Chapter 9

James watched as his mother in law left Lily's house and then he let himself in. He knew Harry would be asleep by now. He checked the living room, she wasn't there. He checked all the rooms, until he was standing outside her bedroom.

"Lily," he said knocking lightly on the door.

"What?" came her snappy reply.

He opened the door, he immediately saw that she was lying curled up on the bed. He was standing over her. She was curled up like a baby, her covers right up at her chin.

"Lily sweetie…"

"I'm scared James," she said a little voice.

"I know," he sighed. He knew she must be really terrified if she was willing to admit being scared.

He sat down on the edge of the bed and took off his shoes. Then he climbed in next to her, wrapping his arms around her waist and pulling her close to him.

"You don't need to be scared, I'm right here and I'll always be right here," he said pressing a kiss to the top of her head.


"I promise," he said.

"Okay then"


Lily woke up an hour later, she hadn't meant to fall asleep. James was standing with his back to her looking out of the window.

"Hmmm James," she mumbled rolling out of bed.

"I'm still here," he said turning round to her.

"Good," she smiled, there was no denying that her husband was sexy, handsome and….yum.

"Feeling better?" he asked.

"Yeah I am," said Lily.

"That's…..good," said James, he knew what was going to happen. He knew the look Lily had.

Lily reached up putting her hand in the back of his neck, pulling his head down to her and she kissed him…. And one thing led to another.


Later that night Lily woke up again and again James wasn't there. He was looking out the window again, in only his boxers.

"James…." Said Lily pulling on her dressing gown, and walking over to him.

He didn't move or respond, or answer her.

"James…," she said resting her chin on his shoulder, his back was still to her.

Still nothing.

"I don't regret it," she said, wrapping her arms round his waist.

"What's that?" she asked, he was holding something in his hand.

He opened his hand, and there were her rings.

"Oh…" she said, reaching out to touch them.

"I wish you would say something," she said, it wasn't like James to be so quiet.

Lily put her wedding ring finger into the rings, but did not push them down into place.

"It's up to you," she said, "If you want me, put them on like you did 3 years ago."

Still James didn't move or speak or respond to her in any way.

"I love you," she said, "James…please come on, you're starting to scare me"

No response from James.

"James, look at me….please," she said slipping her finger out of the rings.

She took and step so that she was next to him instead of being behind him.

"James Arnold Potter, if you don't snap out of it…." Shouted Lily.

"Sorry," he said quietly.

"Finally," said Lily, "I thought you were ignoring me"

"No I was just thinking," he said.


"This," he said, "with us? I have no idea what is going on in your head"

"I know I'm giving out mixed signals and I'm sorry," she said taking her rings out of his hand.

"I know why you left me, and I understand now. I didn't know how far I pushed you, so when I found you gone I was….shocked, devastated and I don't know."

"I'm sorry"

"No, I'm sorry," said James.

"So…. I guess we have to talk about…you know the baby and….other stuff"

"Hmmmm I guess so. We need to talk, decide stuff about us," said James.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean we have to decide, we can't keep just having sex and…. I can't do it anymore," said James.

"Yeah I know," she sighed.

"So…." He said turning to look her straight in the eye.

She looked down at the rings on her finger, and back up at him.

"I want to try again," she said, "If you want to…"

"If I want to, are you kidding me?" said James in disbelief.

"Is that a yes?"

James didn't answer he just pulled her to him and kissed her.