy.

Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.

Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.

Never wanted it to be so cold.

Just didn't drink enough to say you love me.

And I was trying. But their happiness together brought my thoughts back to Edward. I tried to get over him. It hasn't been working.

I can't hold on to me,

wonder what's wrong with me.

I put on a fake smile and stepped out of the bathroom. Everyone was seated around the table, as if they were waiting for me. They also had on fake smiles, for they had probably heard me crying. I could see it in their eyes. Pity.

Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside.

Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without…

Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow.

I…

As I sat down, I realized how much of an impact Edward had made on my life. My life was terrible now because of him.

I don't wanna let it weigh me down this time.

Drown my will to fly.

Here in the darkness I know myself.

"Bella, can I talk to you outside?" Jacob said to me, breaking the silence. We walked to the backyard.

"I've been wanting to ask you something," he started. "Would you like to go on a date sometime?"

My jaw dropped. The two of us on a date? "I don't know, Jacob. I don't want to ruin our relationship."

His face fell. "OK. I understand." He walked off to his car, obviously hurt. He started the engine, as I stood in the exact spot.

Can't break free until I let it go.

Let me go.

Was Edward really what I was waiting for? Or was I waiting for someone else to help with the pain? And then I figured it out. Jacob was the one that I wanted.

Darling, I forgive you after all.

Anything is better than to be alone.

And in the end, I guess in the end I had to fall.

Always find my place among the ashes.

I ran up to Jacob's car, waving at him to stop. He got out of the car, puzzled.

Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside.

Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without…

Lithium, … stay in love with my sorrow.

I jumped into his arms, and he kissed me hard.

I'm gonna let it go.